._. I can only offer *hugs* since I don't know what's happened..but, *hugs* anyway
And about the long-ranty-reply™.. I've wanted to answer that one forever, just didn't quite get online ^^;;. Don't feel like you're bothering others when you're ranting, it's your journal and if anyone feels offended or can't bear it they should just go away. I did write that I was hurting - because I've read that a person I care about was hurting this much... however, I wouldn't want you to hold back or play alright because you don't want to 'bother' other people. I think friends (and though we don't really know each other for too long, I consider you as a friend ^^) should be able to handle at least this much. I still feel that you're too hard on yourself, and should try to change your view a little, though it certainly is difficult if the object of one's view is oneself ^^;;.
But whee~ for searching a new (lab) job and stuff =D! That might be a start ^^.. have you found anything yet? Can't you work as .. in German you call it an MTA (medical-technical-assistant), or BTA (the same, just with "bio") or something like that?
Thing is, nothing really did happen, other than the usual-ordinary minor annoyances. Sometimes mood swings just happen. :x Though I do think I can blame being tired and my body being out of whack, not to mention the meds I'm on, and probably just plain old hormones. Just...kinda a rough one, especially when I was at work at the time.
And thank you--no worries about not being online *gnaws* You've had much more important stuff to deal with, not to mention things preventing you from doing so ^^; And you are definitely someone I consider friend, truly a gift to have in my life *hugs you tight* I really, seriously am trying to learn from what you say, even if changing my outlook is difficult.
^^; Unfortunately I got sick right after I started snooping online, so I haven't looked at anything local. What I'd look at would probably be like your BTA--still am jsut not sure what I'd want to do, stay where I am or not :x But I am tempted to see if I could get some sort of entry-level technician job (most places here, technician is the lower level, then are technologists...but the terminology varies all over the country). And you know, part of me wants to somehow go and be an artist or a poet :x So, still suffering from 'dunno what I wanna do when I grow up'-itis. ^^;
Thank you bunches--I must say, it's just wonderful what a sweet, kind, giving person you are. Such a nice balance to angst-angry-whiners like me ^^; The online world needs more folks like you. *hugsback*
You have no idea what I'm like in RL. *grins* Trust me, I'm not nearly as nice as I seem in LJ. I just have people in RL that I can complain to about fandom stuff (mostly GW, to be honest), so it doesn't usually make it into my LJ.
And I don't think you're the way you described at all. ^_________^
*amused* That's the attitude I often take on myself, that I'm really, really not the nice-good person people tend to think I am. Though I do let a lot more negative show on journal stuff (ah, my addiction to venting ^^; )
But thank you, ne--and I do stand by my opinion of you. A person can exist only so long out in this online world before showing their true colors, and you've always been just so decent and supporting to those around you. Not trying to make you feel like you're on a pedestal, just appreciating :)
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Date: 2004-09-17 09:29 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-09-19 06:20 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-09-17 09:56 am (UTC)And about the long-ranty-reply™.. I've wanted to answer that one forever, just didn't quite get online ^^;;. Don't feel like you're bothering others when you're ranting, it's your journal and if anyone feels offended or can't bear it they should just go away. I did write that I was hurting - because I've read that a person I care about was hurting this much... however, I wouldn't want you to hold back or play alright because you don't want to 'bother' other people. I think friends (and though we don't really know each other for too long, I consider you as a friend ^^) should be able to handle at least this much. I still feel that you're too hard on yourself, and should try to change your view a little, though it certainly is difficult if the object of one's view is oneself ^^;;.
But whee~ for searching a new (lab) job and stuff =D! That might be a start ^^.. have you found anything yet? Can't you work as .. in German you call it an MTA (medical-technical-assistant), or BTA (the same, just with "bio") or something like that?
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Date: 2004-09-19 06:29 am (UTC)And thank you--no worries about not being online *gnaws* You've had much more important stuff to deal with, not to mention things preventing you from doing so ^^; And you are definitely someone I consider friend, truly a gift to have in my life *hugs you tight* I really, seriously am trying to learn from what you say, even if changing my outlook is difficult.
^^; Unfortunately I got sick right after I started snooping online, so I haven't looked at anything local. What I'd look at would probably be like your BTA--still am jsut not sure what I'd want to do, stay where I am or not :x But I am tempted to see if I could get some sort of entry-level technician job (most places here, technician is the lower level, then are technologists...but the terminology varies all over the country). And you know, part of me wants to somehow go and be an artist or a poet :x So, still suffering from 'dunno what I wanna do when I grow up'-itis. ^^;
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Date: 2004-09-17 01:14 pm (UTC)*huggles*
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Date: 2004-09-19 06:31 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2004-09-19 07:01 am (UTC)And I don't think you're the way you described at all. ^_________^
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Date: 2004-09-23 11:57 am (UTC)But thank you, ne--and I do stand by my opinion of you. A person can exist only so long out in this online world before showing their true colors, and you've always been just so decent and supporting to those around you. Not trying to make you feel like you're on a pedestal, just appreciating :)