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Aug. 2nd, 2010 12:36 am
whitereflection: (sam brother help me)
What the hell is this head cold out of absolutely nowhere? Up until about 7pm this past evening, I felt perfectly fine. Then bam, utter crap. There isn't even anything going around that I know of.

Noticed during D&D yesterday that at some point, who knows where/when, one of the diamond chips in my wedding ring'd gone missing (There's the main stone, and there were 6 very small stones, now only 5). Awesome.

Anyway. Whee, August. As of the 1st, I've been doing the LJ thing here for nine years. In a couple weeks, I'll have been unemployed for a year. And in 18 more days, I'll be 37 (I've been...stewing about this.) Blargh.
whitereflection: (supernatural impala endless skies bw)
Back to the 4am insomnia a lot again lately. Too bad I can't be productive during those hours and get something done with them--just end up awake but mostly useless. Today especially am extra dead, though--other than driving Mom to her errands and reading a short fic over for someone, all I can do is nap (earlier) or stare (currently). There's stuff I should be doing but all I want to do is sleep again. Which won't help come tonight but even with caffeine there's just no energy at all left. Have even run out of energy for reading, and I mean come on, how hard is it to *read*? Dear self, way to be a waste of oxygen. (And it's stupid, I think hey, at least I get up no later than 8-9 or even as early as 6, but how getting up and then napping a lot different than just sleeping in super late?)

Over the past couple days the songs For Blue Skies by Strays Don't Sleep, Turn and Turn Again by All Thieves, and The Trapeze Swinger by Iron & Wine have made me not just cry, but sob/weep. Fuck you, hormones, fuck you (I was never this bad when I was in my teens/20s. I just, I mean, what.)

As much as I hate Nebraska, I'm glad I'm not having to worry about a tropical storm/hurricane right now. :x Stay safe down there, folks.

edit: wtfdream )

brilliance

Jun. 27th, 2010 11:09 am
whitereflection: (sam :| herpexiaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa)
http://www.escapemotions.com/experiments/flame/index.html#top
Seriously awesome. Already also available as a standalone program for PC, and I'm eagerly awaiting when the Mac version is ready.

And speaking of flames... >_> I may have nearly set my oven on fire yesterday. I was reheating fried chicken from the grocery store deli, and I got the brilliant, *brilliant* idea that I would do so on one of my airbake-type pans to help crisp it up. The airbake pan with holes in it. Let's do the math...pan with holes, chicken that when reheated puts out a fuckton of oil and grease, gas oven...yeah. Filled the kitchen with a massive amount of smoke, and I have no idea how it didn't set my smoke alarms off. Awesome. I'm such an idiot. (And today I'm trying to 409 off the bottom of the oven over and over, so it's safe to run the self-clean cycle. At least I had the brains not to just go for the self-clean cycle right off, or I think there truly would have been fire involved.)

Off to James' D&D game today. Still wishing I could somehow switch my cleric out for a barbarian... >_>;
whitereflection: (Default)
Just sitting up at way too fucking late o'clock, listening to it thunder and thunder and thunder. It's been one long storm all day today/yesterday.

Also: http://hyperboleandahalf.blogspot.com/2010/06/this-is-why-ill-never-be-adult.html
Yes.

Dear self: learn to not eat chips and salsa at 10pm. I don't care if lunch ended up being super late, don't do it. You will feel horrid later, and especially at say, 4:05am.

Thunder and thunder and even more thunder.

A full 7 days of unanswered comments in my email. I doth sucketh.
whitereflection: (Default)
Today I got to read something that made me verra happy ♥--but nothing I can rec yet ;) And this evening was once again way late to the party by seeing the live action Alice In Wonderland (with Anj and Gina), which I loved way much. And James grilled hot dogs/polish dogs that Anj brought over, and I baked one of those rhubarb pies from http://villagepiemaker.com/ \o/ Good times.

However...tomorrow is Father's Day, I see my Dad for lunch tomorrow at 1pm (along with Mom, James, my stepmother, brother and his gf). And I don't have a Father's Day gift for him yet. >_> Um.
whitereflection: (STONEHENGE APOCALYPSE OMGWTF)
Crashed hard a couple hours this evening (last evening? Ah, the brilliance of middle of the night posting...)--right after having a Mountain Dew, not sure how I managed that. Got woken up by a phone call from Anj, dozed more, then was up again, which of course resulted in being awake until the stupid time of now, rather intelligent of me, yes.

This is the most awesome thing: [livejournal.com profile] acockalypse. This is another most awesome thing:
spoilery Stonehenge Apocalypse gif of awesome )

The reason Anj had called, though, was that the husband and I were supposed to have gone to a movie night at Don's tonight, I guess. Don did his usual not emailing about it until middle of last week, but I didn't see because I don't check my cable ISP email much anymore--only by chance checked it tonight, saw the email at 6:22 when we would have had to leave at 6:30 (not to mention stop at the store for stuff to bring with, plus the whole neither of us were leaving-the-house ready so that would have required time). Sent him a reply that we weren't going to be there and gave him the Yahoo email I actually check. Honestly, if he wanted to do something with just a couple days notice, I wish he'd call, or if he insists on doing so by email, I wish he'd give more warning. That always drives me nuts about him.

Might have also raided [livejournal.com profile] ysi_leftovers like crazy. Someone had a post with a bunch of Cat Power and Bad Religion albums, and I might have picked up Adam Lambert's two (don't judge me), Kane's plus his EP (hush, I was curious), one of Jem just because, and one of Black Rebel Motorcycle Club since I heard them on a fanmix and wanted more. Also trying some Treetop Flyers, Sean Pinchin, and We Are The Fallen. I know there's a lot on my Amazon mp3 wishlist I need to actually buy, but with the furnance/ac and cat vet bills of late, I'm just, you know. : /

ill-fitting

Jun. 4th, 2010 12:42 am
whitereflection: (sam i'm so alone)
http://catandgirl.com/?p=2477

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6020595/1/Fault_Lines
K Hanna, T (gen), 7876 words. Am v happy of late that the gen authors I follow are releasing their 'zine fics, has been a lot of good reading (esp from those hurt!Sam authors I like best).

just mulling things over )
whitereflection: (where are my fucking pizza rolls)
So today we were *supposed* to have the vents/ductwork cleaned. You know, like was planned when I signed the contract to have the furnace/ac replaced, and like was scheduled for today last week. But I got this call from the company last night. They wanted to reschedule because they've been blasted with emergency repairs--because our temps have hit upper 80s/lower 90s (and it's humid to boot). Okay, no big deal, I can respect that.

Then I find out they want to reschedule...for almost a MONTH from now. Um. WHAT. Fucking June 21?

I can see having to shuffle a few days. But there is no way in HELL that they have three-four solid weeks of emergency repairs that have come up. More like what's happened is they've fucking overbooked, and they expect me to go to the back of the damned line for it. Um sorry, but wtf. I agreed to this, paid for this, scheduled this, and even the sales people told me to get it done as soon as possible after getting that new furnace and heat pump installed. So I want it done *promptly* and not to be made to wait a damned month after--*especially* not after they scheduled me for just a week after install originally.

I am about ready to be done with this company. I feel like I'm being treated cavalierly, like my business really doesn't matter to them. And when I protested the appointment move, they *laid a fucking guilt trip on me*, basically making me be the bad guy by demanding the service when there were people out there who'd be going without AC if I took claimed the two workers for my appointment. I hate that, you know? The way if I put my foot down I'd be the bad guy in this and a bitch.

Though what can I say. It works. : / I let them reschedule me for June 21, but the person on the phone said she'd have her manager call me to discuss it since I was unhappy about it. Fine, whatever. Let's see if the manager even calls. And if she does, I'm going to emphasize that I've used their company for near 10 years and have just spent near $10K with them this year (hell, more like almost 12K considering the water heater I got from their sister plumbing company in March), and I'd like them to act like I fucking matter to them, even just a little bit.


And also, thanks life. I see friends blogging about college and summer break and convention trips and other fun things, and here I'm thinking about 37 in a few months and writing a post about my heating/cooling system *again*. I feel old.
whitereflection: (Default)
Goddang, Samuel Beam. Your voice. Your voice. I think I need to wallow in some Iron and Wine tomorrow (and/or tonight. Also, Flightless Bird, American Mouth ♥ How are you such a wonderful song?)

Btw, fanmixes are awesome:
http://community.livejournal.com/coyotedevildays/2171.html
(Also, yay, I finally after all these years listened to a K's Choice song that wasn't Shadowman >_>; )

Both Gina and Kelly ended up feeling ill and didn't come over, so no Blues Brothers after all (boo). Instead just watched Cars with Anj. Yes, I know Cars is forever old and we've owned the DVD for ages, but I'd just never gotten around to watching it. The ending made me all B'awwwwwww because I am a sap. And now I wish I could roadtrip more than ever. The soundtrack needs to be used to prompt for a J2 driving Route 66 fic. I'm just sayin'.

A 95% energy-efficient furnace, heat pump/ac, humidifier, thermostat, ductwork adjustment, vent cleaning, etc. doesn't cost five digits. But it is terribly close to that amount. Er. Happy fun installation times on Monday. (We're lucky to have savings, but I'm still flailing in panic up in the brain a bit anyway.) Hooray for the energy tax credit.

Ah, Shrek Twinkies are back. "Cream" filling colored the most unholy and unnatural shade of green known to humankind. Gotta love a "food" product that's so unrepentantly non-nutritious that you might as well go all the way and food-color part of it chartreuse. ♥ (In which the one part of my brain that isn't a 12-year-old boy is a 5-year-old one. :| )
whitereflection: (sam meditations (panic room))
http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=552
Yeah.

TopatoCo: (3) Honor Student Bumper Stickers
from http://wondermark.com/552/
Why is this not on a t-shirt? Why? I just...what I would do for that as a shirt.

Bummed out over a stupid, minor, tiny thing. One of those body of an adult/brain of a insecure teenage girl things. Just have had a certain mental/emotional button pretty much all my life, way back since I was a kid, of how if someone wanted to be a friend, that when I'd let them get to know me, they'd not want to be a friend anymore. Kinda got that button pressed again. Suckage. Doesn't matter if you're 36, 26, 16, or 6, it always kinda blows.

Wish I would've put this on that Sam fanmix:
http://www.songmeanings.net/songs/view/3530822107858766939/
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3KkUeRPjc-Y
Someday I'll get to see these guys live in concert and then I'll be able to die happy. :p
whitereflection: (Default)
I am going to ignore this mood swing until it goes away. >:E Yes. Instead: KITTY \o/
http://cheezburger.com/View.aspx?aid=3435432704
My brother's cat. B'awwwww :p

http://www.bearnutscomic.com/
Noticed last night that one of the webcomic artists I follow is a Supernatural fan (scroll down to see her poll on the right hand side). Dunno why this makes me so amusedhappy, but it does. Suppose the fact she named her little boy Sam is just coincidence? *hee*

Dental insurance I've been paying for since December, and who was already *reminded* two months ago by the company handling benefits that yes, I am covered, still says my name isn't on their lists. Obv this means my dental visit from February still can't be claimed \o/ Woooooooooo. That, chipped tooth, rattling furnance (again), patio door lock going funny (door's a year and a half old \o/), WoW guild people being doofs in two ways (not showing up or going gloomdoom because we had *gasp* two whole cancelled nights), and I haven't been able to write anything for real--either fanfiction or real poetry--for months. Ignoring all of that~ It is all minor and nothing and people on my flist have real, truly difficult things they're struggling with. Gonna quit emostressing over minor dumb things, yes.

Why do I have such a *thing* about this icon? Good grief.
whitereflection: (sam oh fuck *that* shit)
I sort of noticed yesterday, but have really, really, really noticed today, that I am extremely, horribly, excruciatingly irritable and cranky. And petty and petulant. :< I understand being tired and drained but good freaking grief, this is ridiculous. I've been snarky at folks online here, short with the husband, and extremely snippy with Mom. Even annoyed with the cats.

And now I'm finding I'm the sort of lousy person that can't just accept that people at a community are having fun with a topic that I'm not interested in, but instead am feeling whiny that they're not choosing a topic I do happen to be interested in. I mean, ffs, self, get over yourself and grow up. Let them have their fun and excitement and enthusiasm. Just because it is often emphasized that they're interested in this subset of fandom you're just not that into, it doesn't mean you're being left out or excluded.

Afsdfjghasdf arghlblargh. I hate me.

L.H. Puttgrass signing off and heading for the tub. (No, not really. Old Bloom County quote. I miss Bloom County.)


[Oh right, and to mention something that isn't me being a whiny little bint, here's a Supernatural video that is absofucking amazing. Seriously. Ab-so-fuh-king a-ma-zing.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_fyhjDvsy4
Supernatural (go.back.to.sleep.) by TikiTyler9. Damned good shit. And I so freaking love that song. Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] fabilimah for reccing the video.]
whitereflection: (winchesters me > you lol)
I wonder, has anyone done a fanvid for SPN to Lady Gaga's Boys Boys Boys?

If not, why not? :B

Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
With hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!
We love them!

and stuff.

Mar. 24th, 2010 12:13 am
whitereflection: (sam and bobby black and white)
Had my usual response to feeling down and useless, and that was OMG MUST BAKE. Thus, apple crisp happened. Because I was indecisive, ended up cobbling together a couple recipes I found online.

Apple part was 3 small granny smith apples (needed to get used, they were old), 1 large granny smith apple, and 1 large...heck if I know. It was pinkish. A Jazz, maybe? Cut into slices and then the slices into chunks. Mixed them with a handful of chopped dried apricots, 1/2 c sugar, 2 tsp pumpkin pie spice, about 2 T lemon juice and 2 T orange juice, and 1/2 tsp vanilla. Topping was 2 packets instant oatmeal, 1 cup flour, 1 cup brown sugar, 1 tsp cinnamon, a small package of chopped hazelnuts, and 1 stick of butter, melted, all mixed together until forming crumbles. Apple mix went into a sprayed 9x13 pan, poured on topping, breaking up the larger crumbles and spreading it evenly. Drizzled on just a little maple syrup. Baked about an hour at 350F. Really turned out well, nice with ice cream and whipped cream. Not runny or liquid at all, and had a real carmel apple thing going for it.

Not much other than that, other than an all-day headache (argh), and managing another couple levels for Wynn in the evening. Oh, and today in [livejournal.com profile] spnland I learned I fail at FML. FML. Har. :p Okay, so one made me eyeroll at it, don't tell anyone shhhhhhhhhhhh. But the rest were good.

JUST TODAY AND THEN TOMORROW IS THURSDAY EEEEEEEEEE. BOYS HOW I HAVE MISSED YOU. Please let there be good brother moments, and not too much heartbreakings.
whitereflection: (sam i should not love this fic)
Spaced off the gas utility bill, just realized as I was doing financial stuff a bit ago. It's due tomorrow, and of course when I went to put the mail out to send it, the mail person had already been by here. See, if I got up at a normal time instead of sleeping in too late (again), and if I would have gotten ready and done bills right away instead of messing around on the computer first, I would have had it out to be picked up in time. This is how not to be an adult.

Also, I'm an irritable bitch to people in my WoW guild, and am awesome at screwing up on the Sindragosa fight, more than anyone else. Yay.
whitereflection: (wow REPENT! gnome ftw)
So, WoW babblings and screenshot funtimes \o/

I have this thing about World of Warcraft, and that is it's a fantasy type game. So for me fantasy means you ride fantasy type mounts--creatures, that sort of thing. I sort of look askance at the helicopter those with the engineering profession make, but it's goofy enough that it looks steampunk and for some reason that fits fantasy still well enough or me. But a motorcycle...? Pshhh. I swore I never would for Ak because that seemed just silly, and also characters in robes look weird on it. But...there's this achievement for 100 mounts. And I'm working towards that (95/100 so far...)--and so I gave in. >_<

Ak + mechanohog = what. )

I...it is sort of growing on me. I can't help but giggle when he rides it, because it's all badass and has such a GRRRRARRRRRRRRR engine noise and yeah. ^^;

And finally got Wynnchester to level 20, so she could have her paladin charger mount. Which I thought maybe she should call Impala, but no, that's that fine lady here. So instead I think she'll call it Kashmir, because every good character given a Spn related name in a fit of geekery needs a mount named after a Led Zepplin song.

Wynnchester + Kashmir = I'm a dork. :|  )

Yeah, I'm a dork. \:B/ And to further emphasize that, D&D today. \o/
whitereflection: (winchesters arid land (weapons))
http://www.gorillaz.com/
I did not know they had a new CD coming out March 9, I did not know this \o/ Eeeeeeeee \o\ \o/ /o/ Ohman, I geeked so freaking hard over Demon Days. And now I cannot waaaaaaaaaaaaait for Plastic Beach \o/♥ I'm already hooked on the song Stylo.

No, I have no taste. Or what taste I do possess is once again dictated by my inner 12-13 year old boy. Egads.
whitereflection: (i am so fucking boring)
Fit the 1st: It's only taken me 36 years to finally get the hang of how to make a grilled cheese sandwich right.

Fit the 2nd: Of all the things I do for dinner, ranging from nuke-it to things that take all afternoon to do, it is that grilled cheese that sends the husband into foodgasms. Seriously, it was only cheap white bread, buttered on the outside, and store brand American cheese. He *raved*. I'm just a little bit "...'kay. o_O".

Fit the 3rd: Wow. The challenges happen fast at [livejournal.com profile] spnland. :x Eep.

Fit the 4th: Speaking of a different sort of WoW, am feeling kind of burned out on the game lately. : / (And not just because the guild's gotten Dreamwalker 25 but is so stalled at Bloodqueen 25). At the same time an in-game friend is going all pmsemobitchy about some things, and am just finding that I want to avoid it (mainly because it's not a bitchfit that's a listen/comfort thing, but getting guilt-tripped about not being vocal and backing him up when he posts about problems. It's not that I don't care, it's just that I...am having trouble motivating myself in general, I guess). Sort of making me not want to log in at all, much less want to deal with raid stuff.

Fit the 5th: http://www.overcompensating.com/posts/20100222.html Indeed, Mr. Rowland, indeed. Also, http://garfieldminusgarfield.net/ needs to quit being the story of my life.

Fit the 6th: http://www.dreyers.com/brand/grand/flavor.asp?b=134&f=1644 The answer to life, the universe, and everything. I'm just sayin'. See also: Thin Mint. (Nothing against Ben & Jerry's S'mores, that's just all year, so. Häagen Dazs Creme Brulee would still reign supreme if it hadn't disappeared from store shelves years back. Where'd it go, some sort of ice cream Bermuda Triangle?)

ackpth

Feb. 9th, 2010 10:51 am
whitereflection: (winchesters boggling (torn page))
Whooooo thought it'd be a good idea to stay up until 5:20am reading fic when having to be up at 6? \o/ \o/ \o/ A winner is so me. Oh, self, your utter brilliance overwhelms. I hate when I get manic-y. (And why are you so weak for wingfic, self, whyyyyyyyyyyyyy...) Napped as the husband got ready for work, after dropping him off at work/before dropping off Mom at the outpatient place for the carpal tunnel surgery, and will probably nap a little more shortly. Do I know how to completely waste a day, or what? : /

It is stupid cold outside, with stupid wind chills. Stuuuuuuuuuupid.

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