decade'd! (or not)
Dec. 31st, 2009 05:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionI intended to do a thoughtful 2009 retrospective post like so many have today, but I seem to be able to only produce babbling blurbs, so, a brief thought plus ordered list fun:
It was sort of a continuation of the crash and burn that 2008 was, maybe the bouncing and rolling to a rest post-crash and burn. A lot of fail, or at least lack of success, and I still haven't gotten back on the career horse, and still feel massively uncertain about what to do. I know I need to improve this. I either have to get a job, have to go back to school, or both--or if I'm serious about writing/poetry, I need to start writing consistently and submit and test the waters of if that's even remotely viable. And whatever I do, I have to make sure it's kosher with the usual him. As well as somehow find myself a way to health insurance since COBRA isn't forever.
But I don't want to get into the worry, guilt, fretting, etc. that trying to figure out job/career/school/what have been (and failing at starting on a concrete path for a good 4 months now), so instead, I'm making a note of that which has been awesome this year.
1. Supernatural
I love this show. I love the characters, I love the actors, I love the car (she is A Fine Lady). I love that it's brought me new friends, as well as given me something new to be excited about with old friends. I love that it's given me an outlet for creativity again, and given me inspiration and spark for writing--even to the point of managing to nudge me back into stumbling attempts at nonfan/original poetry. I love that it's given me so much to read, so very much, and has led me to discover so much amazing talent. I've fanned a lot of things, but it's something different to be part of a fandom, and I am enjoying it; I've missed that.
2. http://www.last.fm/user/livingflame
http://897theriver.com/
Music, as always, is as necessary as air. I'm still so utterly glad to have discovered and/or explored Mumford & Sons and Radical Face this year. It is such an amazing feeling to fall utterly in love with some new song or group. I'm definitely looking forward to what the next year brings for new discoveries, or for new works by artists I already love (see: amz wishlist that I really need to get around to finally buying from after this weekend's postponed-from-Christmas get-togethers ^^; )
3. http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/index.xml
Five years, and I still love being the hero and saving the world. I'll never be a great gamer, but I'm okay and I'm a hell of a lot better than I was when I started. I love my old main, my current main, and all my alts. I'm really happy with how things are turning out in Dauntless (http://etdauntless.com/) and hope things continue to be that way. I'm more content than I have been in a guild in a long time--like early in NW in Burning Crusade (before I knew what the old crowd was really like ^^; ), or when things were at their best in Lunar Eclipse/Lunar Chaos in the original game. I'm also enjoying my time with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
wow_dota and am glad they're there to be the alliance/female/casual balance to my Dauntless/raiding time.
And I love that I can blend the stupid things I'm fanning into this game. :| Doofus me, I can't stop doing it--from Sasuke-Sasukeh and Axel-Akseru to Impala, Sam-Samuael and even now Jayred the paladin for poor Jared Padalecki. Or music references like Ninevveh (originally Nineveh for the ES Posthumus song) and Ohia from Songs: Ohia. And so on. It continues to make me happy to tie that which I'm geeking about together in a large dorky bow.
4. http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/friends/
You guys. Those that I've known since I've started this in mid-2001, those that I've gotten to know since then, those that I'm just getting to know. I really appreciate and am grateful for you all. ♥ Also, those friends in my day to day life, many of whom I've known since college, as well as my family (we who always loved the Simpsons because we *were* and *are* them). As solitary as I am, I need connections, support, and those to care for and to care about me. Thank you.
5. Fumbling back into writing.
I haven't done much, barely anything. Such a tiny amount compared to some. But I *need* to be creative, but am so rarely able to make it work. Usually I just feel it eating at me and can't make anything happen. So any little thing is something I am grateful for, even if no one beyond me (or including me) thinks much of the results.
Spn fic:
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/655395.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/686980.html
Spn poetry (sometimes 'prosetry'):
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/684516.html (what I'm proudest of)
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/682729.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/681615.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/689809.html
Original poetry:
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/669536.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/672967.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/675623.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/684914.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/685955.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/686508.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/687181.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/687710.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/688092.html
And yeah. I'm *still* amazed at![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
poppymoon3's tattoo from Calavera Road. http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/694688.html I will never not feel really complimented by that.
6. My cats.
No, seriously. They're like...my entertainment, my blood pressure medication, my prozac, my kids, my buddies, my familiars, the banes of my existence. I'll always wish I could have fish, snakes, dwarf hamsters, guinea pigs, and so on, but at least I've got these four. And wow, Crystal-cat at something approaching 22 is still here. Just wow.
And...yeah, let's leave it at that. So, I'm alive--aging, but still a long, long ways to go. I may be allergic to the damned world, sensitive to more chemicals than you can shake a stick at, dealing with asthma, and a fat, sedentary doof, but I'm still kicking. My intelligence isn't what it used to be, but I sometimes manage to brain despite that--and occasionally even be witty and philosophical. I'm not 18, I'm not 21, but I think I've still got potential for something. I hope.
But 2010...I remember seeing the movie 2010 when I was a kid. I remember pondering how very far away 2010 was then, and how very old I'd be when I got to that year. ...yeah. The year we make contact, indeed.
Anyway. Despite playing the game for five years now, this is the first time I've had an icon of either of my main characters. Long past time, no?verbranden is the awesomest of the awesome for surprising me with it. ♥♥♥
It was sort of a continuation of the crash and burn that 2008 was, maybe the bouncing and rolling to a rest post-crash and burn. A lot of fail, or at least lack of success, and I still haven't gotten back on the career horse, and still feel massively uncertain about what to do. I know I need to improve this. I either have to get a job, have to go back to school, or both--or if I'm serious about writing/poetry, I need to start writing consistently and submit and test the waters of if that's even remotely viable. And whatever I do, I have to make sure it's kosher with the usual him. As well as somehow find myself a way to health insurance since COBRA isn't forever.
But I don't want to get into the worry, guilt, fretting, etc. that trying to figure out job/career/school/what have been (and failing at starting on a concrete path for a good 4 months now), so instead, I'm making a note of that which has been awesome this year.
1. Supernatural
I love this show. I love the characters, I love the actors, I love the car (she is A Fine Lady). I love that it's brought me new friends, as well as given me something new to be excited about with old friends. I love that it's given me an outlet for creativity again, and given me inspiration and spark for writing--even to the point of managing to nudge me back into stumbling attempts at nonfan/original poetry. I love that it's given me so much to read, so very much, and has led me to discover so much amazing talent. I've fanned a lot of things, but it's something different to be part of a fandom, and I am enjoying it; I've missed that.
2. http://www.last.fm/user/livingflame
http://897theriver.com/
Music, as always, is as necessary as air. I'm still so utterly glad to have discovered and/or explored Mumford & Sons and Radical Face this year. It is such an amazing feeling to fall utterly in love with some new song or group. I'm definitely looking forward to what the next year brings for new discoveries, or for new works by artists I already love (see: amz wishlist that I really need to get around to finally buying from after this weekend's postponed-from-Christmas get-togethers ^^; )
3. http://www.worldofwarcraft.com/index.xml
Five years, and I still love being the hero and saving the world. I'll never be a great gamer, but I'm okay and I'm a hell of a lot better than I was when I started. I love my old main, my current main, and all my alts. I'm really happy with how things are turning out in Dauntless (http://etdauntless.com/) and hope things continue to be that way. I'm more content than I have been in a guild in a long time--like early in NW in Burning Crusade (before I knew what the old crowd was really like ^^; ), or when things were at their best in Lunar Eclipse/Lunar Chaos in the original game. I'm also enjoying my time with
wow_dota and am glad they're there to be the alliance/female/casual balance to my Dauntless/raiding time.And I love that I can blend the stupid things I'm fanning into this game. :| Doofus me, I can't stop doing it--from Sasuke-Sasukeh and Axel-Akseru to Impala, Sam-Samuael and even now Jayred the paladin for poor Jared Padalecki. Or music references like Ninevveh (originally Nineveh for the ES Posthumus song) and Ohia from Songs: Ohia. And so on. It continues to make me happy to tie that which I'm geeking about together in a large dorky bow.
4. http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/friends/
You guys. Those that I've known since I've started this in mid-2001, those that I've gotten to know since then, those that I'm just getting to know. I really appreciate and am grateful for you all. ♥ Also, those friends in my day to day life, many of whom I've known since college, as well as my family (we who always loved the Simpsons because we *were* and *are* them). As solitary as I am, I need connections, support, and those to care for and to care about me. Thank you.
5. Fumbling back into writing.
I haven't done much, barely anything. Such a tiny amount compared to some. But I *need* to be creative, but am so rarely able to make it work. Usually I just feel it eating at me and can't make anything happen. So any little thing is something I am grateful for, even if no one beyond me (or including me) thinks much of the results.
Spn fic:
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/655395.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/686980.html
Spn poetry (sometimes 'prosetry'):
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/684516.html (what I'm proudest of)
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/682729.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/681615.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/689809.html
Original poetry:
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/669536.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/672967.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/675623.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/684914.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/685955.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/686508.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/687181.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/687710.html
http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/688092.html
And yeah. I'm *still* amazed at
poppymoon3's tattoo from Calavera Road. http://whitereflection.livejournal.com/694688.html I will never not feel really complimented by that. 6. My cats.
No, seriously. They're like...my entertainment, my blood pressure medication, my prozac, my kids, my buddies, my familiars, the banes of my existence. I'll always wish I could have fish, snakes, dwarf hamsters, guinea pigs, and so on, but at least I've got these four. And wow, Crystal-cat at something approaching 22 is still here. Just wow.
And...yeah, let's leave it at that. So, I'm alive--aging, but still a long, long ways to go. I may be allergic to the damned world, sensitive to more chemicals than you can shake a stick at, dealing with asthma, and a fat, sedentary doof, but I'm still kicking. My intelligence isn't what it used to be, but I sometimes manage to brain despite that--and occasionally even be witty and philosophical. I'm not 18, I'm not 21, but I think I've still got potential for something. I hope.
But 2010...I remember seeing the movie 2010 when I was a kid. I remember pondering how very far away 2010 was then, and how very old I'd be when I got to that year. ...yeah. The year we make contact, indeed.
Anyway. Despite playing the game for five years now, this is the first time I've had an icon of either of my main characters. Long past time, no?
verbranden is the awesomest of the awesome for surprising me with it. ♥♥♥
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Date: 2010-01-03 12:55 pm (UTC)Just to let you know- it healed up beautifully, like it was meant to be there! Although I kind of miss being able to read it with a fingertip.
I'll post another pic when I get the touchup done in a month :-)
I'll be keeping a keen eye out for more of your writing!
x Poppy