HI MY NAME IS FAIL
Feb. 6th, 2009 03:48 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionSecond time in 6 months, I've lost a job.
At least, it wasn't something I did, no stupidfuckingmoron fuckup to lose it. They said they liked me, thought I was a friendly person, had great attendance, was very attentive and thorough.
Nope, this time, I've been let go because I simply wasn't fast enough. This was a place where one is effectively paid by the piece--but you're guaranteed minimum wage. The problem therein lies in your work output needs to be ≥ minimum wage. Mine never was. Never ever ever. I never really showed that much improvement. I can type pretty darned well. I can 10-key okayish. But as I've said before, mix the two and I'm utterly horrid.
I guess I'm not the only one they let go, but that doesn't really do much for me at the moment. A minimum wage job and I gave it my *EVERYTHING* and I *FAILED*.
Awhile back, my brother had mentioned that I was on the 'lost' file at my old high school. But my thought to that was why would I get in contact with any of my old friends or acquaintances there? What would I have to say for myself? Hi, I used to be at the top of the class, now I can't manage to keep a job even when I *try*? Yeah.
And to be expected, minimum wage job loss means no severance, hell even no warning. They nabbed me as I was about to clock off today, and it's as of today. I guess this means I'll not have to worry about being late for my annual or allergy shot Monday or my dentist appt Tuesday. My other LOLthought on it, as I was telling mom here about it, was that oh hey, at least this time we won't be losing as much income because of it. LOL.
And now I wait for the utilities guy to come, with the windows open, because out of the blue my natural gas detector started shrieking. And somewhere in the next half hour to hour I get to tell the usual him about things. Awesome.
Been thinking this for awhile, especially the last few months, but I really don't think I have any self esteem left. At all.
At least, it wasn't something I did, no stupidfuckingmoron fuckup to lose it. They said they liked me, thought I was a friendly person, had great attendance, was very attentive and thorough.
Nope, this time, I've been let go because I simply wasn't fast enough. This was a place where one is effectively paid by the piece--but you're guaranteed minimum wage. The problem therein lies in your work output needs to be ≥ minimum wage. Mine never was. Never ever ever. I never really showed that much improvement. I can type pretty darned well. I can 10-key okayish. But as I've said before, mix the two and I'm utterly horrid.
I guess I'm not the only one they let go, but that doesn't really do much for me at the moment. A minimum wage job and I gave it my *EVERYTHING* and I *FAILED*.
Awhile back, my brother had mentioned that I was on the 'lost' file at my old high school. But my thought to that was why would I get in contact with any of my old friends or acquaintances there? What would I have to say for myself? Hi, I used to be at the top of the class, now I can't manage to keep a job even when I *try*? Yeah.
And to be expected, minimum wage job loss means no severance, hell even no warning. They nabbed me as I was about to clock off today, and it's as of today. I guess this means I'll not have to worry about being late for my annual or allergy shot Monday or my dentist appt Tuesday. My other LOLthought on it, as I was telling mom here about it, was that oh hey, at least this time we won't be losing as much income because of it. LOL.
And now I wait for the utilities guy to come, with the windows open, because out of the blue my natural gas detector started shrieking. And somewhere in the next half hour to hour I get to tell the usual him about things. Awesome.
Been thinking this for awhile, especially the last few months, but I really don't think I have any self esteem left. At all.
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