Melodramatic Fool

For the recent spnland short writing challenge, All's Fair, with the prompt of double cross. I hope they unscreen the entries, because there was one about Sam called Thirty that I want to link to *SO MUCH*. It was so freaking perfect, and exactly *everything* that I feel about 6.01 Sam's motivations. (Take that, random author in a comm I saw who referred to Sam in their fic header as a douchebag.)


Title: Covet
Pairing(s)/Warnings: none
Rating: PG
WC: 586

( Yeah, he'd promised. But Dean had broken promises before, for lesser reasons. )



Title: RIP-TLC
Pairing(s)/Warnings: Dean/Sam
Rating: PG
WC: 465

( Suddenly he felt a lot of sympathy for that friend. )



Title: Do Not Pass Go
Pairing(s)/Warnings: Crack. :p Silly and rather dumb.
Rating: PG
WC: 237
Note: *facepalm* Dear self, way to reuse a title that's already for a decently-known fic in the fandom. Ffffff.

( Dean eyed the battlefield before him, expression serious, focused. )


What I can link to, at least, is keerawa's entry: http://keerawa.livejournal.com/118112.html, Five Deals, Five Days [PG-13] Bela Talbot, 600 words. It's completely brilliant. My default icon's also one of hers, because it is so freaking perfect for October. ♥ (It's October already, wtf wtf wtf \o/ )

Title: FUCK YEAH CHICK FLICK MOMENTS: Power Ballads For Missing Your Brother While He's In Hell (A Dean/Sam Fanmix)
Subject: Dean Winchester
Pairing: Dean/Sam
Disclaimer: Supernatural and Dean and Sam Winchester are property of E. Kripke and the CW. All music included is property of the listed artists/bands and their labels.
Notes: For the recent spnland fanmix challenge. I still suck at graphics, but had fun doing this anyway.

For Dean. Call it what you will--hard rock, classic rock, cock rock, hair band heavy metal--most every band who played that sort of music had their ballads. Because even if you claim to have no chick flick moments, you know love and loss, you grieve, and you cry. This is the music to play during those times--when you're remembering your brother and missing him so damned much; when it hurts so fucking bad you wish he hadn't made you promise to live; when you're still loving him just as strongly, just as forever, as when he was still here.






( Hold up your lighter... )

1. For the spnland writing challenge 004: Brevity (one sentence writing challenge). None of mine won, but at least three of them made it to the second round of voting. keerawa and seisei_ftw kick ass. I'm giving myself brownie points for recruiting 'em both last apocalypse. Team Hell continues to rock out and party hard this apocalypse. ♥

( eight entries )

2. I woke up, on my own, without alarm, at 5:35am. What the hell in fuck.

3. Also, still feel like crap. Awesome. Really hoping the cold isn't trying to turn into something needing antibiotics.

4. Didn't go to that one guy's place for movie night (yeah, yeah, I know...husband really tried to play mediator and eh, I just eventually let it all blow over), because of said cold, but I'm glad I had an excuse since what with no air conditioner I guess it was 95F over there. Disgusting. But he loaned us his Batman: Under the Red Hood dvd, so I didn't miss out. Which is rather awesome of him.

5. http://catandgirl.com/?p=2547 Reminds me of internet fandoms. It's a small, small online world sometimes.

6. Sam, Sam, Sam, Sam, Sam. Jared, Jared, Jared, Jared, Jared. There. At least he's got *someone* out there thinking about him.

7. Remembered the other day why I liked O-Zone. Some of their slow songs were really pretty. And of course, who can't like Dragostea Din Tei. For some reason, it made me nostalgic for old memes and flash animations.

8. August needs to quit going by so fast.

http://www.overcompensating.com/posts/20100702.html
I. I. What. But for some reason it *amuses* me.

This afternoon and evening was almost entirely comprised of doing a spnland puzzle challenge, and then redoing half because I am a dumbass who can't read instructions right. I love the feeling of "1am?? Where the fuck did my evening go??" :| (Even had WoW running, but barely actually managed to play, just treated it like a extra-fancy IM program--though not sure why, because I was talking with everyone in Vent as it was.) Also, I seem to have missed the Team Hell chat (last night?), because I can't seem to manage converting dates and time zones right. Dumbass x2 \o/

Having a cookout tonight with the folks I D&D with, though no fireworks planned. Should still be cool. Originally was going to make something to bring with, but just bought something premade, one because I'm lazy and two at the rate I'm going I probably would have bolluxed that all up as well, or maybe just burned the house down. :p (Nearly messed the oven up *again* Friday night, thanks to two el cheapo frozen pizzas on the oven rack and only one not-as-wide-as-the-two-pizzas cookie sheet beneath them. Woo, go me \o/ )

3am is probably not a wise time to decide I need schmoopy fic *right now*. :|

http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=567
http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=568
http://www.tor.com/stories/2010/06/a-softer-world-15

I swear, ASW would make the freaking best Supernatural fic prompts. Best, I say.

Omg, spnland is overrrrrrrr *flails* Well, the apocalypse is over, but points are still being tallied and there's not been an official announcement of a winner quite yet (though we pretty much know which team it is already). The next apocalypse will start July 1, and I think I am going to be crazy and join in again (woo! \o/). Omg, I did a fan thing and I didn't get overwhelmed and give up partway through I actually finished it yaaaaaaaaay. \o/ And speaking of spnland...

( I wrote something homfg dumb for the crossover/fusion challenge no really hellooo crack )

Yeah. What is this I don't even \o/ I blame it on Team Hell's mod saying that bad fic was better than no fic at all. And I swear I caught a typo of a couple dropped words after I submitted it for the challenge, but hell if I can find where it was now. Ohwell \:p/ (Oh, and that was one of the two entries voted Most Creative. It was that, I guess. XD; )

Feeling sort of hidey, which I guess translates into not replying to comments or working more with the current spnland game like I should, while yet being okay with babbling here. :F Also didn't seem to have problems doing some WoW on Bronzebeard, though I didn't really talk much except to Al and Kas. Made myself get Nin to 73 so I can finally start her on Grizzly Hills, finally finished the Draenei starting area stuff I like so much on Sampala. Still think that ending quest series and the little mini-event at the end after you turn it in is one of the coolest things in the game, and certainly *the* best way of ending a starting zone.

Speaking of spnland and WoW.... Slept for beans last night b/c of the knot in my shoulder, shallow and restless. Had bizarre dreams all night that I was trying to keep up with comment threads, but at the same (quit spelling that as Sam) time was running Sampala around the Draenei capital city, the Exodar. Then I realized that other characters I was passing by had the name of other community members (I distinctly remembering seeing coyotesuspect's name). Yeah, I don't know. I just don't know. Other people get Supernatural dreams, I get spnland/game dreams. What.

For my gamer friends:
http://www.wolfire.com/humble
The Humble Indie Bundle. Being sold for the next 6 days, it's 5 games that you can get either in PC, Mac, or Linux format, and *you name your price*. No lie. You choose how much you want to pay, can either pay by Paypal, Amazon, or Google checkout, and you can choose whether to have what you pay go either all to the Child's Play charity, entirely to the developers, an even split, or a split of your customization. And the games come DRM free. Friend of mine recommends 3 of the games for sure, hadn't tried the other two yet. But it's a great deal, and is worth trying out. The downloads were quick, too.

Also:
http://malandchad.com/ This is cute.

No more allergy shots, which is yay. Though it was because my allergist says they're really not doing any more to help me, sort of hit a plateau and haven't improved over the past year. It's been about 5 1/2 since I started those though, which is about a normal course. He is having me try new allergy meds though, since the Allegra/Nasonex combo really hasn't been working well anymore.

Finally noticed that my bangs are down to my chin. >_< I'd say I have Sam hair, but mine isn't nearly so thick or wavy or full of awesome. Need to get it trimmed, as I look fugly with it gone so long. Won't lose much off the back though, other than to even it up--very nearly to my goal of knee-length.

One last thing and I shut up:
http://community.livejournal.com/graphicinmotion/15178.html
Incredible fanmix by secretlytodream called Not As We, focusing on Sam and Dean this season. I have a thing for s5, I really do, and I've wanted to do a fanmix for it--but she does it just perfectly. And her art is *Amazing*. Truly. And art for each track. The music is just utterly perfect fit, too, and just what I love most--a mix of favorites I already knew, and things I don't know but realize I'm now in love with. (I think I especially fell for Grand Archives, will have to find more of their work someday.)

It's funny that the thing I was looking forward to doing most for spnland was writing, and ironically, what's the thing I haven't been able to do almost at all since it started? Yeah. Started out okay, but ever since.... Nearly nothing. Wouldn't even call it being blocked or locked up, because that implies there's something there to block or lock up. There's just really nothing in my head, writing-wise. And I'm gonna just laugh at myself for the whole "I wanna be a poet" thing, because yeah. To write as a career, you have to be able to, you know.... There's just no words, not for fan stuff, not for original projects.

Naturally, I actually had one idea for this one challenge due tomorrow (love letter from one character to another), and I was like yay and worked on it, and then realized the rules state it's got to be major, named characters and what I had won't work, not a bit. Sooo yeah. Awesomes. Least there's games there, because that's the only stuff I seem to be able to accomplish. That and voting on things.

I guess I could understand if I were just having trouble with character-focused things, because I'm a pretty lousy fan that just isn't as into secondary characters all that much, and some I'm outright *blah* on. I mean, yeah, I like Bobby and some others, but really if it isn't Sam or Dean (or okay, maybe the Impala), I just don't get too motivated. But there's been plenty of general writing challenges that don't demand certain characters, in which I could have written with Sam and Dean. Yet still no inspiration or success at motivating myself.

Then lately when I see everyone talking about their big bang projects, I get the little thought in my head of "Next year I'll try that!". Hey, self? Yeah. This is me pointing and laughing at you. LoooooooooOOOOOOOoooooooool. Pull the other one, it's got bells on. Dumbass.


At least I can accomplish things in WoW (Nin to 72, Sampala to 17), that's worth something right? Right? Yeah, didn't think so. :|

What, me win something at spnland for graphics? How is this even remotely possible? XD;; Hoooooooow \o/ But the Friends Only banner challenge (i.e. FO banners for characters from the show)--

( Lucifer, 1st and Most Accurate )

( Ash, 2nd )

Definitely full of way too much yay about it, but still surprised as hell.

And is that really the last in paxlux's Howl 'verse? D: D: D: I am sad. T__T Must go read. And be sad. :( (Good 'verses aren't supposed to end, noooooooo...)

This is how my flist roooooocks:

spnland Inanimately writing challenge--

http://community.livejournal.com/infatuated_ink/34533.html
cherie_morte firstplace and most creative winning entries

http://keerawa.livejournal.com/103206.html
keerawa third place entry (This one should have been second, imo)


spnland Spnland Writing header challenge--

http://i781.photobucket.com/albums/yy97/spnland_art/writing%20comm%20header/13.jpg
seisei_ftw's winner for most creative (which I still feel--as I voted--that it shoulda been first place, too ^^ ) Omfg, cutest thing EVER. Who is so happy that KatKat decided to join spnland? :D Who is so happy? Meeeeeee \o/


( My entry for the Inanimately challenge )

Was surprised to get 2nd with it. I'd been actually feeling of late that maybe I wasn't doing Team Hell a lot of good, and should I rethink participating, but this was a nice little mental boost that I'm doing a little good for the group at least. ♥ There is a game going on that I'm failing at, though D: Fallen phrases, why do you befuddle me so?

http://www.explodingdog.com/title/doyouknowhowifeel.html Too bad I don't have any coffee.
http://garfieldminusgarfield.net/day/2010/03/22/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJdseQsEbng My new anthem.

( Really lousy quote icons \o/ (that is to say, lousy icons, not lousy quotes) )

After 4:30 and I haven't slept yet. \o/ Way to be.