Melodramatic Fool

Computer's been seriously choking on the 3 gigs of RAM we got when it was new last year. Just Firefox and WoW together have been having serious issues. Machine's been relying on a lot of caching/swap usage, and really has shown on its performance.  Last week the husband found a good deal on used RAM, switched out some modules, and now it's at a beefy 8gig. So incredibly much better. Was obvious right away that it was an incredible improvement--game runs tons smoother, even Firefox runs tons better (especially on the gif intensive tumblr and such).

Probably a good thing. Keeps me from up and burning my hard drive since the rest of it's so nice and not to blame for the crap I store on it (sorry, in a mood). Also finally have v.3-5 of Chii's Sweet Home, which I already read yesterday, and am currently rereading today. Need to drown myself in sweet until I'm not such a dour, mopey grump.

Killing me to not have a PS3. Want DA2 so freaking badly.

Another episode of How I Suck At Everything. This time, tabletop gaming edition. Can't wait for the next episode, online computer game edition (part eleventy-billion), coming tonight. Yeah, I know, just downhormonemo, but still. Just would like to do things and, preferably, be good at them, or at least just be able to do them and have fun without having to always having it pointed out that I'm fucking up. (And it bothers me when I try to talk about it with someone, and I don't get empathy or sympathy, just get blown off. Thanks.) Sometimes I think, is this the way things really are supposed to be--40 more years of just kind of being a screw-up? I just, seriously, what's the point. It's too bad I have no interest in children, my own or adopted, so I could at least feel like I accomplished something.

Funeral for my uncle is on Tuesday, at practically the exact same time my dentist appointment should have been. So first thing Monday I have to call my dentist and re-reschedule (funny thing how I just rescheduled last week because their office-closed days changed).

Been a fuckin cranky old woman the past couple days. Just...annoyed by stupid crap, and feeling like I am totally missing something by the way I simply don't care about certain things that others fan so hard they're all but in hysterics. I dunno, I guess, I just don't go hysterical about celebrities, and I still just am missing *something* about the one that like the whole fandom is nuts over--and I don't gush over celebrity couples, so when people freaking go insane about them, I just am like "...um, okay?" I dunno. I guess I'm just too old, too cynical and jaded, or something. And I'm a fucking picky bitch, too--saw a fic posted to some comm last night that if I didn't have a brain-to-typing filter, so *so* wanted to comment "Ohmygod, are you 12 or something?" So hi, I am a horrible person and full of unpopular opinions and bad thoughts.

Still alive o/ Apologies for being kind of absent of late, but you know *hand wave*. Mood, hidey from holiday stress, then busy with family stuffs, same old. ♥ to those that left holiday wishes on my last post, and thanks to lady_eilthana for the v-gift :D ♥

Kept it really quiet Christmas Eve, for the most part. Had managed to finish all holiday prep (though the husband's idea of holiday prep seems to be toss things together at the last minute, rather than my stress about it for over a month, yet we both get stuff done about the same time. Hum.). Person in my guild continued to be the cause of ~issues~ so I played on unguilded alts that day to not have to deal with him (the situation is currently being dealt with), and thus finally got to see all the goblin and worgen starting areas and storylines. Won't be doing anything more with the one worgen alt, but I like my goblin priest (aiming to go shadow, of course), and she's kind of cute--named her Akathisia. I stumbled across the word recently on Wikipedia and it is strangely awesome.

Christmas we spent the afternoon with extended family at my cousin's place in Lincoln. Tons and tons of food--between that and our own holiday candy, have been overdosing on sugar for days now. Dad's still dealing with a lot of pain from his shoulder surgery awhile back (he was manic from the pain meds Christmas Eve evening when we were at his and my stepmother's place for gifts), and now it's worse because he took a fall on the ice while walking up the street to my cousin's place. He landed on the plastic cooler he was carrying under one arm and had to be taken to the ER where they found he'd cracked a rib. So he's on even more pain meds now, but still in a lot of pain. It really rattled my cousin (though her wife was just stellar at taking care of my Dad and getting him driven over to the Emergicare place, staying with them while they waited) and my aunt. Said aunt is doing well, all things considered (continuing chemo and such), and ended up weepy for another reason when her adopted daughter's longtime boyfriend called and asked my aunt permission to marry her. It sort of felt like some sort of Lifetime sitcom. :p (Though it's better than Mom's side of the family, who, while there's the "normal" ones, the "not normal" ones have become even more freakish and facepalmingly Jerry Springer recently).

Christmas evening was just Mom, the husband, and I back at home doing our gifts and decompressing from a day of omg-too-many-people. From friends I got a book and a 20-sided die that flashes when it rolls 20 (they gave the same to James, unfortunate since I'd gotten him the same thing :p ), got a couple of frames Mom did up with more cat photo collages to go with the ones she'd already hung up in the kitchen, some poetry compilations, holiday-themed socks, and a few cookbooks from another aunt. James gave me a gift card for the iTunes store and a new keyboard, which even though it's just another standard Apple keyboard is so YAY. Had been so frustrated at how bad some of the keys were sticking where that old drink spill had gotten worse again. Also got a little geeky card game, cocoa, and tons of candy. Another friend gave the husband and I both the WoW Li'l Ragnaros pet for in-game, though we still need to activate the codes for that. Got given the Sam & Max games off Steam as well as getting called Christmas Day by Aaron, too, which was way cool even if I eventually had to rush off, and I'm so going to have fun poking at the games (ty again :) ).

Sunday was D&D, the husband's alt game, in which my barbarian missed nearly every will save roll (he's got a mighty 1 in it currently), and the module's encounters demanded a freaking *ton* of said rolls. Lost count of the numbers of times he was stunned or feared (including the one where he ran away and then back for a total of six rounds :| ) The rest of the week should be quiet-ish, though several friends are coming over Friday evening for our gift exchange, and I'll do dinner for them (all easy stuff, though, just heat-up type things). Then Saturday another friend will have us over all afternoon/evening for a very-extended New Year's movie "night", followed by the other D&D game next Sunday.

Other than that, have tabs of fic open that I'm hoping to get to soon, and am still trying to decide if I'm ever going to get caught up on the comments I've procrastinated on since November. :B We shall see. Anyway, HI. Glad to see people have been having decent holidays ♥

I think I shall talk about WoW, and only about WoW, and not even pretend to mix it in with other stuff or tuck it at the end of a post. Wowowowowow. :p

Hmf. I need more current WoW icons...

( okay, fine, walls and walls of text so I guess I'll cut )

Forgot to rec this yesterday:
http://community.livejournal.com/zuben_fic/27254.html
Darker Pieces of the Night, by zuben_eschamali, for spn_reversebang, J2 AU, NC-17, 16,488.
Inspired by some absolutely *amazing* art. A superhero AU, with winged!Jared (winged! Jared! ♥), an interesting world that felt unique, h/c, and intimate, personal explorations of the characters and the relationship that developed between them that you don't tend to find in a story about one or both as superheroes. I was so excited to read this after hearing about it earlier last week, and is one of those fics that I just *enjoyed* reading, that pressed so many of my buttons just right. Definitely on my reread list.

In other "news"...am indulging in night elf therapy in WoW again. Used to do this a lot in vanilla and BC, where when down or stressed, I'd honestly crave to start yet another night elf alt. Teldrassil is still my favorite starting area (sorry, Eversong Woods, you're a close second), and well, I can't help but feel that night elf female is still my favorite to play, as much as I love blood elves and draenei (sorry, Ak, but Sasukeh/Sasuke will always be my first main ♥). Though maybe that's colored by nostalgia. I just...it's so pretty, and the music's so soothing and beautiful, and I dunno. Nostalgia, like I said. Reminds me of when I fell in love with WoW back during the open beta for the original release. And it's familiar, so it's soothing like that, too. She's a warrior with long, dark blue hair named Yared, which may be the Hebrew form of Jared. :p Yeah, I know, I'm lame.

( dean/sam mininano-wrisomifu ficlet )

http://shirt.woot.com/shirts/world-nom-ination-d
B'awww. Yeah, I gotta pony up the ten bucks. :|

Sporting a couple of new bruises, thanks to dealing with the branch that took out our power line Wednesday. One on my shoulder from carrying (one part of the branch took two of us to carry, the main part took all three of us to get it from the back out to the driveway), and one on my leg where part smacked against it repeatedly when I was trying to brace it while James sawed part off (handsaw, we don't have a chainsaw). Not sure what we're going to do with the branch debris (see the no chain saw bit), but since our driveway's wide we can leave it all sit there maybe until I can get someone over to prune the storm damage and run that stuff through a chipper.

I do need to remember to call Cox in addition to the power company about the power line--even with the branch off the cable line, it's still hanging down so low to drape over the fence and touch the ground. I'm surprised it's working. Even though it wasn't pulled away from the house like the power line, it's so stretched. >_o

Beware of stupid WoW babble:
Omgomgomg won the Kalu'ak fishing derby on Ak, woooooooooooooooooooooo \o/ That is such a pain in the *butt* to accomplish. Then I only had one thing left to get his Accomplished Angler (http://www.wowhead.com/achievement=1516) achievement--the rare fish/One That Didn't Get Away one. I've been trying for a Dark Herring (http://www.wowhead.com/item=44703) since WotLK started, and have never managed it, but after hours of fishing in the afternoon, got it :D (of all the rare fish, it's one of the few to be a weapon, I mean it's a dagger but it looks like a fish, so you can kill things *with a fish* \o/ ) So *FINALLY* Ak has Accomplished Angler and thus the title of "Salty". This amuses me more than it should. (What can I say--I'm one of the few WoW players that *likes* fishing. I even max the skill out on all my alts. If there was anyone that should try to get that achievement, it's me--and it was driving me nuts after working on it these past couple years that I still hadn't finished it. :p Felt so lucky yesterday, I nearly went and bought a lottery ticket. :p :p )

Re: today's D&D game...

Leslie (GM): "...and characters from 30 to 300 feet save or are shaken."
Me: "What's 'shaken'?"
The husband and our friend Greg: "Not stirred."
Me: >:|

1. I love it when I forget important things. Argh argh argh. I used to have a brain when I was younger. : /

2. http://www.someecards.com/usercards/viewcard/57b8f9cfc07ab12edca3fd67e439a580 Har.

3. Other fic I liked the past few days:
http://ivynights.livejournal.com/26168.html
Year of the Living Dead, Sam/Dean, R, ~7300 words, coda to 5x22
Made me happy ♥

http://embroiderama.livejournal.com/295845.html
Not Afraid of Dogs, J2, PG-13, 1282 words.
Also for the SPN RPF h/c comment-fic meme at spn_hurtcomfort. Gotta support those few hurt/sick!Jared fics, yeah. I have a major soft spot for how protective Jared would be of his dogs. :x

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/5984869/1/Bottled_Up
Bottled Up by K Hanna, gen, T, 12,441 words.
New K Hanna fic, and it's long \o/ And hurt!Sam because well yeah, this is me. :| So glad to see she's got more 'zine stories that are finally being released.

4. Going to play some dungeoncrawl board game called Descent with some of the folks I DnD with tomorrow afternoon. I suck at board games. Should be interesting. >_o Then racing home for the usual gang to come over in the evening--and hopefully everyone should be there so we can watch Blues Brothers like we were supposed to last Saturday. (Must not forget other important thing in between those two events!)

5. Been running on about 3 hours of sleep a night this week, can't afford to sleep in tomorrow. Good thing I have all that MDWhiteout now, yeah huh?