Melodramatic Fool

( unpopular opinions ahoy )

In other news, omfg almond milk. Best food ever ♥ Especially on this best granola ever I got at the farmer's market (cranberry & pecan, om nom nom).

I swear, I am trying to be better today. Really, I promise. I've been trying. :x But. (You knew there was going to be a "but", right?)

The place repairing the car called to update today and left a message. Now it's not even the Monday/Tuesday promised yesterday. Now they say they're waiting for three parts, the last of which will not arrive until Wednesday the 22nd. But it gets *better*. The scheduled "done" date? DECEMBER 30th. I just...let me summarize my feelings on this by quoting the internet: WHAT IS THIS I DON'T EVEN. If that's the case, they want to keep our car--for a minor fender-bender repair that is only requiring *three* parts--for a total of FIFTEEN days?? WTHIF.

I am *livid*. I know there's holidays, but this is fucking *ridiculous*. Even with it coming in the 22nd, I can't understand why they won't just get on it and then get it out by the 23rd. Why is this repair going to take EIGHT fucking days after they finally get the parts?

Called the husband at work and asked him to call the repair place and/or our insurance company. At the least, our insurance company needs to know that one of their chosen repair centers is absofucking dicking us around. And yeah, called the husband at work to make those calls, because while I am at home, if I were to contact them, there would be *screaming*. For fuck's sake.

Anyway. At the least, the rental is very nice, a 2010 Mazda 3 4d sedan with many ~features~. Considering I'm used to an eleven year old car with no features at all, it is rather neat. It makes me consider one of that type whenever we do get another vehicle.

But ugh...I want to hide in WoW to destress, but right now even WoW is stressing me. I absolutely don't even want to try more heroics at this point, and sort of want to just hide from the game entirely rather than deal with them. I sort of hate this point in the game. :x I know as a progression raider, that's what has to be done, just working on your main toon until they're ready for raiding so you don't slow down the group. But I want so badly to just play some meaningless alt and hide. I have such juvenile, regressive ways of reacting to stress. :/

/rant on

Have been picking my way through an individual's substantial rec list (not an individual on my flist), and one particular story just aggravated the spit out of me. J2 fic, and just...holy fucking crap, Jensen was so painfully out of character it makes me want to stomp around and make monster noises.

Not only was he described so physically...off, like all slight and slender and frail (um, just because he's no body builder, do they not notice the guy seems to have really awesome muscles?), but oh god, his personality. I'm not talking simply shy and reserved--but absofucking unable to stand up for himself in anything. All but incapable of defending himself at all (which of course meant Jared coming to his rescue multiple times in the fic)--but also with absolutely no self esteem at all, a complete and total spineless doormat that was at the mercy of the person he was in a horrid relationship with. I just can't put into *words* how...beyond meek, but *weak* he was written as.

So I understand in RPF/RPS or whatever you call it, it's a fantasy, an imagined thing. But you're choosing to write with a certain individual for a *reason*, right? Because you are interested in them as they are, right? Not because you just like their goddanged name and slap it on a caricature so not resembling the individual that you might as well have given them a freaking brand new name?

I have said and I will always say--if you're writing fanfiction about characters, fiction based on real individuals, you use their physical likeness and personalities. If you aren't going to stay in character, just freaking accept you're making your own characters and put it out there as an original story.

What annoys me the most is that in this rec, there's the phrase The image of Jensen in this story is of luminous, fragile beauty which is so very alluring. ...I just. Not only is this story where the characterization is so fucking *wrong* recced, but the way he's written, the way he's so godawfully, painfully OOC is *praised*. Luminous, fragile beauty my ass. Written like a uke bishounen combined with a bad bodice ripper heroine, with with a martyr complex and absolutely no ability to take control of anything in his life at all. All this in a romcom fic setting.

Honestly. I just can't comprehend how there can be such good writing out there--but at the same time some writers get attention and praise, even from people who've written amazing things, for what's obviously quantity without quality. I just...RRGH.

/rant off

Taking Mom to my second cousin's wedding shortly, and Nebraska being what it is, they've changed their mind twice already today about whether it's being held outside or at where the reception will be. They've settled on outside, even though we're still predicted to have thunderstorms. \o/ Should be awesome. At least the aunt I ranted about recently won't be there after all--I guess only some of the family is invited (the term 'good parts of the family' may or may not have been used). Ah, family politics. Just the way my mother's side of the family is--there are just some with whom most people really, really, really, really would not want to associate.

The other day in WoW, I reported another player to the GMs for having the name "Nofatgirlsx". They dealt with the situation, and forced them to change their name. Which they changed to "Nofatgirlsxo". Have rereported them. Saw another name I wanted to report because it's gross and once again a crack on women, but didn't because I didn't want to be seen as causing trouble with too many reports at once. May do so in a couple days. Just a reminder of what the online environment can be like. I once saw a poll on NPComic about whether it was harder to be a male gamer or a female gamer, and it makes me want to rant at all those who voted that it's tougher to be a male gamer. Show me, SHOW ME where boys/men have to deal constantly with sexually derogatory or harassing names or guild names (how many versions of the guild [Come Honor Face] have there been now?), constant demeaning comments about their gender as a whole in the chat channels, even dismissive and near-discriminatory behaviors from their own guildmates? I sure don't remember in any of the guilds I was in having someone say that you had to watch male players because they caused more drama like some guy once tried to tell me was the case with female players.

Cranky, cranky, cranky. Awesomes.

So yesterday I discovered pies from this place were being sold at a local grocery store:
http://villagepiemaker.com/
The town where this place is located is population of about 500, in the middle of nowhere Nebraska. Made from scratch, sold frozen that you bake yourself, and damned awesome. We tried rhubarb, and I'm curious about gooseberry. But most of all, it made me think of Sam/Dean domestic fic I've read. I will never, ever, ever be tired of Sam/Dean domestic/curtain fic where Dean or both of them end up working for a bakery.

Also, saw a modelviewer pic of the female worgen to be put out in Cataclysm, and I am so underwhelmed it's not even funny. The design rather raises my hackles actually. The base worgen design is awesome, very much werewolf, of-wolf-and-man thing. The Cataclysm design for the male worgen hearkens to that, and looks awesome as hell. Looks right. The female design...looks cheesecakey. Like a wolf version of a catgirl, more like some sort of furry fanartist designed it. I don't know why, but it *bugs* me. I'll definitely only be playing male worgen. But more than that, I'm going to hate seeing the female worgen around. I know they're female, but FFS, they should still look like *worgen*. In other WoW news, the guild has been going through more issues.

I think I need to give in and buy a 12-pack of Mountain Dew Whiteout. Craving that like crazy.

Also, the people on my flist are awesome and brilliant, and I love how y'all think. ^_^ ♥

Asdfdkfjf. How can my brain be so *tired* and so going a mile a minute at the same time? spnland's latest game thing is awesome, but my eyes started crossing from comment thread overdose.

I swear, I am so close to telling my guild that I don't want to raid anymore. At least I don't want to leave. I don't think. At the moment. I am just so tired of drama and upheaval and stress and emo tantrums. It's funny, when I'm hanging with the DotA gals lately on Bronzebeard, just levelling, I'm happy, content. It's relaxing. Yet every raid night over on E'T is some hullaballoo or another that is just making it uncomfortable to *be* there. Always feeling pissed off at one person or another. I remember from when I started there, up until a while ago, we could do progression raiding and *gasp* still have it be an easygoing and fun atmosphere. There was the occasional hiccup (the first GM I knew leaving and trying to break up the guild, a problem 'princess'), but in between we did well, raiding was cool. Now I dread it, and my dread's shown to be valid every damned night. I dunno.

Sad thing is, is except for the Lich King fight (25 at least) I *like* raiding still. I'd want to keep doing it if people weren't starting to be crappy, and if the LK fight weren't burning me (hell, not that we even *got* to him this raid week). I want to see the Ruby Sanctum thing they're coming up with soon. But I'm so sick of it being so horrid tense and all this childish behavior going on *every* *damned* raid night. Honestly, don't they notice that someone who was around on offnights working on Wynnchester suddenly only shows up on official raid nights? Don't they think that's meaningful about the whole tone of the guild right now?

Anyway. Shutting up about that. Muscle knot that's been flaring up in my right neck/shoulder (I guess to balance the one that I tend to get where left shoulder/neck meet) said HAI THERE and woke me up. Motrin + cherry pit hotpack on and off all day, and but it's still cranky and redeveloping whenever I tense or move wrong. As a right-side sleeper, this is gonna be interesting. :|

Yesterday got to 65F, so naturally today it's at freezing with sleet and snow starting. :B Nebraska, you are full of suck. At least since the ground was warm, it shouldn't accumulate on the pavement and should melt tomorrow if it does. At the least we're not getting something really yuck like the 11 inches predicted for Denver--not that my brother is home there to experience that, after all his smugness of their good weather this season. No, he and his gf are touring various spots in France and Spain for the next week and a half (I am full of envies >_< So so so many envies.)

For some reason while grocery shopping, I was pondering abbreviations and words I hate. Like when people say chappie for chapter, compy for computer, ficcie for fic, etc. But the one I detest most lately...tummy. I know, it's not an abbreviation, and is a normal word. I wouldn't freak if it were said to a child or by a child. What I can't stand...is how it shows up in fic. Like from Sam or Dean's POV. I'm sorry, but a 20s or 30s something male would *not* refer to or think of that area of their body as tummy. D< Stomach, belly, gut, abdomen, maybe. Tummy, NOES. Ugh. I dunno if any male that's over schoolage would use that term--even my flamingly gay friend in college (who wanted to grow up to be Madonna) didn't refer to it like that. I think the only time I've heard a guy say tummy is the singer for the Red Hot Chili Peppers at the beginning of the song Love Rollercoaster. I know it's something I run into at the ff.net pit, but still. Rarghate. (And it's not even a 'obv the writer is female thing' because I don't say tummy, my friends don't--it's like these authors can't be bothered to mask that they're teens or mothers with infants/toddlers.)

My brother just called Mom to say they've landed in Cannes. ENVIES. *flails* I could never get the husband to travel there, even if we weren't doing the one income thing at the moment. I'm lucky to get him to travel as it is--but he absolutely hates France (not because he's one of those neocons that said things like 'freedom fries'; his younger sister who I don't even like now was just a prissy bitch to the extreme when they were kids, and he spent his high school and college years hearing how France and anything French was superior to anything and everything from her, so it's backlash from that).

Found scanlations of Fairy Tail online, yaaaaaaay ♥ Already to chapter 103. >_>; Yes, the art is goofy and exaggerated and cheesecake. But the end of one of the story arcs made me very nearly cry (twice) and like many shounen stories there's so much emphasis on friendship no matter what and on forgiveness. ♥ And big fights and big powers and eeee ♥ And Erza Scarlet the Titania is so fucking awesome. ♥♥♥