ill-fitting
Jun. 4th, 2010 12:42 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6020595/1/Fault_Lines
K Hanna, T (gen), 7876 words. Am v happy of late that the gen authors I follow are releasing their 'zine fics, has been a lot of good reading (esp from those hurt!Sam authors I like best).
Sometimes I feel as if fandom has me going through junior high school all over again. Like really wanting to be liked and approved of by certain people that I think are superawesomecool, but getting the feeling that they don't. It's weird, I really miss the Gundam Wing fandom--which is dumb, because that led to being hoaxed by someone I considered a best friend. But before all that, I felt so much a part of such a happy and fun group; I never felt as much a weirdo outsider, never felt that I unintentionally caused dislike so easily. I guess I just need to be a lot more cautious about opinions/thoughts/extreme emotion. Or maybe I'm just being self-conscious about not fitting in again (You'd think a person would grow out of that sort of thing, but you don't. Or maybe that's just me, I don't know.).
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6020595/1/Fault_Lines
K Hanna, T (gen), 7876 words. Am v happy of late that the gen authors I follow are releasing their 'zine fics, has been a lot of good reading (esp from those hurt!Sam authors I like best).
Sometimes I feel as if fandom has me going through junior high school all over again. Like really wanting to be liked and approved of by certain people that I think are superawesomecool, but getting the feeling that they don't. It's weird, I really miss the Gundam Wing fandom--which is dumb, because that led to being hoaxed by someone I considered a best friend. But before all that, I felt so much a part of such a happy and fun group; I never felt as much a weirdo outsider, never felt that I unintentionally caused dislike so easily. I guess I just need to be a lot more cautious about opinions/thoughts/extreme emotion. Or maybe I'm just being self-conscious about not fitting in again (You'd think a person would grow out of that sort of thing, but you don't. Or maybe that's just me, I don't know.).
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Date: 2010-06-04 06:10 pm (UTC)I hear ya...I enjoy several fandoms without really "belonging" so whenever I see friends squeeing and flailing, I always feel a little wistful, but then I think there are one or two people around that think I am superawesomecool and I feel a little better.
P.S. Even though I am not in the SPN fandom, I know you are superawesomecool. It's just a fact. ; )