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[whitereflection]

http://catandgirl.com/?p=2545
Yep.

Took Mom out for dinner for her 60th yesterday, and gave her the Kindle that my brother, his gf, and the husband and I all got for her (for birthday and Christmas, at least for James and I, considering our budget). She's very gleeful about it.

Realized it's been over 3 years since I posted Put Your Hands Into The Fire (a KHII thing for that one springkink community). That one to this day remains the only thing I've written that I not only like, but have read/reread for my own enjoyment. I think the thing I miss most about AkuRoku was feeling like I actually could do (at least my interpretation of) the characters right, that I actually had a bit of confidence/comfortability with them and didn't feel so awkward (and I feel like I did schmoop better back then, too). Definitely the reverse for writing for SPN now--I have yet to really feel comfortable in Sam and Dean's heads, and even Our Endless Numbered Days isn't one I truly like (I see so many things I did wrong with it, ugh. How the hell did it ever get recced.).

It's funny, I've written four short things and one long piece for both fandoms. Though that doesn't count any spnland work (which in a way I don't consider because some/most of it was half-assed, none was beta'd or submitted to any communities) or poetry (I have trouble counting poetry amongst fanwork in a way because sometimes it feels like fandom doesn't really count it--like at some of the comms that track fanworks for a pairing, they'll note fic, serial fic, bigbangs, drabbles, art, videos...but not poetry.). If I counted all that, I've done more for SPN, which makes me even more frustrated with feeling like such a bumbling newbie still.

Am worrying about the challenge I signed up for at summer_sam_love. The germ of an idea I had (I claimed doing a fic tag for Swan Song) has refused to spark and feels pretty much dead. And I just can't seem to generate any other ideas at all, especially ones that haven't already been done and done again, and aren't just completely 2-D, flat and lifeless. I worry that I need to contact them and give the episode to someone else to claim--but I so wanted to do *something*, you know? I really, really think Sam is awesome and just wanted to *show* that somehow. Bah. I dunno. Maybe I'll give it another week or so.

Comments

[dcillusioned.livejournal.com]

I agree that it's hard to come up with something new and original, because frankly in a fandom this size someone has done it already. But there comes a point where you just kinda say say screw it and write what you like, y'know? It may be an old trope that's been done, but you can still bring something new to it with your vision. I know I've read similar fics before, but I've still enjoyed different authors' views on them. In the end all that really matters is that you enjoy doing it and surely someone else will too. Just my two cents. =)

[keerawa.livejournal.com]

*slaps you upside the head* Stop not counting your writing as writing! Your SPN poetry is utterly evocative with the feel of the road, and how many times do you need to win FIRST PLACE in spnland competitions before they count?

I hear you about the challenge. I signed up for the summer gen exchange, which is due, oh, TOMORROW, and have about 200 words written for it. I need to go sit down and watch the episode right now, and they mods have approved a 2 day extension for me so I can get the thing properly beta'd once I finish up with it. Speaking of which ... *puppy dog eyes* Up for a beta?

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

If I were less groggy, I'd make some sort of 'come and see the violence inherent in the system' sort of wisecrack. :p Anyway, sorry, just...frustrated with things for various reasons.

Anyway x2--sure, I'm definitely up for betaing if you still need. Same email as that other time, the shinizero at yahoo.com one.

Oh, and wow, multiple congrats on the spnland wins ♥ I can't tell you how much I adore you for that video especially--that was such complete and utter awesomeness, so amused me.

[keerawa.livejournal.com]

Thanks, whitereflection! 'Pretty Fly' was an in-depth analysis of the violence inherent in the system ...

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Thanks, whitereflection! 'Pretty Fly' was an in-depth analysis of the violence inherent in the system ...
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Well, maaaaaybe not. So I'm glad it amused you!

[akintay.livejournal.com]

Good luck with the challenge. If you need someone to bounce ideas off, let me know. Maybe that would help?