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Aug. 25th, 2008 12:48 pmOk, let's see if I can get back on track with this thing.
Right. (Feels weird to be doin this again, yeah). Anyway. So I meant to post something back when I hit week 3, then again when it was week 4, now we're rapidly approaching week 5 and we can see how well that all worked out. Nothing really to report on the job front. The search started slow, with just updating my resume/references and doing an app a week, but the last few weeks I've been keeping to two+ a week (have to, for any hope of getting Unemployment). I've gotten hooked up with a hiring service (ie temp agency), but so far they have nothing I'm suitable for. I've got an interview tomorrow at least, and perhaps another one soonish.
Have also the past few weeks been prepping for Mom to move in here (temporarily, though I wouldn't mind permanently). Required a fabulous lot of cleaning/minor repairs/sorting/organizing/dumpstering/rubbermaid binning. We abused the dumpsters at Mom's old place mercilessly. Spent many days doing more physical work than I was ever, ever used to at the library, and sweating like a fiend (ugh). But it's all dealt with, and she got moved in last weekend. Her stuff fits in surprisingly well in the two storage rooms I cleared space for her in, and her other furniture really kinda spiffs some areas here up (like the couch added to our loveseat in the basement area, yay seating room, and turning the semi-abandoned living room upstairs into a sort of bedroom suite). The cats are thrilled by the extra person, even more so than by my near-constant presence.
I have turned mostly into errands person--for me, Mom, my Dad, stuff regarding the cats, a strange lot of grocery shopping. And I've been cooking much more, though with like 50% success rate. Had my birthday come and go, so now I'm 35 and at times zen and other times feeling like the biggest flop ever. Mom, Dad, and my stepmother all chipped in for our birthdays/Christmas and got us a new stove/range hood to replace the ancient danger we had before. And we're continuing with the planned window replacement since it is an absolute necessity, the old ones are so trashed/leaky/moldy in a few spots ffs, the work should be started when the windows arrive in a couple weeks.
No Blizzcon though. I was very much trying to make that work. But despite what would have been cc miles giving us free air fare, and our bday/Christmas gifts to each other being hotel/food/tickets...I managed to miss the ticket sales (seriously, have been so busy at times, it's just slowing down this past week). They're doing a lottery for more tickets, but only if you have a Blizzard store account, and though I established one last fall, it says it doesn't exist. So no go, at all. This, of all things, bothers me perhaps the most. Pathetic, no?
Other than that...being prone to being stressed a lot, for no reason. Just high strung and worrying a lot. This is the one and only reason I wish I wanted kids, because I think I would like to stay home and just manage real life. I seem to be oddly content at it and feel I actually get it under control--but yeah, not exactly ok to do when there's no kids to stay home for, nor will there ever be. The thought of a new job, with new people, responsibilities I could fail at, things I might not end up wanting to do, not knowing what I do want to do--it brings on this constant full-body tense.
And as far as why I put off posting here so much...busy, very tired after the times of busy, but also self conscious. Developed weird aversions to the things that I was doing to fuck up--LJ, ff.net, my guild forums, even music to a large extent. Hell, I still feel odd to wear the t-shirt I was wearing that last day. I'm such a damned freak that way. : /
Guess that means I'm mostly caught up now. There's tons I neglected to mention--but every time I thought of some odd tidbit I wanted to come here to say, I kept deciding that no, I had to do the full catch-up first. Anyway.
Right. (Feels weird to be doin this again, yeah). Anyway. So I meant to post something back when I hit week 3, then again when it was week 4, now we're rapidly approaching week 5 and we can see how well that all worked out. Nothing really to report on the job front. The search started slow, with just updating my resume/references and doing an app a week, but the last few weeks I've been keeping to two+ a week (have to, for any hope of getting Unemployment). I've gotten hooked up with a hiring service (ie temp agency), but so far they have nothing I'm suitable for. I've got an interview tomorrow at least, and perhaps another one soonish.
Have also the past few weeks been prepping for Mom to move in here (temporarily, though I wouldn't mind permanently). Required a fabulous lot of cleaning/minor repairs/sorting/organizing/dumpstering/rubbermaid binning. We abused the dumpsters at Mom's old place mercilessly. Spent many days doing more physical work than I was ever, ever used to at the library, and sweating like a fiend (ugh). But it's all dealt with, and she got moved in last weekend. Her stuff fits in surprisingly well in the two storage rooms I cleared space for her in, and her other furniture really kinda spiffs some areas here up (like the couch added to our loveseat in the basement area, yay seating room, and turning the semi-abandoned living room upstairs into a sort of bedroom suite). The cats are thrilled by the extra person, even more so than by my near-constant presence.
I have turned mostly into errands person--for me, Mom, my Dad, stuff regarding the cats, a strange lot of grocery shopping. And I've been cooking much more, though with like 50% success rate. Had my birthday come and go, so now I'm 35 and at times zen and other times feeling like the biggest flop ever. Mom, Dad, and my stepmother all chipped in for our birthdays/Christmas and got us a new stove/range hood to replace the ancient danger we had before. And we're continuing with the planned window replacement since it is an absolute necessity, the old ones are so trashed/leaky/moldy in a few spots ffs, the work should be started when the windows arrive in a couple weeks.
No Blizzcon though. I was very much trying to make that work. But despite what would have been cc miles giving us free air fare, and our bday/Christmas gifts to each other being hotel/food/tickets...I managed to miss the ticket sales (seriously, have been so busy at times, it's just slowing down this past week). They're doing a lottery for more tickets, but only if you have a Blizzard store account, and though I established one last fall, it says it doesn't exist. So no go, at all. This, of all things, bothers me perhaps the most. Pathetic, no?
Other than that...being prone to being stressed a lot, for no reason. Just high strung and worrying a lot. This is the one and only reason I wish I wanted kids, because I think I would like to stay home and just manage real life. I seem to be oddly content at it and feel I actually get it under control--but yeah, not exactly ok to do when there's no kids to stay home for, nor will there ever be. The thought of a new job, with new people, responsibilities I could fail at, things I might not end up wanting to do, not knowing what I do want to do--it brings on this constant full-body tense.
And as far as why I put off posting here so much...busy, very tired after the times of busy, but also self conscious. Developed weird aversions to the things that I was doing to fuck up--LJ, ff.net, my guild forums, even music to a large extent. Hell, I still feel odd to wear the t-shirt I was wearing that last day. I'm such a damned freak that way. : /
Guess that means I'm mostly caught up now. There's tons I neglected to mention--but every time I thought of some odd tidbit I wanted to come here to say, I kept deciding that no, I had to do the full catch-up first. Anyway.
