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[whitereflection]

Oh, Sam. :(

Oh, *Sam*. D:

Oh, Sam. T_______________T

I just. Oh, that end scene. I just want to cry. :( Oh, Sam.

So. We already knew soulless!Sam did horrible things, and now we got to see very specific examples. Minor snicker at "loud and athletic", but mostly just feeling a knot in my stomach at the using the guy as bait, then just slaughtering the 'can't be helped' victims.

One interesting contrast is that in dealing with soulless!Sam, Dean bitched, complained, protested--Grandpa there, he maybe made snarky comments, but he always went along with what Sam did. Always let Sam keep doing it, kept working with him, despite it all. Says a lot about Samuel--he might not have been our bad guy, but he was not good. Maybe he wasn't the one doing the things, but he tolerated it and obviously let himself benefit from it.

Ironic that the town sign had the motto "where memories are made". Could be said "or where memories are recovered".

God, poor Sam though. Remembering all this even without trying, then just being there obviously scratches the wall to truly bring it all back. And then. :( Oh, that end. Collapsing, having the vision of burning in hell (ohman D: that just kind of freaks me out, I might be remembering that for awhile).

And he's got so damned much guilt now, especially both having been told things he did and having graphic memories of such. And he's taking all that weight on his shoulders, saying it was him, even though it was body without the true him of soul/conscience that did it. In a way, he's doubly suffering, having both been in hell for 120 years, but also because his body did horrible things that he's now remembering and feeling responsibility for. God, Sam. :(

I sort of hoped the wall would be more solid and stable, but obviously it's not going to be. :/ So much is leaking through already. Sam Sam Sammy Sam. T_____T So worried what the end of the season is going to bring now.


Ugh, that last scene's still making me wanna cry and making my stomach knot. I think I need to go look at more images/gifs of last weeks Sam'n'Dean hug to make myself feel better. :( I hope there's some comfort fic written to follow up that episode end. :/







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(P.S. Next week possessed Impala perhaps? ^^)

Comments

[the_milky_way]

Man, yes.. I hoped for a more solid wall as well.
God, I just want to hug Sam.. and then I want to hug Dean for being so worried.

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Yes, definitely hugs for them both. :( Then group hugs for them together *and* us. ;-;

[silverraven.livejournal.com]

Yeah, that last bit made me D: too. I can't believe they ended it there! ...well, yes I can, but still. So worried about Sam.

[auroraprimavera.livejournal.com]

I gasped so loudly at the end. OH SAM. Just - *wibbles*

And I don't know what to think about next week. I'm nervous!