shoulda figured i'd fail somehow.

AUGHFUCK. springkink claims started. 58 minutes ago. The one prompt I wanted, THE ONE DAMNED prompt I wanted. Taken twice for fic already, therefore, I'm shit out of luck.

I HAD AN OUTLINE WRITTEN. It's all in my fucking head already. Yeah. I know, I could write it anyway. But I wanted to actually be part of this comm, actually *write* something for a challenge comm and not for my stupid LJ where only two people are into the fandom. Goddamnit, why'm I such an idiot? I should have fucking remembered at 12:01. Stupid stupid *stupid*.

I practically feel I wanna cry or something. Isn't that stupid as hell?


KK, done with the angst-over-stupid-shit now. Sort of.

and so on

Specialist visit today. If I would have known that I was going to have to have a very detailed discussion of things personal, I would have psyched myself up for it more. Also, not all ultrasounds are outsidey. I did not know this. Also, male resident also in attendance with the dr--I said yeah it was ok, honestly, I have no shame anymore. Just was kinda odd.

Still no conclusive yes-this-is-it, but stronger theories. Have to go back soon for a more thorough regimen of hormone bloodtest stuff

But pretty solidly in a funk, what with being an idiot yest evening, medical frettings, pms, guild people being abrasive. I have a pt. of Ben and Jerry's; I shall feel guilty later (but not now).

Least my supervisor will be on vac Friday, so I can do the iPod thing. Office moves should happen next week. Already the first floor looks weird as they've moved some people and started disassembling shelves and furniture.