Melodramatic Fool

Why do I still have my Omaha Public Schools Drivers Education Certificate card (dated 7-16-90) in my wallet? Why have I been keeping this? Why have I been switching it from wallet to wallet for nearly twenty-one years? Self, whyyyyyyyyyyyy.

Anyway. Mostly sleeping, with occasional bouts of checking email/LJ/Tumblr. Cold-thing is starting to improve, but so tiiiiiiiired.

Speaking of Tumblr, is there anyone's out there that I'm missing? My fan one's still http://thingswhatareawesome.tumblr.com/ (and my WoW screenshot one's http://livingflame.tumblr.com/ though it needs updating). The fan one's just like here--focused on Jared, Sam, Wincest, J2, and SPN in general, with occasional reblogs of food, music, games, anime, characters/pairings about which I still get nostalgic, and other stuff that makes me geek out. P.S. for those who still don't know, Tumblr has no LJ cuts except for plain text--THERE ARE SPOILERS THERE. Don't go looking if you don't like.

Made a root beer float earlier (for entirely medicinal purposes, of course), and it's paxlux's fault.

http://thedailywh.at/post/3187829029/re-design-of-the-day-pepsico-is-set-to-unveil-a

My addition on my tumblr reblog:
…I’m sorry, but this short, fat woman is going to keep using short, fat cans. I may not be beautiful and confident, but I don’t need any goddamned soft drinks equating “tall and thin” with “beautiful and confident” for me. Keep your social conditioning and objectifying out of my fucking beverages, TYVM.

Not that I drink soda often, but when I do, I think it'll be anything but Pepsi products (though wtf do I do about all the Mtn Dew the husband likes? >_< )

Omg, is LJ actually back? I'm shocked :p

( 6.10 )

Was woken up a little bit ago by the doorbell (yeah I know, I'm a slacker, I suck)--flowers from my in-laws, as a belated birthday gift. I guess maybe the husband's birthday coming up on the 31st reminded them they'd missed mine back in August? To be honest, I didn't even notice they missed it...currently thinking "didn't they send a card/check or something?"--but I guess they must not have or they think they hadn't?

Had to have a tech out yesterday evening because our internet, cable tv, and even our phone were acting weird. Turns out that one, there was a broken component where the main cable company line meets the line run to the house. But also--the line to the house had been chewed into by squirrels exposing and damaging the inner wire. Squirrels. I just...what.

http://thedailywh.at/post/1407966723/daft-punk-music-video-of-the-day-derezzed

http://www.smbc-comics.com/index.php?db=comics&id=2042#comic
I dunno, I think the 'how to ruin forever' options for all three should be boxes where no one says anything at all.

For so little happening, life feels very strange at times. Also, holy hell, why is waking up so hard. And fuck allergies, seriously.

So when leaving the grocery store, got caught up in some congestion in the parking lot. A lawn service truck and trailer cuts in front of me, but can't completely make the turn, so the dude just makes the congestion worse. I honked at him when he cut me off...and the dude turns to us (mom was in the car, too), and through his open window makes crying motions at us. When we're stopped at the intersection to leave the parking lot, he sat there making more taunting gestures at us.

I'm trying to get ahold of the business, since I could see the name of it on the truck (uh, hello), as well as make note of what the truck and trailer it was pulling's license plates. Haven't been able to get ahold of them though, just a machine. Sounds like it might just be a family business, so I hope to hell I get the woman who did the answering machine message and not the guy (who I'm assuming was the dude driving the truck WAY TO BE A BUSINESS OWNER SIR).

So not like anyone on my flist is from Nebraska, much less from Omaha or the areas that truck screenprinting indicated the business covered (Fremont, Blair, Lincoln), but I figured it was worth noting the business name since this ends up on the internet and can be websearched. Landmark Lawn service who from what I could tell was from 29 county (truck plate 29-8266 and trailer plate ending in -X6654), has an employee/potential owner with extremely poor professionalism and who frankly is a prick while driving his company's vehicle.


Still v. irritable about the extended family situation, now pissed at this (I'd be just annoyed if it were some person in a private car, but a business owner in the business vehicle? PISSED.) And late this afternoon I get to drive to my brother's MFA (creative writing) graduation. Yay for him (his 4th damned degree, christ), but it's an hour drive either way, plus the ceremony time plus the fact that we're supposed to get there 45 min before it even begins. Lovely.

[Edit: I love getting the impression that a parental unit doesn't think I know how to dress appropriately for a graduation. I am, you know, nearly 37 and have attended many official ceremonies and I do have some common sense. I may be a loser slacker-slob, but I'm, you know, going to change into a nice shirt and not stay in this worn out Warcraft shirt. I've still got a few brains left.]

Back to the 4am insomnia a lot again lately. Too bad I can't be productive during those hours and get something done with them--just end up awake but mostly useless. Today especially am extra dead, though--other than driving Mom to her errands and reading a short fic over for someone, all I can do is nap (earlier) or stare (currently). There's stuff I should be doing but all I want to do is sleep again. Which won't help come tonight but even with caffeine there's just no energy at all left. Have even run out of energy for reading, and I mean come on, how hard is it to *read*? Dear self, way to be a waste of oxygen. (And it's stupid, I think hey, at least I get up no later than 8-9 or even as early as 6, but how getting up and then napping a lot different than just sleeping in super late?)

Over the past couple days the songs For Blue Skies by Strays Don't Sleep, Turn and Turn Again by All Thieves, and The Trapeze Swinger by Iron & Wine have made me not just cry, but sob/weep. Fuck you, hormones, fuck you (I was never this bad when I was in my teens/20s. I just, I mean, what.)

As much as I hate Nebraska, I'm glad I'm not having to worry about a tropical storm/hurricane right now. :x Stay safe down there, folks.

( edit: wtfdream )

http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=567
http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=568
http://www.tor.com/stories/2010/06/a-softer-world-15

I swear, ASW would make the freaking best Supernatural fic prompts. Best, I say.

Omg, spnland is overrrrrrrr *flails* Well, the apocalypse is over, but points are still being tallied and there's not been an official announcement of a winner quite yet (though we pretty much know which team it is already). The next apocalypse will start July 1, and I think I am going to be crazy and join in again (woo! \o/). Omg, I did a fan thing and I didn't get overwhelmed and give up partway through I actually finished it yaaaaaaaaay. \o/ And speaking of spnland...

( I wrote something homfg dumb for the crossover/fusion challenge no really hellooo crack )

Yeah. What is this I don't even \o/ I blame it on Team Hell's mod saying that bad fic was better than no fic at all. And I swear I caught a typo of a couple dropped words after I submitted it for the challenge, but hell if I can find where it was now. Ohwell \:p/ (Oh, and that was one of the two entries voted Most Creative. It was that, I guess. XD; )

http://www.myjones.com/limited/wizards
I...so wrong. And yet tempting. At least it's better than some of their holiday flavors. Maybe.

http://nimoysunsetpie.tumblr.com/
I. What. Ahahaha. What.

Feeling sort of hidey, which I guess translates into not replying to comments or working more with the current spnland game like I should, while yet being okay with babbling here. :F Also didn't seem to have problems doing some WoW on Bronzebeard, though I didn't really talk much except to Al and Kas. Made myself get Nin to 73 so I can finally start her on Grizzly Hills, finally finished the Draenei starting area stuff I like so much on Sampala. Still think that ending quest series and the little mini-event at the end after you turn it in is one of the coolest things in the game, and certainly *the* best way of ending a starting zone.

Speaking of spnland and WoW.... Slept for beans last night b/c of the knot in my shoulder, shallow and restless. Had bizarre dreams all night that I was trying to keep up with comment threads, but at the same (quit spelling that as Sam) time was running Sampala around the Draenei capital city, the Exodar. Then I realized that other characters I was passing by had the name of other community members (I distinctly remembering seeing coyotesuspect's name). Yeah, I don't know. I just don't know. Other people get Supernatural dreams, I get spnland/game dreams. What.

For my gamer friends:
http://www.wolfire.com/humble
The Humble Indie Bundle. Being sold for the next 6 days, it's 5 games that you can get either in PC, Mac, or Linux format, and *you name your price*. No lie. You choose how much you want to pay, can either pay by Paypal, Amazon, or Google checkout, and you can choose whether to have what you pay go either all to the Child's Play charity, entirely to the developers, an even split, or a split of your customization. And the games come DRM free. Friend of mine recommends 3 of the games for sure, hadn't tried the other two yet. But it's a great deal, and is worth trying out. The downloads were quick, too.

Also:
http://malandchad.com/ This is cute.

No more allergy shots, which is yay. Though it was because my allergist says they're really not doing any more to help me, sort of hit a plateau and haven't improved over the past year. It's been about 5 1/2 since I started those though, which is about a normal course. He is having me try new allergy meds though, since the Allegra/Nasonex combo really hasn't been working well anymore.

Finally noticed that my bangs are down to my chin. >_< I'd say I have Sam hair, but mine isn't nearly so thick or wavy or full of awesome. Need to get it trimmed, as I look fugly with it gone so long. Won't lose much off the back though, other than to even it up--very nearly to my goal of knee-length.

One last thing and I shut up:
http://community.livejournal.com/graphicinmotion/15178.html
Incredible fanmix by secretlytodream called Not As We, focusing on Sam and Dean this season. I have a thing for s5, I really do, and I've wanted to do a fanmix for it--but she does it just perfectly. And her art is *Amazing*. Truly. And art for each track. The music is just utterly perfect fit, too, and just what I love most--a mix of favorites I already knew, and things I don't know but realize I'm now in love with. (I think I especially fell for Grand Archives, will have to find more of their work someday.)