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[whitereflection]

It's funny that the thing I was looking forward to doing most for spnland was writing, and ironically, what's the thing I haven't been able to do almost at all since it started? Yeah. Started out okay, but ever since.... Nearly nothing. Wouldn't even call it being blocked or locked up, because that implies there's something there to block or lock up. There's just really nothing in my head, writing-wise. And I'm gonna just laugh at myself for the whole "I wanna be a poet" thing, because yeah. To write as a career, you have to be able to, you know.... There's just no words, not for fan stuff, not for original projects.

Naturally, I actually had one idea for this one challenge due tomorrow (love letter from one character to another), and I was like yay and worked on it, and then realized the rules state it's got to be major, named characters and what I had won't work, not a bit. Sooo yeah. Awesomes. Least there's games there, because that's the only stuff I seem to be able to accomplish. That and voting on things.

I guess I could understand if I were just having trouble with character-focused things, because I'm a pretty lousy fan that just isn't as into secondary characters all that much, and some I'm outright *blah* on. I mean, yeah, I like Bobby and some others, but really if it isn't Sam or Dean (or okay, maybe the Impala), I just don't get too motivated. But there's been plenty of general writing challenges that don't demand certain characters, in which I could have written with Sam and Dean. Yet still no inspiration or success at motivating myself.

Then lately when I see everyone talking about their big bang projects, I get the little thought in my head of "Next year I'll try that!". Hey, self? Yeah. This is me pointing and laughing at you. LoooooooooOOOOOOOoooooooool. Pull the other one, it's got bells on. Dumbass.


At least I can accomplish things in WoW (Nin to 72, Sampala to 17), that's worth something right? Right? Yeah, didn't think so. :|

Comments

[cherie-morte.livejournal.com]

BB, I know how writer's block feels like it will last forever, but you will get inspired again! In fact, I bet you will kick big bang's ass next year.

You're hugely talented and I know you'll get your fire back! *holds*

Also: I'm a bad fan who can't care most of the time unless it's Sam and Dean, too! \o/

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

It frustrates me. *flails* And I'd really hoped that having prompts of sorts the challenges provide would help, but not so much. At least I'm not the only one that is SamnDeanocentric \o/

I just feel bad when I fail at participating in challenges because I know that's points my team didn't get, and we just fail hard at times (did you see that one, with our 120 points in distant third. That's part my fault. Argh. At least I finished my fanmix eventually, but not back when it woulda net us some points back then. :< But gah, devolving into whiny bint mode again, sorry. \o/

[invaderwitch.livejournal.com]

Don't give up! I have writer's block all the time. Like, pretty much any time I write anything, I'm insta-blocked immediately after, for days or weeks until the next flash of inspiration comes. But it does come, and it will for you. :DDD

You should totally do BB next year. But start early, lol, so you don't end up finishing the day before it's due like me.

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

I'm so torn on big bangs. \o/ I waaaaant to, but can get locked up so bad on creative things that even spending all year on it wouldn't guarantee finishing. And I hate committing to something that I don't follow through on. I really, really admire those of you who do and did finish, though. :D

[dcillusioned.livejournal.com]

Eh, don't worry about it. You'll get there. And if it makes you feel any better I failed to meet the bigbang. =( Lost the first draft in a hard drive crash. But I rewrote it in less than a month and I managed to almost meet the word limit but it wasn't finished and I didn't want to give it a crappy ending. So, i fail. But hey, it will be there next year, right?

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Aww, I just think of added up how incredibly much writing that would have been for you total. So even if you didn't technically finish, you at least know you're capable of blowing away that world count. ♥ And you're definitely right--it'll be there next year. Or hey, if you just want to get the story out separate of the big bang community, you could always do that, too. People will enjoy reading it just as much! Still think you should get a pat on the back because it wasn't you that caused not finishing, but an inanimate object you couldn't control.

[keerawa.livejournal.com]

Write it anyway! I wanna read your love letter!

As for the writer's block, not worth worrying about. It'll come when it comes. Plus, you totally ret-conned away your awesome Friend's Only artwork!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Pff, it's silly and frivolous. Maybe once the challenge is done and voted on--even though it's not something I could enter, I'd feel weird about including it here before then. But really, fluff. Just something that I thought "Hey! I could get some points for that" then realized that crapsticks, I couldn't after all.

And hah, I hadn't considered the FO banners. Still feel like those are graphics and not writing related, even if they've got a phrase on 'em. And still trying to figure out how I did well with those, because my icons and headers always fail so hard, heh.

[cacklesthewitch.livejournal.com]

Having failed at my bigbang, I kind or know how you feel. Allow me to wallow alongside you in fail for a moment *wallowwallowwallow*

Okay, now that that's over with, yes, it happens but don't let it get you down! The muse, she is a sneaky one. When you least expect it she'll be poking her head out and blowing you raspberries. But even better, she will bring ideas to fuel your writing skills which are already there (and awesome) and those don't go away. So fret not, my dear, your muse will return. Just make sure you borrow Sam's demon-killing knife and pin that bitch down next time you see her :P

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Wallowing together is the best thing ♥

I like your ideas about the muse, though. Capricious twit needs to be swatted a good one and chained to our computer desks. :p

[cacklesthewitch.livejournal.com]

Ooh, chains. Kinky! :P

[akintay.livejournal.com]

I think everyone goes through phases where they don't write much or at all - I've been there, and it sucked, but eventually I felt like writing again :D

And hey, if you wanna do bb next year, you should definitely try and see if you can do it. All you really need is a good idea and it's not that hard!

&hearts

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

I definitely do go through phases like that, a lot. >_< It's not so bad when I don't care, when I don't want to write, but when I do and can't, maaaaan, it makes me cranky and whiny. ^^;

But thanks ♥ *hugs*

[ditta-spn.livejournal.com]

Oh, bb!! Don't be so hard to yourself... That things happens... And I know it must be very difficult to write for characters that you are not that interested in!!

*hugs tight*

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Thanks ♥ Sorry, I get ranty when I get frustrated. ^^;

[joseishijin.livejournal.com]

Everything you said = how I feel about my writing. *hugs* I actually took a creative writing course last winter and I produced a lot of stuff because I had to - nothing like a due date to panic you into being prolific, LOL!!!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

I've pondered classes, I must admit. :x But I haven't had a creative writing class since my senior year of high school, and I worry that I'd lock up and screw up a grade. Which would be super upsetting, to the way my brain works. >_< Though I managed to produce stuff for grades back then, so maybe it would actually work. Oy. I'm so of two minds about it. ^^;

*hugs back* Feels like being in the trenches together, in a way. XD

[joseishijin.livejournal.com]

Heh...let me know when you feel like "going over the top" and I'll go with you. ^____^

I feel ya - I was super-nervous taking that class, but I will be honest: most fanfic writers on LJ are more talented and eloquent than those you would find in a class...

I'm just sayin'.

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Hah, the way you say that reminds me of how I tend to think a lot (certainly not all, but a lot) of fic writers on LJ are more talented and eloquent than *published* ones. ^^;

[the_milky_way]

Writer's block sucks big time. *hugs*

but really if it isn't Sam or Dean (or okay, maybe the Impala), I just don't get too motivated.

Yes, this. I don't know but lately I can't motivate myself to even think about other characters anymore. It's strange, That never used to be a problem before.

And yeah, I was really freaked you when I signed up for Big Bang the first time. I thought I could never do it. And really, I waited until the last week to get it done. But it seems like I haven't learned at all during the last three years, still do ti this way.
You could try it, it actually is fun trying to come up with something.. :)

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Hehe, some people work best under pressure and with the deadline looming right in their face. XD Sounds like it works well for you and you finish, so might as well stick with it, heh.

But thanks ♥ I'll have to see how I feel when next year's sign ups are announced.

[the_milky_way]

Yeah, as long as it works. :) I din't even know why I always do that to myself. I still feel totally drained from the last few days.

:)
♥