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Jun. 6th, 2009 02:23 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionAnd so it is another night of not being able to get to sleep at anything resembling a normal time. I guess it's back to the can't-wind-down time of insomnia. Been going over a week. Last night added in the slept shallowly/kept waking up in a panic feeling like I couldn't breathe thrillsville. Not sure whether to blame stress/anxiety or what. Though I note that today I had trouble getting myself to eat much (yeah, me) even though I could tell I was hungry--just didn't *want* to. So I guess it's probably some sort of anxiety/mood thing.
Not that I can pin it down on anything specific. Been a week of things sort of calming down, in fact. Mom seems to be holding up as well as can be expected, even with having to work with masses of insurance and paperwork and crap like that. At least she's been catching up on sleep. Work has been work, and I note I've passed the 90 day probationary period, though it's not been made official by my supervisor. People on the phones were a large percent assholes. I try to focus on the people who are nice to me and remember them, but unfortunately it doesn't stick too well :p
WoW is WoW is WoW. Not much to report there. Been listening to music more again, which is a sort of nice return to normality. Just haven't been bothering with iTunes very often in recent months. In addition to what I loved last week, this week I am glad for Silversun Pickups' Panic Switch and the new Linkin Park one.
And this post title is a reference to the fact that I have unexpectedly found myself in utter fanlove again. I never expected to fall for Supernatural. I have not yet watched the show. But a few pebbles from one emeraldembers some time back, and now I have buried myself in an avalanche of SPN fic. Oh lord help me, the series has good h/c fic. So so so so so good, and I am so weak for that type of story. And...yeah. Dean and Sam. Sam and Dean. I shouldn't go there, but I am. I just...can't help it. And while I note the fandom seems pretty strongly Dean focused, while I dig him...oh god, Sam Winchester/Jared Padalecki. Oh. Ohhhhhh. Something. Ohman. It's the Sammy. I am weak to the Sammy. And I am already snooping at icons. But god, I need to watch. Just torn between just going out and buying a season at a time, or trying to somehow watch online (youtube? I dunno). The temptation for DVDs is so very strong. Though the usual caveat is will I make time for watching. Will say this though--even my Yugioh fanning didn't give me this strong of a "Someday I MUST write for this" need. And I will also say that it is a bit startling to go from zero to holyfuckOTP in so few days. Wtf, self.
Woo, thunder. And let's hear it for still being up at 3:50. Because obviously I needed new icons *now*. Yeah.
Not that I can pin it down on anything specific. Been a week of things sort of calming down, in fact. Mom seems to be holding up as well as can be expected, even with having to work with masses of insurance and paperwork and crap like that. At least she's been catching up on sleep. Work has been work, and I note I've passed the 90 day probationary period, though it's not been made official by my supervisor. People on the phones were a large percent assholes. I try to focus on the people who are nice to me and remember them, but unfortunately it doesn't stick too well :p
WoW is WoW is WoW. Not much to report there. Been listening to music more again, which is a sort of nice return to normality. Just haven't been bothering with iTunes very often in recent months. In addition to what I loved last week, this week I am glad for Silversun Pickups' Panic Switch and the new Linkin Park one.
And this post title is a reference to the fact that I have unexpectedly found myself in utter fanlove again. I never expected to fall for Supernatural. I have not yet watched the show. But a few pebbles from one emeraldembers some time back, and now I have buried myself in an avalanche of SPN fic. Oh lord help me, the series has good h/c fic. So so so so so good, and I am so weak for that type of story. And...yeah. Dean and Sam. Sam and Dean. I shouldn't go there, but I am. I just...can't help it. And while I note the fandom seems pretty strongly Dean focused, while I dig him...oh god, Sam Winchester/Jared Padalecki. Oh. Ohhhhhh. Something. Ohman. It's the Sammy. I am weak to the Sammy. And I am already snooping at icons. But god, I need to watch. Just torn between just going out and buying a season at a time, or trying to somehow watch online (youtube? I dunno). The temptation for DVDs is so very strong. Though the usual caveat is will I make time for watching. Will say this though--even my Yugioh fanning didn't give me this strong of a "Someday I MUST write for this" need. And I will also say that it is a bit startling to go from zero to holyfuckOTP in so few days. Wtf, self.
Woo, thunder. And let's hear it for still being up at 3:50. Because obviously I needed new icons *now*. Yeah.
