Melodramatic Fool

Ugh, I need to post. Have fallen out of the habit so badly, and tumblr's mindless reblogging is just so nice when I get to procrastinating about actually saying things, and/or am being a hermit. Anyway, bulletpoints to catch up:

•Had a pipe from the kitchen down to the basement go bad and leak, resulting in the first time ever for making a homeowner's insurance claim. "Minor", but still resulted in weeks of repairs and contractors--plumber, carpenter, water damage treatment company, drywaller, painter, etc, multiple visits of each. And well, not the worst expense, but still expense.

•In amongst that, naturally was time to renew my driver's license and had to plate/pay sales taxes on the new(ish) car

•Had to deal with my aunt's, mother's, and stepmother's birthdays, am now about to my own. Not digging the whole nearly-38 thing.

•Did jury duty, actually got placed in a jury for a county criminal trial. Luckily, found out when it was time for deliberations that I was the alternate juror and could leave. The whole situation massively pushed all my anxiety buttons--I do not deal with new things well, nor with situations involving conflict/arguing. Also luckily, Omaha is 'one day-one trial', so once you do your day/trial (if it goes longer than a day, though mine didn't), your jury duty service is considered complete. So no spending days/weeks on it.

•Family member has gotten themselves into some trouble; nothing I can do for it but listen when my parents want to talk about it. It's not the end of the world, I'm sure they can work through it with some time. Just a strange and weird thing, the way people can fuck up.

•Still haven't gotten to show Sherlock (BBC) to the gals that come over on Saturdays. Stuff keeps coming up. GOING TO ASAP. Am going to demand it Saturday. (Have inflicted Stonehenge Apocalypse on one group of friends; eventually after Sherlock stuff, will make the gals watch it, too. Trolololol.)

•Health willing, as am dealing with a cold for the last few days.

•Over the years, have seen bits and pieces of Nine and Ten era Dr.Who--have downloaded damned near all of the five-so-far seasons, am currently up to s1ep5 of Nine. Enjoying the hell out of it. Need to watch more.

•Have not been raiding in WoW, just doing the new dailies/achievements. But have come to the decision--I'm going to faction switch Akseru from horde to alliance, to do casual raiding with the husband's guild. They seem okay people, stable and low drama, from what I've seen playing on an alt there. I don't like the look of alliance male characters though, so Ak will be changing from a male bloodelf to a female human. In my mental RPG for the character, it actually suits him and is oddly fitting. And it's still him, even when a her. Don't ask :p The husband has done a Figureprints statuette of what he previously looked like for my birthday, and now that that's shipped, will do the faction switch later today. I guess it's come down to that in my very first guild six years ago, I didn't know anyone--but every time since, every time, that I've joined a new guild, I've known RL and/or online friends already in said guild. At this point, I don't want to join somewhere I don't know anyone at all. So this works for me right now.

•PS I am looking forward to more Supernatural, and will be watching s7. I guess the extent of my fanning is just reblogging a bit of stuff on tumblr, and sometimes reading a short fic here or there. It's just sharing my attention with Sherlock, Dr.Who and even Community, and I'm more feeling part of the Sherlock fandom than anything else, atm--even if I've pretty much proven to myself with one poem that I can't write for it for crap :p But I do so love reading the fic. S/J fic yes yes yes ♥

•But seriously: Sherlock Sherlock Sherlock Sherlock Sherlock ♥ Martin Freeman and Benedict Cumberbatch can shake my boat any day.

•...is that everything? Am I caught up? o_O I think that's everything.

•Oh wait--very, very, very belated thanks to silverraven and cherie_morte for the vgifts. \o/♥ So sorry it took...a month and a half, ugh >_< for me to say something.

Guild name seen in WoW: <Seven Inches Unbuffed> Oh, eyeroll. Thirteen-year-old boys, unite. :p

Speaking of WoW, I have...been slightly immersed lately. Finally working on another Horde rogue alt, at last finally one I'm happy with and won't end up deleting for annoyance at appearance (or because of server transferring). Am very much enjoying seeing the post-Cataclysm old world zones finally, as I've wanted to do since the xpac began--interesting to see the visual changes, but also the alterations in quest design. Very much liking so far. But the one thing I really dig about the rogue class, is that no matter what changes, I have no problem understanding and playing the combat spec--something that isn't true for any other class I play. Oddly enough, despite female bloodelves not being my favorite to play, the alt is yet another one of them (my third). Because I am a lame weirdo, in my mind she's sort of a fem!Jared in look, named Samaara because of well, yeah (Samarra was taken, but I like this other spelling better now anyway).

Finally got the Stood In The Fire achievement, but of course on Samaara and not on Akseru like I really wanted. :p But it was neat to see--everything goes cherry KoolAid red, the sky goes black, then half a minute later, bam, everything and everyone's fried by the dragon's fire. That means players, game NPCs, monsters, critters, everything in the area. XD Good times.

Today there was Easter candy, woo hoo \o/ Made deviled eggs (which were awesome, tyvm), and a ham/fresh asparagus/hashbrown casserole that included a rather nice red pepper havarti cheese. And in other food news, Late Night Snack is ZOMFG amazing. I have been remiss in not trying Americone Dream, though, and will be doing so next (pint's already in the freezer \:D/ )

Bah, so need to switch out some icons.

Oh, comfort food, why do you do this to me. Sudden and massive craving for Chef Boyardee Beefaroni. So gonna end up with heartburn, I just know it. The peppermint Little Debbie Swiss Cake Roll probably won't help either. Self, honestly, going to grow up someday maybe?

Started work on a masterlist. It's actually going to take some time to put together, which kind of surprises me. I guess I should expect it, since I've been posting off and on for different fandoms since 2003. Most's still Supernatural or influenced by such, though.

Didn't realize I was having an insomnia attack when I was distracted by working on that last night, though. Didn't even notice the time until it was near 4:30am. Oops.

Good god, what I would do to go to a SPN con. :/ Never could afford one, though. I don't even think I could afford a fan con like Wincon, though man, I would die to go.

Made http://www.guidingstars.com/expert-chef/moroccan-pork-loin-and-athenian-couscous-salad/ yesterday and ohman, sogood! Only tweak I did chopping a bag of dried apricots, simmering them in a little extra vegetable broth, and tossing them in with the sliced onions under the pork loin chunks. Seriously, so good! *__*

In addition to http://livingflame.tumblr.com/, I also have http://thingswhatareawesome.tumblr.com/, but really that second one's just going to be for reblogging purposes. Tumblr makes me lose time like I've been kidnapped by aliens. >_< Yest afternoon, somewhere between 3-5pm just *disappeared*.

The way to do things: take a nice bowl of microwaved-from-frozen steelcut oatmeal, triple berry--nice and healthy. Sprinkle mini chocolate chips on top, stir in. I am such an awesome adult.

I want to rec a fic, but it's not done yet. :| *impatient* (Getting preview tidbits is the best thing. ♥)

The tub drain plug/lever thing's being replaced, about 150$ as I expected. Less expected was the discovery that the pipe leading away from the bathtub drain has become frighteningly corroded this past year, and absolutely requires replacing of said segment, for another 500$. D:, *facepalm*, arghlwarghl, etc., and so on.

After last week's hormone-induced anxiety and then massive anger, I've meandered through a more typical low mood and then back to holy crap anxiety. :x Hence a panicky bout of Doing Things of a RL and holiday nature. At least that means the bills and present-wrapping are caught up on (only bits left are the last couple things yet to arrive). Have started planning my must-do list of things for January, including insurance and house-related issues. I guess this is the sort of thing I am good for now, but it means contacting people, which yeah, not my best skill.

( foolish WoW fretting )

Jojo, I swear that beta will happen tomorrow, I mean it this time. :( It'll be my first thing on the list this time, I promise.

I swear, I am trying to be better today. Really, I promise. I've been trying. :x But. (You knew there was going to be a "but", right?)

The place repairing the car called to update today and left a message. Now it's not even the Monday/Tuesday promised yesterday. Now they say they're waiting for three parts, the last of which will not arrive until Wednesday the 22nd. But it gets *better*. The scheduled "done" date? DECEMBER 30th. I just...let me summarize my feelings on this by quoting the internet: WHAT IS THIS I DON'T EVEN. If that's the case, they want to keep our car--for a minor fender-bender repair that is only requiring *three* parts--for a total of FIFTEEN days?? WTHIF.

I am *livid*. I know there's holidays, but this is fucking *ridiculous*. Even with it coming in the 22nd, I can't understand why they won't just get on it and then get it out by the 23rd. Why is this repair going to take EIGHT fucking days after they finally get the parts?

Called the husband at work and asked him to call the repair place and/or our insurance company. At the least, our insurance company needs to know that one of their chosen repair centers is absofucking dicking us around. And yeah, called the husband at work to make those calls, because while I am at home, if I were to contact them, there would be *screaming*. For fuck's sake.

Anyway. At the least, the rental is very nice, a 2010 Mazda 3 4d sedan with many ~features~. Considering I'm used to an eleven year old car with no features at all, it is rather neat. It makes me consider one of that type whenever we do get another vehicle.

But ugh...I want to hide in WoW to destress, but right now even WoW is stressing me. I absolutely don't even want to try more heroics at this point, and sort of want to just hide from the game entirely rather than deal with them. I sort of hate this point in the game. :x I know as a progression raider, that's what has to be done, just working on your main toon until they're ready for raiding so you don't slow down the group. But I want so badly to just play some meaningless alt and hide. I have such juvenile, regressive ways of reacting to stress. :/

Yeah, still sick. But improving, I promise. This thing seriously kicked my ass, and I'm unfortunately used to how colds treat me. Least I don't feel like I need a dr/antibiotics anymore, just normal-cold cruddy. No energy though, which really gets aggravating. A good night of sleep would help, but just can't seem to thanks to waking myself up contantly coughing--either getting up for cough syrup/drops keeps me up for awhile or if it's past 5am, I might as well just get up, you know? But a few hours a night is gettin' a mite old. ^^;

UGH, need a new keyboard. Long time ago, I'd had a spill that'd gummed up a few keys--they got kinda-sorta better, but then recently have out of the blue gummed up even *worse*, and my 6-7-8 are darned near non-functional. Guess I know what my Christmas money from Dad will go toward.

OMFG WOW: CATACLYSM TONIGHT \o/!!! Shows how out of it I am--I kept thinking when I heard midnight release 12-7, that meant midnight Tuesday. No, Beavis, you dumbass, that means Monday midnight. Oy. I seriously only realized this *last night*.

For some reason, realizing Cata comes out tonight instead of tomorrow night started me on some sort of anxiety-cascade, and thus massive insomnia before the coughing problem even factored in. >_< Aasfsdkjfk. I'm just so behind on basic house stuff, and thought I was okay on holiday things but now feel hugely behind. And I'd wanted to do cards for people, but honestly that's not going to happen. :/ So I really love all those that have posted entries saying to leave an address for a Christmas/holiday card, but I feel really weird taking and not giving. Bad enough I've left prompts for comment-fic when I'm not going to have anything to offer.

Was supposed to go to the husband's work holiday dinner tonight, but highly likely not doing so. And of course, had planned on waiting at Gamestop this evening for the midnight release, but that's probably not a good idea. :/ The husband is willing to do it, which is cool, since he's not one for standing out in crowds and usually I'm the weirdo that does that sort of thing. (Unfortunately it does mean standing out in the cold again >_< Which is why I definitely can't do it.)


PS REGARDING A CERTAIN TV GUIDE COVER WOOOOOO HELL YEAH FANDOM :D :D :D Holy cats, for the first time in like a decade I actually give a shit about buying a TV Guide. XD;

Got Missy-cat to the vet this morning. They removed the growth, a short procedure that only took a bit over an hour. They'll send it for biopsy so we should know in a few days if it's something that we need to worry about. For now, she's doing really well, not acting too out of the ordinary at all. They gave her an antibiotic and steroid shot, and it left only a small incision, so hopefully it'll heal quick. Then there'll just be taking her back in a couple weeks to get the sutures out.

Another 550$+ today, though. : / This has been an expensive, expensive year for the cats. We never intended to have that many, but I kind of have liked having four. But I'm starting to agree with the husband's statement that as they age and eventually die, that he doesn't ever want to have more than two at a time again. I don't know how we ended up with ones that all have so many medical issues. There's always been so many other animals I've wanted to have, too, but I couldn't imagine doing so now, even beyond him saying no--the cost, even for just normal stuff, is so high. And when they have health issues, it's just astronomical. : /

Ugh, and now I've been short with Mom about something in regards to this all, and I seriously hate when I do that. But she gets so overly concerned, almost obsessive, about the littlest things, almost hypochondriac, and I'm already stressed and worrying about it all and about costs, and I just...crap. I mean, we've been home just a bit over an hour, and of course she's going to groom it some--they only said to go back for the cone if she really won't leave it alone--ffs, give it some time, mother.

Read the first two volumes (and some of the third) of Scott Pilgrim at Borders while Missy was having the vetwork done. Really was liking it, wish I could buy them. Definitely want to see the movie when it hits DVD.

I swear I'll get to comments tomorrow. :x Right now I want comfort!pizza-rolls. :x

So, anyone remember my cooking fail #3245340989 back awhile ago when I reheated chicken in the oven on an airbake pan (the sort that has holes in the bottom), and nearly set my oven on fire because of the grease/oil pooling on the bottom?

Stupid mistake, but you learn, and life goes on, right? RIGHT?

The other night, I made garlic bread. Margarine all over this bread, in the oven, on the airbake pan with holes in the bottom. I had a momentary thought of, oh hey, maybe I should put foil under these but thought naaah, why would I need to. I had no idea that there was enough margarine that it would seep out of the bread slices (admittedly, a hard-crusty sort). But it did, and thus oil on the bottom of the stove, started to burn and smoke, set off the smoke alarm. So yeah, another stupid, but I guess another one of those learning-stupid sorts of things.

IT GETS BETTER.

After the chicken, I cleaned the bottom of the stove, got all the oil up.

After this garlic bread--I didn't even think to check the oven. Didn't even look. I think I just sort of assumed oh hey, surely there wasn't that much oil there.

Guess what. There was a lot of oil. And it was still there when I went to pre-heat the oven to start cooking dinner a bit ago.

Didn't just smoke, it SMOKED. House was fucking *filled* with smoke. Had to open the front door, patio door, garage door, and get the kitchen ceiling fans on high, and turn on all the box fans to try to blow air toward the open doors. It stinks in here. And now I've got to let the rest burn away (I won't lie--this was probably stupid, too but I have to admit I pulled out oven racks and found a rag I didn't mind trashing, soaked it with hot water, and sopped up the remaining oil best I could.) so I can even attempt to cook, because how awesome will stuff taste when it's seasoned with burning, huh?

But seriously. Why am I so freaking stupid like that? Why do I make so many stupid, brainless mistakes like that. I allegedly have common sense. Now I'm like the 'gifted' kid in the old Far Side cartoon that's shown pushing on the door marked "pull". Good fucking grief. I swear, one of these days I'm going to end up killing us all because I'm a dumbass. : /

For the everything is about spn tag:
http://sadnesses.tumblr.com/post/1000560582
http://www.iwrotethisforyou.me/2010/06/taking-of-turns.html

Mood swing lingering, mixed with high anxiety. Bit of insomnia, a lot of procrastinating about everything except a few absolute must-do things (about one must-do a day seems what I'm capable of). Or procrastinating until the deadline passes and it just becomes skipped. Though it says a lot that what's highest on the anxiety/panic list is that I'm still failing at writing the summer_sam_love fic I said I'd do, rather than say, the fact that I'm still jobless and in lieu of employment still haven't committed to going back to school. Way to be an adult, self. (Also, it's a bit extra stupid that a couple of weeks ago, I got an email from the community mods checking in if I'd still be doing my claim fic, and I could have asked to have the episode given to someone else. But no, I said I'd be ready. I promised. It's stupid to be failing even in hobbies. And I know I still have several weeks, but I have come up with *nothing* so far. And yet I told them I was going to be ready. How can I go back to the mods and say no, I really can't do it after all? Stupid. I wish I hadn't been "up" then, and able to be more realistic.)

I really need to take a lesson from those who are going through similar real life type issues (or worse), and who are actually *doing* things about it and not just hiding and fearing and being useless.

Noted I've been procrastinating about getting my hair cut since May. It was too long/a mess even then. Yeah.