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Feb. 16th, 2004 08:44 amAh, the guilt thing has really woken up this morning, biting the living hell outta me. Man... More and more often I feel that the way I handle life is like a juggling act. Except as in real life, I can't juggle. I'm trying to give a little bit to everything, except I'm missing some things and giving them less than the minimum I should, or not giving at all, and I'm dropping crap everywhere and breaking it. It's kind of like in compromise situations, where it's not that you're making everyone a little bit happy--you're instead making everyone a little bit or a lot bit unhappy, making it so that things are not quite right for anyone involved. Except it's not quite that either, because there are individuals really getting the shaft.
Which naturally leads into the weekend. Saturday, actually, went rather fine. Fontenelle was really nice--since it was snow-covered, we stayed on the boardwalk and didn't go on trails, but we still saw tons of animal tracks and burrows, stuff that wouldn't be visible normally. The zoo was crowded a bit, but Anj, Kelly and walked ourselves into exhaustion. Did go out to dinner, even though we had to wait a bit. Tried a new place in town, Hiro, a kinda upscale (i.e. expensive) Japanese place--really awesome food, though. I mean, really really. Sushi so fresh even I liked the raw stuff. (I swear the tuna was almost sweet. o_o ) Quite nice. Crashed afterwards, which was dandy by me. I'm so fond of sleep.
Usual Sunday stuff in the am. And spent a few hours on Japanese homework (including the composition assignment from hell >( ), then wasted a few hours reorganizing my mp3 collection. Can't help it...it's the cataloger in me...but it needed severe weeding (I was spending more time hitting skip than listening, ne) and needed sorting in of the new stuff--making sure everything was spelled right, that the title/album/artist info was all where it should be. ...yeah sue me, I'm obsessive/compulsive, perfectionistic, and anal. Eh. Got to run out for a package in the evening (had no idea EMS could be delivered on Sunday, and that the downtown post ofc. has a 24 hr/7 day a week window for those sorts of items... o_o! ).
Then got home at 7:30, to discover due to Don calling that oh yeah we were supposed to have gone to his place at 7. D< D< D< D< I am a fscking idiot. D< D< D< D< Stupid forgetful, short term memory idiot. Since it was a usual get-together plus a belated b-day celebration for him, not like we could skip. Especially since I'd promised to bring a cake. *sighs* Didn't get to his place until 8:30, considering he lives on the other end of the metro area, and we had the emergency grocery store stop...man. Rrgh. Went ok, though, even if I felt horrible. Did bring him extra treats to make it up to him (and did finish my Japanese homework while there, seemed to fit in with watching one of the newer Godzilla movies...from 2001, some sorta giant dragonfly type thing, I forget the name. Like how the main female character was the kickass military type, and the main male character was this bishy geek-inventor type, and they didn't force romancey things. Should be all about the monsters anyway, of course.).
Anyway, need to get the little things I didn't finish last night what with being out done this evening. Like I need to retape that one HK Kenshin DVD for Anj since it won't work on her player--have only forgot to do that for her for three-four days now.
Also have multiple thank-you emails I need to get on. Need to do one for my aunt, one for Brandon, one for Nix...criminy, and need to get those danged belated Christmas gifts out, now that I've actually got all items. Even my *mother's* I haven't sent out yet. *bonks head on desk* I suck...
Ha, funny...got here nicely on time, and between this and talking to Anj I've now made it as if I was late. Nice to get here and like not do any actual work. >< I so doth suck.
But I should take the chance to say that my monkey is a fscking amazing psychic genius. Someone I swear is inside my head and knows *exactly* what I want and wasn't going to be able to get for myself. *insert hearts, sparkles, and gushing here* Definitely gotta get thank you emails out. And get caught up on my other emails/lj comment replies. Argh.
Which naturally leads into the weekend. Saturday, actually, went rather fine. Fontenelle was really nice--since it was snow-covered, we stayed on the boardwalk and didn't go on trails, but we still saw tons of animal tracks and burrows, stuff that wouldn't be visible normally. The zoo was crowded a bit, but Anj, Kelly and walked ourselves into exhaustion. Did go out to dinner, even though we had to wait a bit. Tried a new place in town, Hiro, a kinda upscale (i.e. expensive) Japanese place--really awesome food, though. I mean, really really. Sushi so fresh even I liked the raw stuff. (I swear the tuna was almost sweet. o_o ) Quite nice. Crashed afterwards, which was dandy by me. I'm so fond of sleep.
Usual Sunday stuff in the am. And spent a few hours on Japanese homework (including the composition assignment from hell >( ), then wasted a few hours reorganizing my mp3 collection. Can't help it...it's the cataloger in me...but it needed severe weeding (I was spending more time hitting skip than listening, ne) and needed sorting in of the new stuff--making sure everything was spelled right, that the title/album/artist info was all where it should be. ...yeah sue me, I'm obsessive/compulsive, perfectionistic, and anal. Eh. Got to run out for a package in the evening (had no idea EMS could be delivered on Sunday, and that the downtown post ofc. has a 24 hr/7 day a week window for those sorts of items... o_o! ).
Then got home at 7:30, to discover due to Don calling that oh yeah we were supposed to have gone to his place at 7. D< D< D< D< I am a fscking idiot. D< D< D< D< Stupid forgetful, short term memory idiot. Since it was a usual get-together plus a belated b-day celebration for him, not like we could skip. Especially since I'd promised to bring a cake. *sighs* Didn't get to his place until 8:30, considering he lives on the other end of the metro area, and we had the emergency grocery store stop...man. Rrgh. Went ok, though, even if I felt horrible. Did bring him extra treats to make it up to him (and did finish my Japanese homework while there, seemed to fit in with watching one of the newer Godzilla movies...from 2001, some sorta giant dragonfly type thing, I forget the name. Like how the main female character was the kickass military type, and the main male character was this bishy geek-inventor type, and they didn't force romancey things. Should be all about the monsters anyway, of course.).
Anyway, need to get the little things I didn't finish last night what with being out done this evening. Like I need to retape that one HK Kenshin DVD for Anj since it won't work on her player--have only forgot to do that for her for three-four days now.
Also have multiple thank-you emails I need to get on. Need to do one for my aunt, one for Brandon, one for Nix...criminy, and need to get those danged belated Christmas gifts out, now that I've actually got all items. Even my *mother's* I haven't sent out yet. *bonks head on desk* I suck...
Ha, funny...got here nicely on time, and between this and talking to Anj I've now made it as if I was late. Nice to get here and like not do any actual work. >< I so doth suck.
But I should take the chance to say that my monkey is a fscking amazing psychic genius. Someone I swear is inside my head and knows *exactly* what I want and wasn't going to be able to get for myself. *insert hearts, sparkles, and gushing here* Definitely gotta get thank you emails out. And get caught up on my other emails/lj comment replies. Argh.
