Melodramatic Fool

I think listening to http://planetzoltar.com/ (ie the Subterranean program) via http://897theriver.com/'s webstreaming is my new Friday/Saturday midnight-2am activity. Been meaning to for *years*, but I always, always forget. Since I'm always awake anymore anyway *shrug* why not. Love this sort of music, never get a chance to listen since I don't get to go dancing anymore and since I have so little of it in my iTunes library.

Experimented with cooking again. Thanks to a link by http://www.overcompensating.com/ to the blog http://theeconolodgediaries.blogspot.com/, I got the hankering to try the recipe:
http://theeconolodgediaries.blogspot.com/2010/03/goat-cheese-yes-please.html
Did several substitutions--penne since I forgot which type of pasta to buy, sweet italian turkey sausage since I like it and Omaha grocery stores are too boring to have something like lamb sausage, fresh asparagus cut into 1" pieces since I was on the fence about the broccoli florets and it's just coming in season (thus yum and also cheap), shallots for the red onion since I like shallots and really don't like the other. Also used dried oregano instead of fresh, also added some dried basil and parsley. Still got the feeling of the recipe, and it was pretty awesome. I think next time I'd separate out more pasta water--the 1/4 wasn't really enough, and it was too thick. Could have easily done a half cup.

Only thing that got me was how freaking expensive the goat cheese was--an 11oz log was a $10+ which is like wow for a pasta dish. But dang, so good. Crumbling it is such a danged mess, but precrumbled is even more expensive. Though the goat cheese was a touch heavy, presence-wise, so maybe two 4 oz logs instead, which isn't as good a deal per oz, but would be a little cheaper. Dunno. The other thing--I cannot *stand* my large silicone cooking spoons. The things bend and flex with any bit of weighty food, which makes stirring stupidly a pain. >_< Must find something better. Also also, my average sized cooking pot, the Calaphon nonstick, has lost its stupid coating--just like the one I had previously. So much for lifetime yeah. Can't even blame a dishwasher this time, as it's never been in one. And we use nonstick-safe scrubbers on our dishes, so wtf. Time to ditch Calaphon for another brand, at least for that sort of pot, since it's something I use almost every time I cook.

http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=540
Ahaha. Gonna make an icon of the last panel, I think. >3 Aaaand, another Dean-sort of comic:
http://www.rockpapercynic.com/index.php?date=2010-03-15 Dean gets philosophical? :p
And this guest comic at Hanna Is Not A Boy's Name made me snortlaugh. Best thing ever:
http://hanna.aftertorque.com/?p=580

I need it to be the 25th *flails* And can't forget--yay for keerawa and seisei_ftw joining the ranks of Team Hell! :D :D :D :D :D Freaking awesome ♥

Yeah, so I'm always behind the times, always always. Tonight I finally got to try out God of War (yes, the original, yes, I know GoW3 is due out soon ^^; ). Anyway! Freaking. FUN. Aaaaaaawesome fun. Even if it does seem really dark on our TV. Played it for several hours this evening as Anj walked me through it and Kelly watched (after a jaunt to HuHot nom). Need need to find a used copy somewhere. \o/ Anj also brought over GoW2 and showed us one of the fights (the one with Zeus) and holy beans it looked hard--graphics were definitely improved over the original, which makes me think 3 will be damned nice.

Though I must admit, I think Blizzard artists/developers were definitely ah 'influenced' on the look of the Kologarn fight in Ulduar, after seeing part of that Zeus/GoW2 fight :p (the bit where he's giant and you only see his upper half).

Also, I am still pining for FFXIII. I'm just sayin'. :| And after spending so much time on Wynnchester (my paladin) in WoW, I am sort of--just sort of--wishing that's what I was playing as a main right now. At the least the levelling is SO freaking easy. And I know they're really damned good in endgame raiding right now ('course Ak could be as good if I didn't suck and also could play/wanted to play affliction spec or even metamorphosis spec). Makes me wonder if I would have played one as my first toon if I would have rerolled like I did.

I do not want it to be daylight savings time. T__T Such hate for that losing an hour thing. If I could ditch one thing about the U.S., it would be that, I swear.

Oh, and I wish I could send that little free squirrel v-gift to so very many of you. :( It only lets you do so to three... D: D: *hugs*! to everyone in lieu of that :| ♥

Christ why'm I still up. Can't even blame sleeping earlier, because Dad called after I'd maybe dozed 15min and then wanted to be *chatty* forever (oh, genetics...).

Anyway. Comics! http://dcisgoingtohell.com/ is adorable and funky and quirky and bizarre and adorable! I want a pet manticore. :B Reread http://hanna.aftertorque.com/ and I flail that it updates slowly but it is worth it for the awesome. And have I linked http://www.bearfoo.com/ at all yet? It was a print comic originally, and it's being rereleased on the web and maaaaan, it is weird and wrong and it makes me laugh.

I will finally spend that Amz gc my brother and his gf gave me for Christmas because I discovered Mumford & Sons' Sigh No More is FINALLY out as a mp3 album, so it is cheeeeap and not omgimport priced. GLEE. ♥ Though not sure if I should get those new Gorillaz and Peter Gabriel ones, too, because I still haven't gotten Porcupine Tree's The Incident or Nil Recurring (not mp3 format, though) or Iron & Wine's Around the Well--and gdi, Assemblage 23 has a new one out, too? (Compass). And I'd really wanted Tomcraft's Versus EP, and a there's been a few single mp3s... Criminy. Not much gets crossed off that wish list anymore. Makes me appreciate lastfm's free mp3s so very much, because even if that's stuff I've not heard of, at least it's something new to try.

Loved the spnland media and game challenges this week ♥ And yay, more icons to do for the art comm (I suck at graphics, seriously so, but I love doing 'em, sooo...). Think I'm going to fail at submitting anything for the meta *and* for the news article ones, though. Because I'm awesome like that. Fail fail fail.

http://www.buildingaworld.com/store/product.php?productid=16908&cat=283&page=1
Wish I could get that. Would be really something cool to put on the wall I face when I sleep, so I could see it when I wake up. I really dig Sam Brown's work.

Yesterday, I discovered it's fabulously easy to make hot roast beef sandwiches at home; wondered why I'd never tried before. Today made a from scratch mushroom/pea/asparagus/gouda cheese soup, and it was pretty awesome.

Sort of craving a roadtrip so much it's driving me a bit nuts, and it's kind of getting to me that for various reasons it's not at all possible, even once the weather gets better. I want to so danged much.

http://www.omaha.com/article/20100220/NEWS01/702209847 <-- This sort of says it all. *sigh/headwall* So tired of this winter.

http://overcompensating.com/posts/20100214.html
Using my Spn goggles, this is full of extra lollers. (Punchline refers to Dean, y/y?) (Speaking of show--s6, for real this time! Yesssssssssssssssssssssss \o/ \o/ \o/!)

Mom and I need to quit spending time at B&N. I always rationalize that I need to buy coffee, and end up with another book (Margaret Atwood, Selected Poems 1965-1975. I wish they'd had a larger compilation :/ Also, why didn't they have anything by Szymborska or Siken? Bah.)

Ffffffffffffffffff, allergies >_< ;;;;;;; There's no pollen or things budding at all, just everything's so awful damp-soggy and moldy from this constant thaw/freeze under all the snow and crap. Ugh.

Concerned about my aunt, whose had another surgery to deal with issues relating to her ovarian cancer. Recovery is going very rough, and they found evidence of metastasis. My cousins especially aren't taking it well.

Anyway, just stuff. And there's cat 3 of 4 acting like a spazz in the fabric cat cube thing. Yay for cats acting like dumb-butts.

Seeing the extended family was decent. Ended up being a lot of my cousins' other side of the family, which was kind of a neat thing since it's been forever since seeing some of them, not since my one uncle's and aunt's funerals. Odd discovery was my cousin telling me she's written poetry, and been published in something, and that another aunt's written as well (It's amazing how even close family can still not know each other.) Sounds like she's interested in seeing some of mine, and I definitely want to see what both of them have done (got the feeling she might put together something of 'family' writings, which would be pretty cool). Wish I'd had the Xmas poem with me somehow, because she'd put together photo albums of old Christmases and it would have gone so well with that. Same cousin also gave me a bunch of photocopies of materials she'd gotten from a life coach, which is really freaking awesome of her to do, since I know she's spent a lot to meet with that individual. Definitely will be reading through it this week.

James' DnD game tomorrow...blah about it, but only mainly because I'm wanting 'hang around by myself and do nothing' time. Least it's a bit better than having Leslie's game because there'll be a break between end of it and raid time.

And now your moment of zen insecurity: More and more often, I find that damned near everybody I know (beyond fandom) writes, even writes poetry. How can I be thinking I could make anything of it if everybody else out there's already/also doing it, and mine isn't any better than theirs? How can I consider what I do special enough to even think I could attempt it as a livelihood?

*Christmas shopping actually happened \o/ It is sad to feel so accomplished over so little. (Now to see if I can meet my goals of wrapping and mailing. Woo \o/ Yeah, I remember when I used to do about 5x more every day and it wasn't a big deal, it was *normal*, I dunno either : / )

*I very much like this fic:
http://community.livejournal.com/huntersarchives/41586.html
lucky graveyard boots & a song to sing by paxlux and whereupon, PG, Gen (Sam, Dean), 6050 words.
I really, really like it. Left a goddanged inane 3-paragraph rambling comment liked it. I'm such a dumbass when I'm spazzing. But it's gorgeous, so very so. Oh, boys. ♥

*For some reason, chocolate/mint esp peppermint is my freaking obsession this year. It is absolutely not safe around me. Anytime I see that's chocolate/peppermint, especially if it's candy cane bits, it's GAME OVER MAN GAME OVER It's a bug hunt!

*Biggest klutz that ever lived? Right here.

*Man, for some reason I so don't want to raid tonight. Don't think it'd go over well to post absent for reasons of pms-ness. :|

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Freddie Mercury, no ifs ands or buts. Seriously, it kills me that I really became besotted with Queen (after being fond of their music since *gradeschool*) just as he died. Queen would have been the most epic concert in the universe to see. (Not that they're dead but I also regret that I'm the wrong generation to have seen the Waters/Gilmour-era Pink Floyd live, too.)

Anyway, figured today needed more reccage:
http://masterlist415.livejournal.com/63259.html: You Even Write Like a Girl by anyothergirl415, Sam/Dean, R. As seen recced at sawedoff_recs today, and it goes under the BEST THING IN THE UNIVERSE category. I adore when people do humor fics for the fandom, because while I love the angst and the serious and the dramatic (that ends HEA of course, this is me), show and Sam & Dean even during the dark times are so about the funny. This is creative and brilliant and ♥--the character voices are just *bullseye*, Yahtzee if you will.

Also, have I spazzed about paxlux's Howl verse recently? No? No? For *SHAME*, self.
http://community.livejournal.com/huntersarchives/35600.html with the newest being
http://community.livejournal.com/huntersarchives/40003.html under the wartime blue floodlight of the moon
(Sam/Dean, NC-17 as always) Dark, twisted, brutal, wild, feral, but so full of life and joy in a wrongtwistedbutrightperfect way. I am about the schmoop and the warmfuzzy and the happysquishy--but I *LOVE* this and am addicted to it, and I always read these slowly so I can savor each word and let each scene play movies in my head. Also, okay, it's fuckin hot and sexy. :| Mmmmm bloodplay and biting kinks and and unf unf *¬*

Okay, shutting up now. But first--scene: driving through the parking lot as Mom and I leave the grocery store, Mom muttering about Bakers (aka Krogers) having sweet potatoes with a coupon for California cheese products but *not actually carrying any products with the required California cheese logo*.
Mom: I guess they don't have any happy cows.
Me: *mutters* Bipolar cows.
Mom: *almost chokes on her coffee*
\o/