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Apr. 14th, 2011 12:49 amHeadachey, leg achey, joint achey, down, and discouraged, discouraged, discouraged. Meh.
still pretty plain
Mar. 23rd, 2011 12:50 amFigures. Two whole rumbles of thunder and one flash of lightning about 6pm, and then it all passed us by, no rain. But it's managed to leave me with an absolutely fabulous pressure-change headache. And that stupid Blind Melon song in my head. Fucksticks.
( ell oh ell )
Finally started playing Wynnchester again, got her to 81. Getting over that weird mental block I had about ret paladin rotation/prioritization, at least for the moment. Got cranky when looking at the Elitist Jerks guide about retadins, because they could mention hit and expertise cap, but it's obviously beneath them to use the five extra words to actually *say what those are*. Because obviously people who don't know already shouldn't be looking at their guides, right. All hail Google.
( ell oh ell )
Finally started playing Wynnchester again, got her to 81. Getting over that weird mental block I had about ret paladin rotation/prioritization, at least for the moment. Got cranky when looking at the Elitist Jerks guide about retadins, because they could mention hit and expertise cap, but it's obviously beneath them to use the five extra words to actually *say what those are*. Because obviously people who don't know already shouldn't be looking at their guides, right. All hail Google.
Another episode of How I Suck At Everything. This time, tabletop gaming edition. Can't wait for the next episode, online computer game edition (part eleventy-billion), coming tonight. Yeah, I know, just downhormonemo, but still. Just would like to do things and, preferably, be good at them, or at least just be able to do them and have fun without having to always having it pointed out that I'm fucking up. (And it bothers me when I try to talk about it with someone, and I don't get empathy or sympathy, just get blown off. Thanks.) Sometimes I think, is this the way things really are supposed to be--40 more years of just kind of being a screw-up? I just, seriously, what's the point. It's too bad I have no interest in children, my own or adopted, so I could at least feel like I accomplished something.
Funeral for my uncle is on Tuesday, at practically the exact same time my dentist appointment should have been. So first thing Monday I have to call my dentist and re-reschedule (funny thing how I just rescheduled last week because their office-closed days changed).
Been a fuckin cranky old woman the past couple days. Just...annoyed by stupid crap, and feeling like I am totally missing something by the way I simply don't care about certain things that others fan so hard they're all but in hysterics. I dunno, I guess, I just don't go hysterical about celebrities, and I still just am missing *something* about the one that like the whole fandom is nuts over--and I don't gush over celebrity couples, so when people freaking go insane about them, I just am like "...um, okay?" I dunno. I guess I'm just too old, too cynical and jaded, or something. And I'm a fucking picky bitch, too--saw a fic posted to some comm last night that if I didn't have a brain-to-typing filter, so *so* wanted to comment "Ohmygod, are you 12 or something?" So hi, I am a horrible person and full of unpopular opinions and bad thoughts.
Funeral for my uncle is on Tuesday, at practically the exact same time my dentist appointment should have been. So first thing Monday I have to call my dentist and re-reschedule (funny thing how I just rescheduled last week because their office-closed days changed).
Been a fuckin cranky old woman the past couple days. Just...annoyed by stupid crap, and feeling like I am totally missing something by the way I simply don't care about certain things that others fan so hard they're all but in hysterics. I dunno, I guess, I just don't go hysterical about celebrities, and I still just am missing *something* about the one that like the whole fandom is nuts over--and I don't gush over celebrity couples, so when people freaking go insane about them, I just am like "...um, okay?" I dunno. I guess I'm just too old, too cynical and jaded, or something. And I'm a fucking picky bitch, too--saw a fic posted to some comm last night that if I didn't have a brain-to-typing filter, so *so* wanted to comment "Ohmygod, are you 12 or something?" So hi, I am a horrible person and full of unpopular opinions and bad thoughts.
about to die from that surprise
Jan. 14th, 2011 12:35 amSo I am *handwave* in a mood. This should come as a surprise to no one. (I should make that a tag.)
The guild got a first kill on Maloriak (in Blackwing Descent) yest evening. Brings us to 6/12 of the current tier of raid bosses, and raises us to 7th ranked 10man guild on the server (4th Horde-side).
After totally botching my au-bingo and hc-bingo cards and the whole j2everafter thing, I have, yes, signed up for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
spn_j2_bigbang . ...ahahahahahahahahahahaha. Oh, self.
http://community.livejournal.com/zuben_fic/32449.html
Once There Was a Darkness by![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
zuben_eschamali, PG-13, J2 AU, 591 words
I love this ficlet/missing scene like freaking WOAH so much. It goes with her Darker Pieces of the Night story--the winged!Jared one--from a yet-to-be-written (but-better-be-written-really-freaking-soon!-\o/) sequel. It may be short, but it is SO chock full of things I love so much, they're practically kinks. I could read this scene over and over and ♥
I think I need to get my hands on anything and everything from the band Mogwai. Like now.
The guild got a first kill on Maloriak (in Blackwing Descent) yest evening. Brings us to 6/12 of the current tier of raid bosses, and raises us to 7th ranked 10man guild on the server (4th Horde-side).
After totally botching my au-bingo and hc-bingo cards and the whole j2everafter thing, I have, yes, signed up for
spn_j2_bigbang . ...ahahahahahahahahahahaha. Oh, self.http://community.livejournal.com/zuben_fic/32449.html
Once There Was a Darkness by
zuben_eschamali, PG-13, J2 AU, 591 wordsI love this ficlet/missing scene like freaking WOAH so much. It goes with her Darker Pieces of the Night story--the winged!Jared one--from a yet-to-be-written (but-better-be-written-really-freaking-soon!-\o/) sequel. It may be short, but it is SO chock full of things I love so much, they're practically kinks. I could read this scene over and over and ♥
I think I need to get my hands on anything and everything from the band Mogwai. Like now.
deathwing days
Nov. 24th, 2010 01:15 amWoW \o/ Yays. What tiny bit of the new stuff I've seen is really neat. I dig the 'new' Orgrimmar a lot more than I thought I would. Didn't really explore any other areas, but I need to. Already started my new belf gal warrior--another girl!chester, aka Deannajude, because (girl!Sam) Wynnchester can't be left lonely. :p
Very much bummed--was very, very much looking forward to the new t-shirt put out by the Johnny Wander webcomic crew. Only to find today that they don't go up to 2XL like their previous shirts, so I can't get one. :/
http://johnnywander.bigcartel.com/product/hokusai-mens-womens
It's so cool, too. :( Technically, I could wear an XL, but it would be really snug, and I can't stand wearing stuff that's snug/binding/tight. I've worn things baggy since I was like 14. :/
Ugh, what has been killing my allergies today...sinuses and throat are so swollen and sore -__- I feel horrid. And it's weird, but like my close friends in-guild in WoW, I was fine with them today, but the 'acquaintances' or like people I sort of know or who are friends of friends...holy shit, were those people pissing me off so much. I wanted to smack some of them for very little reason. Irritable, irritable. Oy.
Very much bummed--was very, very much looking forward to the new t-shirt put out by the Johnny Wander webcomic crew. Only to find today that they don't go up to 2XL like their previous shirts, so I can't get one. :/
http://johnnywander.bigcartel.com/product/hokusai-mens-womens
It's so cool, too. :( Technically, I could wear an XL, but it would be really snug, and I can't stand wearing stuff that's snug/binding/tight. I've worn things baggy since I was like 14. :/
Ugh, what has been killing my allergies today...sinuses and throat are so swollen and sore -__- I feel horrid. And it's weird, but like my close friends in-guild in WoW, I was fine with them today, but the 'acquaintances' or like people I sort of know or who are friends of friends...holy shit, were those people pissing me off so much. I wanted to smack some of them for very little reason. Irritable, irritable. Oy.
if only I could sketch
Aug. 21st, 2010 01:40 amI hate my hormones. I also hate stupid WoW puggers and being yelled at by such. *grump*
Dunno what this counts as...it isn't really fanpoetry, but it sort of isn't just original since it was for aspnland challenge. Anyway, for the spnland_media challenge 004: Frankenstein-IT LIVES! (create a monster challenge).
Title/Monster: Shel (With Apologies to Mr. Silverstein)
Media: written/poetry
pairings/warnings: none
note: tied for 2nd
( Read more... )
Dunno what this counts as...it isn't really fanpoetry, but it sort of isn't just original since it was for a
spnland challenge. Anyway, for the spnland_media challenge 004: Frankenstein-IT LIVES! (create a monster challenge).Title/Monster: Shel (With Apologies to Mr. Silverstein)
Media: written/poetry
pairings/warnings: none
note: tied for 2nd
( Read more... )
So anyway.
May. 15th, 2010 10:59 amSomething made me cranky just a bit ago, but I am going to ignore it. It may have been insulting, but I think I'm gonna choose not to take it personally. Instead, Exploding Dog comic links \o/
Ones I like just for the hell of it:
http://explodingdog.tumblr.com/post/578831986/good-morning-again
http://explodingdog.tumblr.com/post/595555412/only-ugly-on-the-outside \o/
http://www.explodingdog.com/title/justfortoday.html ♥
And ones for the 'everything is about show' file:
http://www.explodingdog.com/title/hasitonlybeenfiveyears.html
http://www.explodingdog.com/title/ihittheroadlastnight.html Afsdfkf! I want this to be a Dean-centric 5.22 coda prompt. So much.
And for some reason this http://explodingdog.tumblr.com/post/586935142/i-want-to-get-to-know-you-better makes me want to find someone to use this as a J2 fic prompt. :p
In other news, I may have been feeling a touch extra stress recently, as we been informed there are some major issues with our furnace and AC systems and we are very likely needing to replace both. They are 12 years old, and those sorts of things only last about 12-15 years, but still, it has left me a bit touchy on the "Goddamnit, I never wanted to own a home, this was all him" front. Person is coming over this afternoon to discuss our options.
Folks coming over as usual tonight. Gina discovered Anj has never seen The Blues Brothers (WHAT. How can this BE \o/ ), so she is offering to bring the DVD over for a group viewing. I am most okay with that.
I can't rec this yet, as I haven't read it, but this looks like one of those best things in the entire universe sorts of fics:
http://community.livejournal.com/butterflywrites/11668.html
I mean, look at that summary. Look at it! \o/ \o/ \o/ This fic looks so freaking everything-that-Diane-loves that I'm giddy just from the header alone. (When they have to warn for schmoop, I know life is awesome.)
Also, Mountain Dew Whiteout tastes like the lovechild of it and Fresca and I am sort of really fond of it.
Ones I like just for the hell of it:
http://explodingdog.tumblr.com/post/578831986/good-morning-again
http://explodingdog.tumblr.com/post/595555412/only-ugly-on-the-outside \o/
http://www.explodingdog.com/title/justfortoday.html ♥
And ones for the 'everything is about show' file:
http://www.explodingdog.com/title/hasitonlybeenfiveyears.html
http://www.explodingdog.com/title/ihittheroadlastnight.html Afsdfkf! I want this to be a Dean-centric 5.22 coda prompt. So much.
And for some reason this http://explodingdog.tumblr.com/post/586935142/i-want-to-get-to-know-you-better makes me want to find someone to use this as a J2 fic prompt. :p
In other news, I may have been feeling a touch extra stress recently, as we been informed there are some major issues with our furnace and AC systems and we are very likely needing to replace both. They are 12 years old, and those sorts of things only last about 12-15 years, but still, it has left me a bit touchy on the "Goddamnit, I never wanted to own a home, this was all him" front. Person is coming over this afternoon to discuss our options.
Folks coming over as usual tonight. Gina discovered Anj has never seen The Blues Brothers (WHAT. How can this BE \o/ ), so she is offering to bring the DVD over for a group viewing. I am most okay with that.
I can't rec this yet, as I haven't read it, but this looks like one of those best things in the entire universe sorts of fics:
http://community.livejournal.com/butterflywrites/11668.html
I mean, look at that summary. Look at it! \o/ \o/ \o/ This fic looks so freaking everything-that-Diane-loves that I'm giddy just from the header alone. (When they have to warn for schmoop, I know life is awesome.)
Also, Mountain Dew Whiteout tastes like the lovechild of it and Fresca and I am sort of really fond of it.
drain bamage
May. 2nd, 2010 02:02 amIt's funny that the thing I was looking forward to doing most for spnland was writing, and ironically, what's the thing I haven't been able to do almost at all since it started? Yeah. Started out okay, but ever since.... Nearly nothing. Wouldn't even call it being blocked or locked up, because that implies there's something there to block or lock up. There's just really nothing in my head, writing-wise. And I'm gonna just laugh at myself for the whole "I wanna be a poet" thing, because yeah. To write as a career, you have to be able to, you know.... There's just no words, not for fan stuff, not for original projects.
Naturally, I actually had one idea for this one challenge due tomorrow (love letter from one character to another), and I was like yay and worked on it, and then realized the rules state it's got to be major, named characters and what I had won't work, not a bit. Sooo yeah. Awesomes. Least there's games there, because that's the only stuff I seem to be able to accomplish. That and voting on things.
I guess I could understand if I were just having trouble with character-focused things, because I'm a pretty lousy fan that just isn't as into secondary characters all that much, and some I'm outright *blah* on. I mean, yeah, I like Bobby and some others, but really if it isn't Sam or Dean (or okay, maybe the Impala), I just don't get too motivated. But there's been plenty of general writing challenges that don't demand certain characters, in which I could have written with Sam and Dean. Yet still no inspiration or success at motivating myself.
Then lately when I see everyone talking about their big bang projects, I get the little thought in my head of "Next year I'll try that!". Hey, self? Yeah. This is me pointing and laughing at you. LoooooooooOOOOOOOoooooooool. Pull the other one, it's got bells on. Dumbass.
At least I can accomplish things in WoW (Nin to 72, Sampala to 17), that's worth something right? Right? Yeah, didn't think so. :|
spnland was writing, and ironically, what's the thing I haven't been able to do almost at all since it started? Yeah. Started out okay, but ever since.... Nearly nothing. Wouldn't even call it being blocked or locked up, because that implies there's something there to block or lock up. There's just really nothing in my head, writing-wise. And I'm gonna just laugh at myself for the whole "I wanna be a poet" thing, because yeah. To write as a career, you have to be able to, you know.... There's just no words, not for fan stuff, not for original projects. Naturally, I actually had one idea for this one challenge due tomorrow (love letter from one character to another), and I was like yay and worked on it, and then realized the rules state it's got to be major, named characters and what I had won't work, not a bit. Sooo yeah. Awesomes. Least there's games there, because that's the only stuff I seem to be able to accomplish. That and voting on things.
I guess I could understand if I were just having trouble with character-focused things, because I'm a pretty lousy fan that just isn't as into secondary characters all that much, and some I'm outright *blah* on. I mean, yeah, I like Bobby and some others, but really if it isn't Sam or Dean (or okay, maybe the Impala), I just don't get too motivated. But there's been plenty of general writing challenges that don't demand certain characters, in which I could have written with Sam and Dean. Yet still no inspiration or success at motivating myself.
Then lately when I see everyone talking about their big bang projects, I get the little thought in my head of "Next year I'll try that!". Hey, self? Yeah. This is me pointing and laughing at you. LoooooooooOOOOOOOoooooooool. Pull the other one, it's got bells on. Dumbass.
At least I can accomplish things in WoW (Nin to 72, Sampala to 17), that's worth something right? Right? Yeah, didn't think so. :|
I sort of noticed yesterday, but have really, really, really noticed today, that I am extremely, horribly, excruciatingly irritable and cranky. And petty and petulant. :< I understand being tired and drained but good freaking grief, this is ridiculous. I've been snarky at folks online here, short with the husband, and extremely snippy with Mom. Even annoyed with the cats.
And now I'm finding I'm the sort of lousy person that can't just accept that people at a community are having fun with a topic that I'm not interested in, but instead am feeling whiny that they're not choosing a topic I do happen to be interested in. I mean, ffs, self, get over yourself and grow up. Let them have their fun and excitement and enthusiasm. Just because it is often emphasized that they're interested in this subset of fandom you're just not that into, it doesn't mean you're being left out or excluded.
Afsdfjghasdf arghlblargh. I hate me.
L.H. Puttgrass signing off and heading for the tub. (No, not really. Old Bloom County quote. I miss Bloom County.)
[Oh right, and to mention something that isn't me being a whiny little bint, here's a Supernatural video that is absofucking amazing. Seriously. Ab-so-fuh-king a-ma-zing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_fyhjDvsy4
Supernatural (go.back.to.sleep.) by TikiTyler9. Damned good shit. And I so freaking love that song. Thanks tofabilimah for reccing the video.]
And now I'm finding I'm the sort of lousy person that can't just accept that people at a community are having fun with a topic that I'm not interested in, but instead am feeling whiny that they're not choosing a topic I do happen to be interested in. I mean, ffs, self, get over yourself and grow up. Let them have their fun and excitement and enthusiasm. Just because it is often emphasized that they're interested in this subset of fandom you're just not that into, it doesn't mean you're being left out or excluded.
Afsdfjghasdf arghlblargh. I hate me.
L.H. Puttgrass signing off and heading for the tub. (No, not really. Old Bloom County quote. I miss Bloom County.)
[Oh right, and to mention something that isn't me being a whiny little bint, here's a Supernatural video that is absofucking amazing. Seriously. Ab-so-fuh-king a-ma-zing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_fyhjDvsy4
Supernatural (go.back.to.sleep.) by TikiTyler9. Damned good shit. And I so freaking love that song. Thanks to
fabilimah for reccing the video.]http://www.explodingdog.com/title/doyouknowhowifeel.html Too bad I don't have any coffee.
http://garfieldminusgarfield.net/day/2010/03/22/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJdseQsEbng My new anthem.
( Really lousy quote icons \o/ (that is to say, lousy icons, not lousy quotes) )
After 4:30 and I haven't slept yet. \o/ Way to be.
http://garfieldminusgarfield.net/day/2010/03/22/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hJdseQsEbng My new anthem.
( Really lousy quote icons \o/ (that is to say, lousy icons, not lousy quotes) )
After 4:30 and I haven't slept yet. \o/ Way to be.
waking up allergic as hell
Jan. 9th, 2010 09:43 am"New Year's" movie get together at Don's today. Long one--1:30-9. I know I"ll have fun, but... >_< Slipped into a mood last night, just wanna sit at home and WoW and read fanfic while listening to music. Rediscovered the little bit of Agalloch I have (The Mantle and Ashes Against the Grain, need to relisten to Pale Folklore, too), so goddanged perfect for being moody in bitter winter times when there's too much snow. I need to put more of their stuff on my amz wishlist.
32 flavors-I-mean-days. and then some.
Jan. 6th, 2010 10:36 amhttp://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=517
Please to be getting out of my head, ASW. It's sorta creepy when you do that.
I have 8 books on my desk, and I am managing to read none of them. Have been failing to get motivated on reading anything for like the last month, save for fanfiction. What the hell, self?
http://omaha.com/article/20100106/NEWS01/100109858
"Arctic front takes aim"
Two blurbs on that page:
Monday's low of 20 degrees below zero was the coldest Omaha has seen since 1996, when temperatures dropped to 23 below zero in February. Since 1935, there have been only eight other winters when the mercury dropped that low.
With 5 to 7 inches of snow expected this week ... and more expected this winter, Omaha could land in the top 10 for:
•Total snow on the ground. Based on records dating to 1947, the most snow on the ground in Omaha over a winter was 27 inches in 1959-1960. Already some 17 inches are on the ground.
•Longest period with snow-covered ground. Based on records, the longest stretch is 92 days in 1974-75. As of Wednesday morning, Omaha has gone 32 days.
Our "high" temp on Friday is going to be a negative number. Asdfsdkjfskf. Everything this season is just testing my belief that I like winter. Also, where the hell are we going to shovel 5-7 more inches. Everywhere along the driveway and sidewalks are fucking drifts from previous snows and previous shovellings already. Fffffffffff. Now I want fic where Sam and Dean are trapped in a cabin and it just keeps snowing over and over and over and they have similar trouble with shoveling out over and over and running out of room to put it. But they have a lot of sex so it's okay. :|
Please to be getting out of my head, ASW. It's sorta creepy when you do that.
I have 8 books on my desk, and I am managing to read none of them. Have been failing to get motivated on reading anything for like the last month, save for fanfiction. What the hell, self?
http://omaha.com/article/20100106/NEWS01/100109858
"Arctic front takes aim"
Two blurbs on that page:
Monday's low of 20 degrees below zero was the coldest Omaha has seen since 1996, when temperatures dropped to 23 below zero in February. Since 1935, there have been only eight other winters when the mercury dropped that low.
With 5 to 7 inches of snow expected this week ... and more expected this winter, Omaha could land in the top 10 for:
•Total snow on the ground. Based on records dating to 1947, the most snow on the ground in Omaha over a winter was 27 inches in 1959-1960. Already some 17 inches are on the ground.
•Longest period with snow-covered ground. Based on records, the longest stretch is 92 days in 1974-75. As of Wednesday morning, Omaha has gone 32 days.
Our "high" temp on Friday is going to be a negative number. Asdfsdkjfskf. Everything this season is just testing my belief that I like winter. Also, where the hell are we going to shovel 5-7 more inches. Everywhere along the driveway and sidewalks are fucking drifts from previous snows and previous shovellings already. Fffffffffff. Now I want fic where Sam and Dean are trapped in a cabin and it just keeps snowing over and over and over and they have similar trouble with shoveling out over and over and running out of room to put it. But they have a lot of sex so it's okay. :|
