Bah. *frenetic flailing*
Oct. 8th, 2003 12:37 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionHaving a bad hair day. All I do is wash it and comb it, but for gods sake...! *flails more* The long part is freaking everywhere and is tangling me and itself like vines, and my bangs refuse to comb out of the way. And they look like teh crud, no matter how often I recomb 'em. Get out of my face, damn you! *flails* Argh. >(
Having a bad stress day. More homework in Japanese, like I should be surprised, in addition to what we had already. And I didn't turn in that assignment I worked on last night (wasn't due yet anyway), because I can't stop thinking that it's not right yet. I need to mess with it more. Yeargh. >( For all I am a slacker-goof off in the rest of my life, I am such a idiotic perfectionist in this sort of area. Argh. Want this midterm to just be done. *flails*
And am really, really feeling like I want to find some time to not study, to not be a character, to not write or create or think, or anything. And I don't know when I'm going to get that. Wanna bang my head on something. Wanna go out and dance wildly. Wanna...eh, not going to go into *that*, will leave that thought buried, thanx. Wish I had various and sundry folks who are too far away up here to hang out with. *sighs* Wish I weren't feeling this panicked at class, when it's *only* first semester of first year, and what am I going to be like next semester, or when I hit second year, or for gods sake, if I ever actually can get to where I can learn past second year...? I'm freaking doomed. And I'm being a melodramatic fool yet again. Kudaranai-di.
Going to tell Michael I don't wanna to the talking thing tonight. And if someone here doesn't like that, he can go take a flying leap. Focus on studying, then spend at least *some* time giving Arty the birthday harassment. *nods* ...*remembers*...so many damned people whose birthday's I've let go by without harassment... T_T Damn, haven't even gotten around to finally getting stuff for Gina and Anj for their birthdays back in September. Sep-tem-ber! ARGH. Crap, and my cousin's baby shower that I missed back then...
That's it, that's it...I get a big F for Life Management 101 again. How do I sign up for Remedial Adulthood? I obviously was promoted to being 30 without being ready for it. >
Having a bad stress day. More homework in Japanese, like I should be surprised, in addition to what we had already. And I didn't turn in that assignment I worked on last night (wasn't due yet anyway), because I can't stop thinking that it's not right yet. I need to mess with it more. Yeargh. >( For all I am a slacker-goof off in the rest of my life, I am such a idiotic perfectionist in this sort of area. Argh. Want this midterm to just be done. *flails*
And am really, really feeling like I want to find some time to not study, to not be a character, to not write or create or think, or anything. And I don't know when I'm going to get that. Wanna bang my head on something. Wanna go out and dance wildly. Wanna...eh, not going to go into *that*, will leave that thought buried, thanx. Wish I had various and sundry folks who are too far away up here to hang out with. *sighs* Wish I weren't feeling this panicked at class, when it's *only* first semester of first year, and what am I going to be like next semester, or when I hit second year, or for gods sake, if I ever actually can get to where I can learn past second year...? I'm freaking doomed. And I'm being a melodramatic fool yet again. Kudaranai-di.
Going to tell Michael I don't wanna to the talking thing tonight. And if someone here doesn't like that, he can go take a flying leap. Focus on studying, then spend at least *some* time giving Arty the birthday harassment. *nods* ...*remembers*...so many damned people whose birthday's I've let go by without harassment... T_T Damn, haven't even gotten around to finally getting stuff for Gina and Anj for their birthdays back in September. Sep-tem-ber! ARGH. Crap, and my cousin's baby shower that I missed back then...
That's it, that's it...I get a big F for Life Management 101 again. How do I sign up for Remedial Adulthood? I obviously was promoted to being 30 without being ready for it. >
