Melodramatic Fool

Another episode of How I Suck At Everything. This time, tabletop gaming edition. Can't wait for the next episode, online computer game edition (part eleventy-billion), coming tonight. Yeah, I know, just downhormonemo, but still. Just would like to do things and, preferably, be good at them, or at least just be able to do them and have fun without having to always having it pointed out that I'm fucking up. (And it bothers me when I try to talk about it with someone, and I don't get empathy or sympathy, just get blown off. Thanks.) Sometimes I think, is this the way things really are supposed to be--40 more years of just kind of being a screw-up? I just, seriously, what's the point. It's too bad I have no interest in children, my own or adopted, so I could at least feel like I accomplished something.

Funeral for my uncle is on Tuesday, at practically the exact same time my dentist appointment should have been. So first thing Monday I have to call my dentist and re-reschedule (funny thing how I just rescheduled last week because their office-closed days changed).

Been a fuckin cranky old woman the past couple days. Just...annoyed by stupid crap, and feeling like I am totally missing something by the way I simply don't care about certain things that others fan so hard they're all but in hysterics. I dunno, I guess, I just don't go hysterical about celebrities, and I still just am missing *something* about the one that like the whole fandom is nuts over--and I don't gush over celebrity couples, so when people freaking go insane about them, I just am like "...um, okay?" I dunno. I guess I'm just too old, too cynical and jaded, or something. And I'm a fucking picky bitch, too--saw a fic posted to some comm last night that if I didn't have a brain-to-typing filter, so *so* wanted to comment "Ohmygod, are you 12 or something?" So hi, I am a horrible person and full of unpopular opinions and bad thoughts.

WoW \o/ Yays. What tiny bit of the new stuff I've seen is really neat. I dig the 'new' Orgrimmar a lot more than I thought I would. Didn't really explore any other areas, but I need to. Already started my new belf gal warrior--another girl!chester, aka Deannajude, because (girl!Sam) Wynnchester can't be left lonely. :p

Very much bummed--was very, very much looking forward to the new t-shirt put out by the Johnny Wander webcomic crew. Only to find today that they don't go up to 2XL like their previous shirts, so I can't get one. :/
http://johnnywander.bigcartel.com/product/hokusai-mens-womens
It's so cool, too. :( Technically, I could wear an XL, but it would be really snug, and I can't stand wearing stuff that's snug/binding/tight. I've worn things baggy since I was like 14. :/

Ugh, what has been killing my allergies today...sinuses and throat are so swollen and sore -__- I feel horrid. And it's weird, but like my close friends in-guild in WoW, I was fine with them today, but the 'acquaintances' or like people I sort of know or who are friends of friends...holy shit, were those people pissing me off so much. I wanted to smack some of them for very little reason. Irritable, irritable. Oy.