I need another cupcake. -_-

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Looks like I've wandered my way into another cold. No, I didn't even get a chance to get my flu shot, since I was starting to feel off Tuesday night (kinda explains why I was so dead tired), and felt cruddy yesterday. Guess I'm gonna have to wait until I can shake it, then go pick up the shot at Walgreens or one of the minor med places. Probably will mean I have to spend more for it than I would have at the campus health place. :p I am, however, savoring the irony of how just Tuesday night I was nagging Kea to take care of herself and catch up on sleep so she wouldn't come down with something. ...eh.

And I'm really trying not to get snarky about Thanksgiving. I'm really trying. And I'm not succeeding very well. It doesn't help that for how long I've known Greg and Pat, and how good of friends we've been, that I don't feel that close to them anymore. We used to see them a lot, but now it's twice a month, for two gaming Sundays. *shrugs* I know that yes, they work graveyard shift now, but they've really worked it so they do nothing socially but the Sunday games, and their Monday night game (which we don't go to)--I figure if you're sleeping during daylight anyway, work it so you sleep during the day, and have your evening to do stuff with people, rather than have your mornings open when no one's around and sleep afternoon/evening. But that's just me--who am I to say, working just days like I do?

I just still get so frustrated tho, with the feeling that things that have become habit can never change? What if, way back when, I'd have said, "No, I can't go to Greg and Pat's for Thanksgiving, because I've always gone to my Grandmother's that day"? Sometimes, doing something different once in a while, or changing, can be ok, even good. And about the whole "together time" concept--hey, I asked if *we* could go first. He was the one that said he didn't want to go, then got bothered that it was together time so we shouldn't go separate places. But you know what still really snarks me about it? He never ever ever said "No". I've had to infer it--because he totally let the subject drop after I went to the effort (twice), after I took the risk of asking. And I have *real* trouble respecting someone who can't have the guts and spine to answer a direct question. Even if he didn't want to *discuss* it, he could have just said yes/no. Fsck, at least leave me a note or fricking *email* me! Gah.

I've kinda wished for a while to maybe ask about a compromise--like me flying out Thursday night or Friday morning *after* going to Greg and Pat's Thanksgiving. But with recent events, I just don't feel comfortable asking, especially since it'd be bringing up the subject for a third time. Wouldn't help that I just don't have the funds for the airfare. And I'd feel like I'd be taking advantage of someone to have them pay for my ticket--that's a rather lot of money. I just don't think that'd be fair or right of me to do. I don't even know about borrowing that sorta money...and again, I think it's moot as I imagine he'd be hypersensitive about me doing anything on my own at this point. Yeah, I don't know for sure, but it's just a feeling I get that it'd get him worked up. *shrugs* I guess I just need to concentrate on getting us to Seattle at the end of December. And trying not to be visibly snarky about Thanskgiving. :p

Already had a cupcake from the treats that someone brought in here this am, but I'm feeling like I could use another. Great, eating to make myself feel better--then I can get down over how much I weigh. Good one, Di. Good cycle to get into. *smacks herself*

Picked up the first season Babylon 5 DVD set last night, and the third DVD of Excel Saga. And Anj finally got digisubbed copies of the Read or Die! OVA and the Bebop movie. So least we've got stuff I can watch and distract myself with. *snark* :p

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