Melodramatic Fool

I...think I am in love. Went over to BestBuy to pick up Zombieland for when folks come over tonight (Zombieland! Eeeee! \o/ So looking forward to it), and I happened to see where they had a commercial for Final Fantasy XIII on a widescreen TV.

Oh god. Oh my god. Do you know how much I am crying because I do not have a PS3 and can't get a PS3 in the foreseeable future? I AM CRYING SO SO SO FREAKING MUCH AUGH. This game. Oh god so gorgeous. SO GORGEOUS. The character designs (save for a few that I'm meh on or outright bleh on :p ) are holyfuckPRETTY--and the animation/graphics/world/creatures? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. I AM CRYING WITH WANT FOR THIS GAME FFFFFFFF. I know I would suck at it. But still. T_____T

http://www.finalfantasyxiii.com/#/content/Characters/06 <--my favorite character design ♥♥♥ Ohhman, her eyes ♥ And hair, and everything \o/ ♥
http://www.finalfantasyxiii.com/#/content/Characters/00 <--Looks like the main character maybe? So adore her already. I may be already femmeslashing her and the previous one. >_> Yes.
http://www.finalfantasyxiii.com/#/content/Characters/02 <--omg so cute!
http://www.finalfantasyxiii.com/#/content/Characters/04 <--the only male toon I really give a rat about ^^; Ffffffffff adorable! *flails* Cute cute cute ♥

Interesting though--I just normally gravitate to male characters, I don't know why, I just do. Video games, even WoW (hence my main), reading, TV/movies. This is the first time I'm just not interested in the male toons (save the one), but SPARKLING *__* at the female ones. The summon-type things (Eidolons?) also look amazing. Now the play system...that's why I think I'd suck at it. >_< I really miss the old battlemenus of old--and this looks somewhat similar to FFXII, which I never quite liked. But EH. WANTY WANT anyway. *grabbyhands* Guess it doesn't matter what the play system's like since I don't have a PS3 anyway. BAH. /sigh...someday, someday. And maybe by then it'll be a reasonable price. : / Or when there's some sort of PS4 and no one wants PS3 anymore.

ANYWAY. :| The aunt finally got sent to the rehab center in Lincoln \o/ Woo! Progress! It took a week longer than they expected to get her to where she could go, but the things they were concerned about (making sure the infection was gone, verifying the incision was healing right inside, etc) were all okay. And the physical therapy at the hospital itself had her able to stand with a walker for short times, though not yet really able to walk yet (muscles are too weak).

http://www.asofterworld.com/index.php?id=517
Please to be getting out of my head, ASW. It's sorta creepy when you do that.

I have 8 books on my desk, and I am managing to read none of them. Have been failing to get motivated on reading anything for like the last month, save for fanfiction. What the hell, self?


http://omaha.com/article/20100106/NEWS01/100109858
"Arctic front takes aim"
Two blurbs on that page:
Monday's low of 20 degrees below zero was the coldest Omaha has seen since 1996, when temperatures dropped to 23 below zero in February. Since 1935, there have been only eight other winters when the mercury dropped that low.

With 5 to 7 inches of snow expected this week ... and more expected this winter, Omaha could land in the top 10 for:
•Total snow on the ground. Based on records dating to 1947, the most snow on the ground in Omaha over a winter was 27 inches in 1959-1960. Already some 17 inches are on the ground.
•Longest period with snow-covered ground. Based on records, the longest stretch is 92 days in 1974-75. As of Wednesday morning, Omaha has gone 32 days.

Our "high" temp on Friday is going to be a negative number. Asdfsdkjfskf. Everything this season is just testing my belief that I like winter. Also, where the hell are we going to shovel 5-7 more inches. Everywhere along the driveway and sidewalks are fucking drifts from previous snows and previous shovellings already. Fffffffffff. Now I want fic where Sam and Dean are trapped in a cabin and it just keeps snowing over and over and over and they have similar trouble with shoveling out over and over and running out of room to put it. But they have a lot of sex so it's okay. :|

I intended to do a thoughtful 2009 retrospective post like so many have today, but I seem to be able to only produce babbling blurbs, so, a brief thought plus ordered list fun:

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Anyway. Despite playing the game for five years now, this is the first time I've had an icon of either of my main characters. Long past time, no? verbranden is the awesomest of the awesome for surprising me with it. ♥♥♥

The hormonemo melancholy is most strong today, yesterday as well. An almost nonfunctioning sort of gloom (spent a lot of time just staring yesterday, listening to the sound of the fan). Haven't logged into WoW for a couple days, feeling a bit burned and bored and still unhappy about a stupid argument that went on Wednesday. But bored of fic reading and of Food Network, too.

The music in my head the last couple days:
Elbow - Not A Job
Elbow - Leaders of the Free World
Radical Face - Welcome Home, Son
Jen Titus - O Death
Grasshopper Takeover - Omaha
...but, I think I feel like some Steven Wilson now. Insurgentes it is. God, that one and Twilight Coda off that album...if I I had the mental energy, I'd share. So beautiful.

Mom poked me to do an Amazon wishlist recently, and over half of it is music. But I don't want CDs if I can help it, my CD racks are just full already. But Amazon won't let people give mp3s as gifts--so I commented such on each item and noted gift cards would be swell. Though I know a lot of my family and friends don't like giving gift cards, which sucks because what I really want is the mp3s and the only way to get 'em as gifts is through general gift cards. Way to go, amz.

http://lsketch42.livejournal.com/81847.html
video "The New Prophet" by lsketch42, a takeoff of the Evan Almighty trailer. Oh, such amusement for this~ X3 I looooooove Chuck, I so do.

http://users.livejournal.com/_hopefulness_/172796.html
http://girlmostlikely.livejournal.com/274723.html

These. These are why I am so utterly besotted with Misters Padalecki and Ackles. I just...I...just so freaking love how doofy and adorable and gorgeous and fun and *everything* these two are. I just...they are my favorite thing in the universe right now. ♥

Comes at a good time, too. So freaking moody, and up again ugly late. My sleep schedule's just so fucked anymore, and now I'm sleeping in bizarrely later to go with the up til morning awakeness. I don't seem to hear alarms lately. I know it doesn't bug other people, but I hatehatehate sleeping in past 8-9 am--last couple days have been 10:30 and 11:30, and the latter especially just leaves me feeling much of my day is shot, and doesn't help the fix my day/night a bit.

Want to write lately >_< Something SamnDean, or something J2, even just a freaking drabble as much as I don't care for doing those. But fuck I just can't get words or ideas in my head. I love reading, I do. But I want to create, too.

Oh, and ffffffffff, realized I have dinner out this Thursday >_< ;;;; Trying to figure out whether to make ye olde VCR work (not even sure I have empty tapes anymore), or to download Spn 5.2 after I get home (which would mean waiting til the next day to see it). Argh. Argh, I say.

*sigh* Holy handgrenades, would I kill for http://s50.radikal.ru/i130/0909/d2/63e1eb5d5416.jpg as an LJ header, seriously. Oh, boys ♥ (I'm 36, I'm older than them, I can effing call them boys if I want. :| ) [Edit: also http://i048.radikal.ru/0909/cd/470ed455059e.jpg and http://i048.radikal.ru/0909/7e/db4e96adb129.jpg and http://i033.radikal.ru/0909/f9/697104ef2a0d.jpg and GAH I adore them so much *flails*]

FFFFFFFFFFF. I say again: FFFFFFFFFFFF. Oh, SPN ♥♥ Song in the promo is gorgeous. I am enthralled.

And fuck this cold. First in like 13 months, but fuck it anyway. Head hurts so bad, but nothing is making me sleep through it. Despite the fact that all I've wanted to do/been doing for the last couple days is sleep. Rrgh.

Also also...apped for Dauntless on Eldre'Thalas with Ak. Hoping I am not getting myself in over my head skillwise, if I get in.

You know, I sort of want a fic that starts Sam/Dean, but then goes Dean/Castiel through/because of s4 and Sam thinks it's just what he deserves for what he's done, then develops Castiel/Sam and Sam/Dean again as well and ends with a nice united Sam/Dean/Castiel I think I'd like that very much. Don't judge me I love my emotional happy ever after threesomes :| I am sick and my *eyes* ache and I crave shmoop and I want everyone to be happy shut up. T___T

And oh god, the WoW changes. The WoW changes are going to be *HUGE* next expansion. Exciting and T____T WAUGH all at the same time. Oh, Azeroth, I will miss the way you were.