fanmix of the first kind

[whitereflection]

*Edit: Sounds like the original .ZIP file had a corrupted file in it (track 7), so I re-zipped it and reuploaded it, and just updated with the new link. Hopefully it should be fine now. ^^; Also, adding a Sendspace mirror for the .ZIP link. Might do that for the individual mp3 files if Mediafire gives anyone issues. \o/


You would not believe how many hours I spent finally putting this together. ^^; If anyone finds any problems with any of the links, please let me know. And if you know of anyone else who might like the music, feel free to point them at this post. (Am wondering if it's worth posting this to any communities, hm...)

♥ and happy Friday.


Title: A Letter To My Brother (SamMix: A Sam Winchester Fanmix)

Subject: Sam Winchester

Summary: When the most important person in your world doesn't want to hear your apologies or your explanations, when they won't believe you didn't do it to hurt them, how do you make them understand? A few moments of Sam Winchester's life, saved as a playlist on his iPod for the it'll-never-happen day that Dean might listen to it.

Notes: This is the fanmix I intended to enter for the spnland challenge in early April (though I've changed some track choices since then).

Disclaimer: I have no ownership of the characters of Sam or Dean Winchester or of Supernatural, but am simply utilizing such for fanworks purposes. All music included is property of the listed artists/bands, and is being shared, again, for fan purposes (and because Sesame Street teaches us sharing is good).












A Letter To My Brother Fanmix .ZIP
.ZIP Sendspace mirror

daydreaming of another life
1. Electric President - Good Morning, Hypocrite
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lyrics

I've lost my taste for modern things. They're not for me.
I want mundane: a quiet place, where time is free,
...
So I climbed through the window and walked until I lost my name.
Now I can play the victim. It's fine. I've seen it on TV.
...
I used to watch the moon retreat and wonder where it goes.
Now I just wonder why my head is overrun with ghosts.

-

leaving (and regretting it...yet not)
2. Alice In Chains - Check My Brain
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lyrics

So I found myself in the sun, oh yeah
A hell of a place to end a run, oh yeah
...
I walk these streets, I creep and I fall, oh yeah
When she sang I answered the call, oh yeah
...
I hung my guns and put em away, oh yeah
The trick of the trade, and by the way, oh yeah
California, I'm fine
Somebody check my brain
California's all right
Somebody check my brain
Aaaah tears have filled my bones
aaaah years expended gone

-

end of season 1
3. Porcupine Tree - Arriving Somewhere But Not Here
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lyrics

Could you imagine the final sound as a gun
Or the smashing windscreen of a car?
Did you ever imagine the last thing you'd hear as you're fading out
Was a song?
...
All my designs, simplified
And all of my plans, comprimised
And all of my dreams, sacrificed
Ever had the feeling you've been here before?
Drinking down the poison the way you were taught
Ever thought from here on in your life begins
And all you knew was wrong?

-

season 1 and 2
4. Radical Face - Glory
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lyrics

I was born when they took my name
When the world turned wicked, when I joined their game
But I turned and fought them
Like you always knew I'd do
I sat and dreamed at the foot of your bed
You split my skull and reached inside my head
And pulled out the pictures I'd been wishing I'd forget
And you stitched me up then
And wiped the blood from off my chin
...
But I was blessed with bad eyes
There's a lot that I miss but I don't mind, I'm not that old
I'll find out what broke me soon enough

-

All Hell Breaks Loose, and after
5. City and Colour - Sleeping Sickness
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lyrics

I awoke only to find my lungs empty,
and through the night so it seems I'm done breathing,
and now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be,
and I'm breaking down,
I think I'm breaking down.
And I'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me,
such as living with the uncertainty,
that I'll never find the words to say which would completely explain,
just how I'm breaking down.
...
I've become the simple souvenir of someone's kill,
and like the sea I'm constantly changing from calm to ill,
madness fills my heart and soul,
as if the great divide could swallow me whole,
oh how I'm breaking down.
Someone come and,
someone come and save my life.

-

6. Our Lady Peace - All You Did Was Save My Life
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lyrics

I tried to run but I couldn't move,
Well I paid for these concrete shoes,
But like the singer that sings the blues,
You saw hope in the hopeless.
...
I started to come around,
The dogs are backing down,
I'm not afraid to see,
The Devil's gone underground,
This tightrope's been cut down,
And I can finally breathe
...
I'm not dying,
All you did was save my life,
Pulled me out of that flat line,
Put the heartbeat back inside.
I'm not dying,
All you did was get me through,
I owe every breath to you,
Heart and soul unparalysed,
All you did was save my life.

-

losing Dean
7. The Killers - Goodnight, Travel Well
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lyrics

The unknown distance to the gray beyond
Stares back at my grieving frame
To cast my shadow by the holy sun
My spirit moans, with a sacred pain
It's quiet now
The universe is standing still
And there's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now
And there's nothing I can say
There's nothing we can do now
And all that stands between the soul's release
This temporary flesh and bone
And know that it's over now
I feel my fading mind begin to roam
Every time you fall, and every time you try
Every foolish dream, and every compromise
Every word you spoke, and everything you said
Everything you left me, rambles in my head

-

season 4
8. Beck - Brother
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lyrics

Brother are you really here?
The package I received is gone
Are you a phantom detective
Can you read my soul backwards?
I will glide with you
If you are a backwards ghost
I will hire you
Brother are you really home
Holy as a blessed worm
Paradise ambassador; bring me to your room
And I will throw you rocks today
"Watch them pass right through" you say
"This is not a game or test
We both have done some grieving"
...
And I have read in paper books
My eyes are glands on twisted hooks
Never have I felt or looked
So sorry for you now

-

caught between the need to use his powers and destroy Lilith, and Dean's insistance he stop
9. Cage The Elephant - Back Against The Wall
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lyrics

Blanket of silence
Makes me want to sink my teeth in deep
Burn all the evidence
A fabricated disbelief
Pull back the curtains
Took a look into your eyes
My tongue has now become
A platform for your lies
...
Deep in the jungle
Camouflaged by all the fallen leaves
A hand holds up the sky
While shamefully I make my plea
The altar's callin’
But my legs won’t seem to stand
Guess I'm a coward
Scared to face the man I am
I said you got me where you want me again
And I can’t turn away
I'm hanging by thread and I'm feelin’ like a fool
I'm stuck here in-between
The shadows of my yesterday
I want to get away
I need to get away
Now you know
Yeah you got my back against the wall
Oh god
I ain't got no other place to hide
Chained down
Like a sittin’ duck just waitin’ for the fall
You know
Yeah you got my back against the wall

-

addiction
10. Switchfoot - Mess Of Me
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lyrics

I am my own affliction
I am my own disease
There ain´t no drug that they could sell
Ah there ain´t no drugs to make me well
There ain´t no drug
...
It´s not enough
The sickness is myself
I made a mess of me I wanna get back the rest of me
I made a mess of me I wanna spend the rest of my life alive
...
We lock our souls in cages
We hide inside our shells
It´s hard to free the ones you love
Oh when you can´t forgive yourself

-

trying to atone and regain lost trust--and to be treated as an equal
11. Assemblage 23 - Human
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lyrics

There have been times throughout my life
When I fell so far
I thought I'd never stand again
I watched my dreams depart
...
Ignore the writing on the wall
It just decorates
A place that I have lived so long:
Delusion's vast estates
There's nothing sinister at all
Gnawing at my soul
But these confessions that I give
Help me feel in control
...
No absolution comes for free
And it never will
And those among us without sin
Are even rarer still
If imperfection is the lens
That you see me through
Don't be surprised if someday soon
That lens stares back at you
Forgive me my mistakes
I'm only human
I bleed just like you
From time to time
So why can't I convince you
I'll be fine?

-

12. 3 Doors Down - Let Me Be Myself
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lyrics

I guess I just got lost
Bein' someone else
I tried to kill the pain
Nothin ever helped
I left myself behind
Somewhere along the way
Hopin' to come back around
To find myself someday
...
I'll never find my heart
Behind someone else
I'll never see the light of day
Living in this cell
It's time to make my way
Into the world I knew
Take back all of these times
That I gave in to you
Lately I'm so tired of waiting for you
To say that it's ok, but tell me
Please, would you one time
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
And let me be myself
For a while, if you don't mind
Let me be myself
So I can shine with my own light
Let me be myself
That's all I've ever wanted from this world
Is to let me be me

-

the uncertain path to becoming brothers again
13. The Wholes - You And Me
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(local band, now most likely defunct, no web lyrics available; transcribed from their Bella Vita CD liner notes, edited according to the mp3)

Been sittin' by the phone, all goddamn day
Been wonderin' where to run
and who I'll meet along the way
And these cartoons they make me numb
I guess I'll watch them and I'll stay
Gonna find out who I am
I don't know what I'm supposed to be
Sometimes I read the answers wrong
when it's so cloudy I can't see
But those people that you're tryin' to impress
They don't think like you and me
Those people that you're tryin' to impress
They don't think like you and me
I'm sorry that I yelled at you
when I thought you were wrong
Another problem solved with alcohol
like in some fucked up redneck song
And life is a lot like smoke, puff and we are gone
Life is a lot like smoke, puff and we are gone
Just like you and me
We are gone
Just like you and me
And we are gone
Just like you and me
And we are gone
Just like you and me
We are gone
Just like you and me

-

from Dark Side of the Moon to the Point of No Return
14. Mumford & Sons - Hold On to What You Believe
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lyrics

I can't promise you that I won't let you down
And I
I can't promise you that I will be the only one around
When your hope falls down
But we're young
Open flowers in the windy fields of this war-torn world
And love
This city breathes the plague of loving things more than their creators
I ran away
I could not take the burden of both me and you
It was too fast
Casting love on me as if it were a spell I could not break
When it was a promise I could not make
But what if I was wrong?
...
And now this land
Means less and less to me without you breathing through its trees
At every turn
The water runs away from me and the halo disappears
And the hole when you're not near

-

seeking reassurance that no one's giving up, and that they'll always have each other
15. Elbow - The Everthere
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lyrics

All my saints have taken bribes
Singing going going gone
All the angels taken dives
Leaving you the only one
...
Slide into another book
Now and then laugh out loud
Throw that very dirty look
That says
OK
Stop staring at me now
If I lose the sequence here and there
Less daring-do than quiet care
Can I rely on you
For a good talking to
To be for me the everthere, everthere
If I loose a sequin here and there
And take my time on every stair
Can I rely on you
When this whole thing is through
To be for me the everthere, everthere


A Letter To My Brother Fanmix .ZIP
.ZIP Sendspace mirror


"Can I rely on you when this whole thing is through, to be for me the everthere?"

Comments

[keerawa.livejournal.com]

Exciting! *downloads immediately*
ETA: Track 7 from the zi pwas corrupt. I picked up the individual download for i - just wanted to let you know. Looking forward to listening to this on the train!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

♥ Thanks! :D I'm hoping you like it, or at least provides good distraction for your commute. ^__^ And thanks so much for letting me know about the file--I rezipped it and uploaded the new file. So crossing my fingers that it's all good now. At least Mediafire worked for you, glad to know that--someone else mentioned having problems with the site. \o/

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Is it only me or is medifire is dead for now? O.O The fanmix looks really interesting and I wanted to DL it, but I can't go to the link :\

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

So sorry it was giving you problems. :( I'm not sure if it was a temporary thing or what, but just in case Mediafire keeps giving you problems, I added a Sendspace link as well. http://www.sendspace.com/file/5g34h8 Hope that works for you! Let me know if it doesn't, or if any of the files have any issues.

[secretlytodream.livejournal.com]

Oh, thanks so much hon! Sorry for extra troubles :\
Downloading!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

No problem at all. Just am glad you were willing to give it a try. :) Thanks!

[lavenderrav.livejournal.com]

Downloaded. Everything works fine for me. Thanks so much for sharing, this is awesome! :D

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much! :D

[agent-jl36.livejournal.com]

This is awesome! Thanks! I'm always looking for new music and I'm not familiar with the artists on your fanmix, so ROCK ON!!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

This is *THE* #1 thing I've always liked about fanmixes, the chance to try something new and discover. I've got a list of bands and artists I never would have fallen for if it hadn't had been for something someone shared like this. So glad I was able to do that for someone else. :) Thanks much!