*Gargh*.

[whitereflection]

I knew there was a reason I haven't tried to write guysex like this in...what, eight years? Give or take. Bad enough that I--no lie--broke out into giggling when I typed the word 'cock'. (Ffs, I've read these sort of things for how damned long now? Even've had the words in my head all damned day and it was *fine*. ) Then blargh, it just all falls to bits. I've just been words words words words words *all week*, finally in the home stretch and then I get giggly and *then* it grinds to an absolute and utter halt as Yay! the words just disappear somewhere. Hours on this bit now, and I've managed to eek out maybe three (tiny) paragraphs of it.

Also, had another moment there of thinking I was 34, which is still like a couple months early. Was gonna go 'am I 34 or 3+4 = 7 hur hur' when I was like...wait, I'm 33.

And it doesn't help to have an outline to refer to when the whole rest of the scene is summarized by one bullet note: "teh pr0n". Oh, way to go, me. /golfclap

10K+ words though, before it all locked up. Suppose that's worth something.

Comments

[abandonreality.livejournal.com]

*giggles* I have the same damn problem. You'd think being 30 and MARRIED for pete's sake would render words like 'cock' and 'cunt' *is now giggling because she WROTE THEM* to be old hat. <.<;;

I believe in you though! 10K words is nothing to sneeze at before the lock up!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Hah, yes, exactly! I'm 34 33, married for over a decade, I've read fanfic since about 1998, voraciously read romance novels of EVERY type between age 13 and my mid-20s, snooped at magazine and video porn since my teens, hentai stuff since my 20s...yet I giggle to write sex. Yeaaaaaaah, my brain makes sense. Though I was the kid in gradeschool where if someone said the word "toilet plunder", I'd about fall out of my desk giggling. I suppose some things never change. :D

And thank you ♥ Wasn't a daily total, but for the week, but not bad yeah. :) I think that's why I tend to write maybe around a thousand words in a fic-bit, because things grind to a halt that soon. XD;