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Mar. 18th, 2011 08:45 pm
whitereflection: (sam dat ass)
Going to ignore the the thing some people said that made me very cross and write a massive rant before finally just deleting it, and instead focus on this:

http://geeks.thedailywh.at/2011/03/18/geek-news-funny-thing-of-the-day/
Monty Python’s Terry Jones has teamed up with Gavin Scott from Small Soldiers to adapt Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman’s hilarious novel Good Omens into a British TV show for Prime Focus Productions.

Oh, squee, I say.

Also, saw an image of Adrianne Palicki as the new Wonder Woman. (http://geeks.thedailywh.at/2011/03/18/geek-news-first-look-at-wonder-woman-of-the-day/) First off, I love that the costume's got pants. PANTS ♥ Though the outfit is a bit too shiny, and um, I'm sorry, but she is going to pop right out of that bustier :p Needs to be a bit more covering like Xena's was, tbh--even if hers was a bustier/corset whatever, I could sort of see her fighting fine in it. Not so much this one, sorry. Though in the end, she's just freaking gorgeous as the character, at least imo.
whitereflection: (sam my negative space)
Today I am especially understanding why cat 3 of 3 (Tink) spends so much time hiding under the folded blankets on the couch. I need blankets of my own, like all the time, to keep me away from people, to keep people away from me. And I need a sort of internet-blanket, too, because I need that buffer just as much online as offline. This tag should be more like "non-existent" rather than just "rusty", I think.

But really, can I even use the term people skills at all, in quotes or otherwise, if dealing with any people just absolutely freaks me the fuck out--whether those people are strangers, acquaintances, friends, BFFs, guildmates, online friends, significant other, extended family, or blood relations?

It's funny, I like having connections with people--I really *need* such, and sometimes I get lonely like you wouldn't believe. But then I screw it up and/or am just horrible to others, or the slightest pressure or conflict leaves me feeling like I'm just sort of cracking apart, and jesus, I need to be under the blanket like some lump-of-cat, curled up in the dark, just me, peering out to see what's going on but hidden away from it all. For real or symbolically, or both. Or maybe do like when I was a kid, when it was no big deal to hide out and play inside a closet or under a desk. Maybe a blanket fort. Any of those would do pretty well, too.

"Can't hear you. I'm inside my protective blanket of fear." (http://www.pvponline.com/2000/09/06/wed-sep-06/ )
whitereflection: (winchesters graveyards)
Fudging tired. Mom and I got picked up by one of her sisters before 8:30, just got home at about 5:15. Funeral was lengthy and the funeral home was *packed*, gravesite, then the reception was also long and also v. crowded. Then a group of the sisters came back to town here to visit another of my aunts whose been briefly hospitalized and thus couldn't attend. Lots of people, long day, lots of everyone talking all at once, lots of emotion. Slideshow photos reminded me how much I'd really liked that uncle when I was a kid, and even though we weren't that close once I got older, it really does suck he's gone and so early. So rough on my aunt, his wife--they were together since she was still in high school, he just out of it.

I guess it says something, though, about your life, if your funeral is seriously standing room only.

The music was mostly Christian country, but then at the end they played his "theme song", the Allman Brothers' Ramblin' Man. Awdang. Another old song that I never used to feel emotional about, but now there's that pang.

My brother did a post at his blog about things, remembering some of the same stuff I did, including the blowing up of the junker van. One of my aunts read the last half of the blog post during the remembrances, including the following bit: It’s kind of fitting that I saw him most at those events, since those events are where I saw the thing that I think of most when I think of Gary. Explosions. He loved fireworks, homemade bombs (just the fun kind, not the bad kind), anything that “blew up real good.” What would be the most common phrase you heard at family events? “How are you?” “What have you been doing?” “Great to see you?” Well, the phrase I remember hearing most at these family gatherings was “Fire in the hole!” Later, at the cemetery, when people were taking a moment at the casket after the minister spoke, one of his friends patted the casket and said, "Fire in the hole!" It was a fitting sort of farewell.


Also, thanks to those who left thoughts and hugs when I first mentioned this. Really is appreciated. *hugs* to you guys ♥

ugh

Jan. 27th, 2011 04:43 pm
whitereflection: (sam um...yeah :|)
Low mood, not feeling well, not getting done what I promised someone I'd do. And opened my virtual mouth and hit someone with major TMI and am regretting such. Way to push boundaries in the name of being sympathetic, self. I'm great at making people uncomfortable.

New warlock in guild (person from our old guild rejoining us) is, as I expected, kicking my ass hard in DPS. Not only is this person very good, but it just shows how bad of a player I am. I'm mistake prone, I forget things, I'm not efficient about spell rotations/cooldowns, my reflexes are crappy. I can keep trying to learn, but honestly that's what I've been doing for 6 years of gaming. I'm just at heart a lousy player, and it's kind of embarassing to have it so spotlighted again. Also, observing subtle sexism in game makes my stomach knot. Or maybe the individuals in question are just being assholes and it wouldn't matter who to--but I have this feeling, especially considering the past issue, that it's more than that.

Went to finally spend my Amz giftcard from my brother for my birthday last summer (I know...), and...I swear, I used to spend so damned much on music. But I could find barely anything I wanted. All my favorites, I mean, they're still good, but almost all of them are doing stuff that's no longer my musical tastes. Kind of sucks. At least picked up two new things from Ben Cooper: a new EP for his Radical Face work, and his latest Electric Presidents CD. At least, he's got 3 new projects in the works for 2011, so that'll give me something to listen to eventually. Also got the other Ian Astbury/Unkle song, and the newest Assemblage 23 for when I'm in an electronic mood. Just weird to still have a balance with Amz (not counting the iTunes gc from the husband I still have). I swear, I used to devour music, what the hell's wrong with me. Need to try to find new groups/artists to try, I guess. (Thought I was going to try more Mogwai, but I dunno, the samples just weren't hooking me like their newest did.)

*

http://lazy-daze.livejournal.com/681380.html
I See Lightning, J2, NC17, ~3,100, breathplay
Leaving myself this to reread, seriously got under my skin. Not just because of the kink or the fact that it's so well-written--but how incredibly well she gets inside Jared's head and enables the reader to share that headspace, before, during and after. And the incredible feel of trust, caring and love that is shown between the two is as much the reason it was so powerful and intense as the kink and sex.

*

Wonder if this is 'coming down with something' or just allergy flare up. And wonder if the husband would mind pizza or something.
whitereflection: (sam wounded by your rage)
Just a bout of whining (pretty much just WoW related). Feel free to ignore. Once again emphasizing why on my fanmix about myself, Basket Case would be song number one.

in which the tags say it all )

Wanted to come up with a list of New Year's resolutions, but I think at most I'm going to only focus on 1)use the damned WiiFit thing I bought last summer, and 2)write, especially original poetry. Though I've really dropped the ball on my hc- and au-bingo cards, as well as the j2everafter challenge.
whitereflection: (supernatural impala bleak midwinter)
Still alive o/ Apologies for being kind of absent of late, but you know *hand wave*. Mood, hidey from holiday stress, then busy with family stuffs, same old. ♥ to those that left holiday wishes on my last post, and thanks to [livejournal.com profile] lady_eilthana for the v-gift :D ♥

Kept it really quiet Christmas Eve, for the most part. Had managed to finish all holiday prep (though the husband's idea of holiday prep seems to be toss things together at the last minute, rather than my stress about it for over a month, yet we both get stuff done about the same time. Hum.). Person in my guild continued to be the cause of ~issues~ so I played on unguilded alts that day to not have to deal with him (the situation is currently being dealt with), and thus finally got to see all the goblin and worgen starting areas and storylines. Won't be doing anything more with the one worgen alt, but I like my goblin priest (aiming to go shadow, of course), and she's kind of cute--named her Akathisia. I stumbled across the word recently on Wikipedia and it is strangely awesome.

Christmas we spent the afternoon with extended family at my cousin's place in Lincoln. Tons and tons of food--between that and our own holiday candy, have been overdosing on sugar for days now. Dad's still dealing with a lot of pain from his shoulder surgery awhile back (he was manic from the pain meds Christmas Eve evening when we were at his and my stepmother's place for gifts), and now it's worse because he took a fall on the ice while walking up the street to my cousin's place. He landed on the plastic cooler he was carrying under one arm and had to be taken to the ER where they found he'd cracked a rib. So he's on even more pain meds now, but still in a lot of pain. It really rattled my cousin (though her wife was just stellar at taking care of my Dad and getting him driven over to the Emergicare place, staying with them while they waited) and my aunt. Said aunt is doing well, all things considered (continuing chemo and such), and ended up weepy for another reason when her adopted daughter's longtime boyfriend called and asked my aunt permission to marry her. It sort of felt like some sort of Lifetime sitcom. :p (Though it's better than Mom's side of the family, who, while there's the "normal" ones, the "not normal" ones have become even more freakish and facepalmingly Jerry Springer recently).

Christmas evening was just Mom, the husband, and I back at home doing our gifts and decompressing from a day of omg-too-many-people. From friends I got a book and a 20-sided die that flashes when it rolls 20 (they gave the same to James, unfortunate since I'd gotten him the same thing :p ), got a couple of frames Mom did up with more cat photo collages to go with the ones she'd already hung up in the kitchen, some poetry compilations, holiday-themed socks, and a few cookbooks from another aunt. James gave me a gift card for the iTunes store and a new keyboard, which even though it's just another standard Apple keyboard is so YAY. Had been so frustrated at how bad some of the keys were sticking where that old drink spill had gotten worse again. Also got a little geeky card game, cocoa, and tons of candy. Another friend gave the husband and I both the WoW Li'l Ragnaros pet for in-game, though we still need to activate the codes for that. Got given the Sam & Max games off Steam as well as getting called Christmas Day by Aaron, too, which was way cool even if I eventually had to rush off, and I'm so going to have fun poking at the games (ty again :) ).

Sunday was D&D, the husband's alt game, in which my barbarian missed nearly every will save roll (he's got a mighty 1 in it currently), and the module's encounters demanded a freaking *ton* of said rolls. Lost count of the numbers of times he was stunned or feared (including the one where he ran away and then back for a total of six rounds :| ) The rest of the week should be quiet-ish, though several friends are coming over Friday evening for our gift exchange, and I'll do dinner for them (all easy stuff, though, just heat-up type things). Then Saturday another friend will have us over all afternoon/evening for a very-extended New Year's movie "night", followed by the other D&D game next Sunday.

Other than that, have tabs of fic open that I'm hoping to get to soon, and am still trying to decide if I'm ever going to get caught up on the comments I've procrastinated on since November. :B We shall see. Anyway, HI. Glad to see people have been having decent holidays ♥
whitereflection: (wow REPENT! gnome ftw)
WoW \o/ Yays. What tiny bit of the new stuff I've seen is really neat. I dig the 'new' Orgrimmar a lot more than I thought I would. Didn't really explore any other areas, but I need to. Already started my new belf gal warrior--another girl!chester, aka Deannajude, because (girl!Sam) Wynnchester can't be left lonely. :p

Very much bummed--was very, very much looking forward to the new t-shirt put out by the Johnny Wander webcomic crew. Only to find today that they don't go up to 2XL like their previous shirts, so I can't get one. :/
http://johnnywander.bigcartel.com/product/hokusai-mens-womens
It's so cool, too. :( Technically, I could wear an XL, but it would be really snug, and I can't stand wearing stuff that's snug/binding/tight. I've worn things baggy since I was like 14. :/

Ugh, what has been killing my allergies today...sinuses and throat are so swollen and sore -__- I feel horrid. And it's weird, but like my close friends in-guild in WoW, I was fine with them today, but the 'acquaintances' or like people I sort of know or who are friends of friends...holy shit, were those people pissing me off so much. I wanted to smack some of them for very little reason. Irritable, irritable. Oy.

hidey

Nov. 17th, 2010 02:34 pm
whitereflection: (winchesters tension)
Feeling kind of quiet today. :x Sorry for my antisocial hermit-ness.

Have been tagged for that 25-things meme by two people--I promise to do that tomorrow...or later in the week, at least. ^^;

Have managed to screw up baking break-apart cookies. Seriously.

mini/mifu ficlet )

Of course today would be the day where Dad would call (see point one). And man, can he chatter.

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