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blehhhhh...
Feb. 13th, 2004 08:45 amAckgh...so damned tired. Fried tired. Like I need to lean on something to keep upright. Apologies to those I was IMing this am...brain is very muddled and so it made me slow and even more prone to mindless babble. So nice to talk to my monkey *hugs tight*, but I waste her time talking about cats and whatnot like that. >_> And feel odd about being glad to see her like that, wouldn't wanna wish insomnia on anyone and feels wrong to take advantage of it...uwah. *flails a bit*
Dang, can't even barely think through words for this. Criminy. Hmf...ok, much homework last night, feeling burned out in general on studying/learning (and we're not even to the midterm yet). Got to work on time (yay), but Anj was so chattery... ._. Not bad chattery, not that I mind, but man...that blows a half hour. Thinking of a Fontenelle Forest/zoo trip tomorrow am, to be able to see folks since I gotta do stuff with James in the evening (eh). Will mean getting up early, and man, I could use the sleep, but I'd be up by 8 anyway since Bebop cat always demands food, so not that much difference between 5:30/6 and 8... *scratches head* Better do bills and whatnot tonight, so I can slack tomorrow.
Also been thinking about old fic ideas a lot lately. Keep getting the nudge to write during the middle of the day, at work--but then I lose my energy by afternoon, well before I get home. Not to mention there just isn't time what with other junk at home and homework and whatnot. Even had a new idea, a somewhat complete idea, for a SeiSu fic..probably would be too close to other things already out there, but still... Frustrating sometimes, the lack of time for creative things--no time for prose writing, poetry writing, oil pastels, anything...
Eh...should focus on work. Bunches to do. Must not sleep. Must not stew about the things on my mind since I can't really do anything about 'em anyway. ...random thought...I notice a good portion of the IM/email rps I get involved in gradually fizzle to a halt...I know it's my fault, but need to figure out how to quit having that effect. Feel so damned guilty/bad about that a lot... Another random thought...house is so gross and still so un-settled-into that I don't even want to be there sometimes. A lot of the time. Mmph.
Dang, can't even barely think through words for this. Criminy. Hmf...ok, much homework last night, feeling burned out in general on studying/learning (and we're not even to the midterm yet). Got to work on time (yay), but Anj was so chattery... ._. Not bad chattery, not that I mind, but man...that blows a half hour. Thinking of a Fontenelle Forest/zoo trip tomorrow am, to be able to see folks since I gotta do stuff with James in the evening (eh). Will mean getting up early, and man, I could use the sleep, but I'd be up by 8 anyway since Bebop cat always demands food, so not that much difference between 5:30/6 and 8... *scratches head* Better do bills and whatnot tonight, so I can slack tomorrow.
Also been thinking about old fic ideas a lot lately. Keep getting the nudge to write during the middle of the day, at work--but then I lose my energy by afternoon, well before I get home. Not to mention there just isn't time what with other junk at home and homework and whatnot. Even had a new idea, a somewhat complete idea, for a SeiSu fic..probably would be too close to other things already out there, but still... Frustrating sometimes, the lack of time for creative things--no time for prose writing, poetry writing, oil pastels, anything...
Eh...should focus on work. Bunches to do. Must not sleep. Must not stew about the things on my mind since I can't really do anything about 'em anyway. ...random thought...I notice a good portion of the IM/email rps I get involved in gradually fizzle to a halt...I know it's my fault, but need to figure out how to quit having that effect. Feel so damned guilty/bad about that a lot... Another random thought...house is so gross and still so un-settled-into that I don't even want to be there sometimes. A lot of the time. Mmph.
