Woke up this mornin'...
Oct. 26th, 2002 10:34 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionIn just a suck-ass lonely bad mood. I dunno *why*, just did. I can understand ending up in that sort of mood, but why the minute that I'm first conscious, do I get hit by it? It doesn't seem right somehow.
And I'm extremely underwhelmed to see that Kiri and Shell are posting again to Clampesque. It's not that they're *bad-bad* writers for I have seen worse--though, truly, they're sometimes just not good. But I guess I'm just not up for them writing in their dark moods, and their 'fuck you' attitudes when posting it. They really seem to enjoy killing off characters, even when they've been spending a lot of time and effort working with them. I guess, maybe it's just I don't understand writers who gravitate towards death in X fanfics. I mean--isn't there enough of that in the original fricking series already??
I mean, christ, CLAMP has proven they can kill their characters off in myriad different ways over and over and over and over and over again--in the movie, in the OAV, in the TV series, in the manga. I kinda look at fanfics therefore as a way of finally letting these characters live and breathe for once--and yeah okay, maybe some will end up coming to a bad end, but...why do I get the feeling that authors like Kiri and Shell just want to repla y out another CLAMP style story, where *everyone* dies and dies badly, after suffering much, with like one character left at the end crying. Meh. IMO, *What's the point of it all, then?*, to just redo what CLAMP's already done? Why bother, unless you're going to be different? What's the use of "Hey, look at *OUR* way of killing everyone off!"? What, are they trying to prove how "CLAMPesque" they are? (Haha, such puns I can make. >p )
*shrugs* Maybe it's just me. And for all I bitch, I do like X. I just don't handle it so well when I'm down. Immature of me, yes. And yeah, I'm going to keep reading 'Genesis', simply because I have trouble letting go of a series once I've started--least I have no illusions it's gonna end well. Especially Seishi rou and Subaru in this--I just get this feeling that they're at least headed for a depressing end if not a 'BAD END', if you know what I mean. But 'Genesis' makes me wonder why they bothered putting everyone together again in 'Revelation', just to shatte r them all again. See the "Why bother/What's the point?" bitch above.
...and yes, I'm even snarking because they're having an original character be their big deal DoE bad guy who's so good at killing everyone and he's just so powerful and so good at fsc king with everyone's minds, yahoo. *shrugs* I might have found him novel and intriguing originally, but now I'm really tired of said character. :p Bleh.
Hm, lookit that mood go--lonely, bitter, weird, bitchy, angry...can I add more? Am snarky at James, too, cause he can be so thoughtless sometimes. I mean--*he* had somewhere to be this morning, so I thought it was for *him* that he was setting the alarm for 7. But *nooooo*, seems he assumed that even though I had *nowhere* to be, that we were doing our usual morning routine with me getting up to shower first. Christ, he didn't even *ask* me last night, no, just tries to shove me outta bed (ok, figuratively) at 7 this morning, with me questioning what the hell he's thinking. I mean, jeezus, get a clue idiot. Then he makes a big production when he leaves, so it wakes me up again--at least that time I really did feel I had to be up, but still...jeezus fricking christ onna stick. *scowls grumps growls bitches grouches snarks* Had two weird and vivid dreams, too, and now I can't remember a damned bit of either one of them.
And looking at it all, I can just see that I'm just making big deals out of nothing, mountains out of things that aren't even worth molehills. *MAN*, do I suck of late. Ngah..
And I'm extremely underwhelmed to see that Kiri and Shell are posting again to Clampesque. It's not that they're *bad-bad* writers for I have seen worse--though, truly, they're sometimes just not good. But I guess I'm just not up for them writing in their dark moods, and their 'fuck you' attitudes when posting it. They really seem to enjoy killing off characters, even when they've been spending a lot of time and effort working with them. I guess, maybe it's just I don't understand writers who gravitate towards death in X fanfics. I mean--isn't there enough of that in the original fricking series already??
I mean, christ, CLAMP has proven they can kill their characters off in myriad different ways over and over and over and over and over again--in the movie, in the OAV, in the TV series, in the manga. I kinda look at fanfics therefore as a way of finally letting these characters live and breathe for once--and yeah okay, maybe some will end up coming to a bad end, but...why do I get the feeling that authors like Kiri and Shell just want to repla y out another CLAMP style story, where *everyone* dies and dies badly, after suffering much, with like one character left at the end crying. Meh. IMO, *What's the point of it all, then?*, to just redo what CLAMP's already done? Why bother, unless you're going to be different? What's the use of "Hey, look at *OUR* way of killing everyone off!"? What, are they trying to prove how "CLAMPesque" they are? (Haha, such puns I can make. >p )
*shrugs* Maybe it's just me. And for all I bitch, I do like X. I just don't handle it so well when I'm down. Immature of me, yes. And yeah, I'm going to keep reading 'Genesis', simply because I have trouble letting go of a series once I've started--least I have no illusions it's gonna end well. Especially Seishi rou and Subaru in this--I just get this feeling that they're at least headed for a depressing end if not a 'BAD END', if you know what I mean. But 'Genesis' makes me wonder why they bothered putting everyone together again in 'Revelation', just to shatte r them all again. See the "Why bother/What's the point?" bitch above.
...and yes, I'm even snarking because they're having an original character be their big deal DoE bad guy who's so good at killing everyone and he's just so powerful and so good at fsc king with everyone's minds, yahoo. *shrugs* I might have found him novel and intriguing originally, but now I'm really tired of said character. :p Bleh.
Hm, lookit that mood go--lonely, bitter, weird, bitchy, angry...can I add more? Am snarky at James, too, cause he can be so thoughtless sometimes. I mean--*he* had somewhere to be this morning, so I thought it was for *him* that he was setting the alarm for 7. But *nooooo*, seems he assumed that even though I had *nowhere* to be, that we were doing our usual morning routine with me getting up to shower first. Christ, he didn't even *ask* me last night, no, just tries to shove me outta bed (ok, figuratively) at 7 this morning, with me questioning what the hell he's thinking. I mean, jeezus, get a clue idiot. Then he makes a big production when he leaves, so it wakes me up again--at least that time I really did feel I had to be up, but still...jeezus fricking christ onna stick. *scowls grumps growls bitches grouches snarks* Had two weird and vivid dreams, too, and now I can't remember a damned bit of either one of them.
And looking at it all, I can just see that I'm just making big deals out of nothing, mountains out of things that aren't even worth molehills. *MAN*, do I suck of late. Ngah..
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Date: 2002-10-26 11:24 am (UTC)At this point, that fic is so off that it would take a lot of work to put it right. The deaths that happened in the latest part are meaningless. CLAMP never has a death without some meaning, there is always feeling and reason and consequence. From the deaths in that fic part, there was nothing.
Pardon me for being morbid, but death can be beautiful and exquisite. The pain and emotion that accompany it, for all around, are singular to that one and most important experience. When death is meaningless, we are left with a sense of wrongness, because it's not supposed to be.
Ever want to be a fic cop with the right to revoke a license? Yeah, me too.