Strange Days
Sep. 8th, 2002 08:12 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionI must apologize to the many I owe responses/AIMing/phone calls to. All I can say for the moment is *hugs* to you all, and I'll reply as soon as I can find a moment.
It's been odd. I'm not sure why I basically slept all of Friday night except for a brief outing for dinner. All I seem to do lately is sleep. Yesterday I was kept busy, so I didn't crash like that--but still, I probably would have if given the opportunity.
Speaking of yesterday, did lunch at Cozmo's with James, Anj, and Gina, then we saw Scooby Doo at the dollar theater--a movie that is surprisingly fun and funny. :D I laughed my ass off, and the guy playing Shaggy is *scary* on target--his voice is just too right. Then we hung out here a bit (watched some Queer Duck eps on my computer, since we've got the cable modem--Anj flailed at how quickly it loaded compared to her dialup).
Then went to Anj's while James hung out at his boss's place for a work-ish party. Anj, Gina, and I watched the second DVD of Excel Saga, and after that I finally took the time to borrow Anj's scanner and scan all of my cels. Hope this means I'll put together a web gallery soon. I so suck at html, tho...
But that wasn't what all made yesterday strange or odd. No, that...that was a phone call from Katherine while we were watching QD. Basically, the gist of the call was, she didn't want to talk while I had people over (thank god), but she does want to *talk*. She wants to talk to Anj, too, and has left her a phone message to the effect. Immediately I felt sick to my stomach, and Anj is basically the same way. Because I keep hoping Katherine wants to talk about something else, but we're pretty sure it's going to be about AI and the way things have been since then.
... Eh. I don't want to talk about it all. I desperately don't want the conflict/confrontation, and I don't want to have to face that inevitable choice of be coward or be honest, because I'd *HAVE* to be honest, and the things I'd have to say she wouldn't like. And she'd probably get angry to have someone say that to her. But she's really upset me, Kelly, others--hell, she's upset *Anj*, the person who feels guilty having a bad thought...! So that's how it is. I dread seeing Katherine in church today, but she won't want to talk in a public place like that, I'm sure.
I just don't want her dragging me off for a private talk. And I told her I was planning on being home this afternoon (I was rattled, eh *flails*), so she could call then. But now I just don't want to get that phone call. ...I'm such a goddamned coward. All I can think is "I need to call people so my line is busy." *flails* God, I'm such a chickenwuss. Especially since putting it off today wouldn't put it off forever.
*shivers* I hate the feeling of things looming over me like this. I wish I had the guts and spine to just look someone directly in the eye and say what I felt without a major crisis-angsting of anxiety beforehand like this. Bleh. :p
Hmf. Strange just keeps getting stranger...:
It's been odd. I'm not sure why I basically slept all of Friday night except for a brief outing for dinner. All I seem to do lately is sleep. Yesterday I was kept busy, so I didn't crash like that--but still, I probably would have if given the opportunity.
Speaking of yesterday, did lunch at Cozmo's with James, Anj, and Gina, then we saw Scooby Doo at the dollar theater--a movie that is surprisingly fun and funny. :D I laughed my ass off, and the guy playing Shaggy is *scary* on target--his voice is just too right. Then we hung out here a bit (watched some Queer Duck eps on my computer, since we've got the cable modem--Anj flailed at how quickly it loaded compared to her dialup).
Then went to Anj's while James hung out at his boss's place for a work-ish party. Anj, Gina, and I watched the second DVD of Excel Saga, and after that I finally took the time to borrow Anj's scanner and scan all of my cels. Hope this means I'll put together a web gallery soon. I so suck at html, tho...
But that wasn't what all made yesterday strange or odd. No, that...that was a phone call from Katherine while we were watching QD. Basically, the gist of the call was, she didn't want to talk while I had people over (thank god), but she does want to *talk*. She wants to talk to Anj, too, and has left her a phone message to the effect. Immediately I felt sick to my stomach, and Anj is basically the same way. Because I keep hoping Katherine wants to talk about something else, but we're pretty sure it's going to be about AI and the way things have been since then.
... Eh. I don't want to talk about it all. I desperately don't want the conflict/confrontation, and I don't want to have to face that inevitable choice of be coward or be honest, because I'd *HAVE* to be honest, and the things I'd have to say she wouldn't like. And she'd probably get angry to have someone say that to her. But she's really upset me, Kelly, others--hell, she's upset *Anj*, the person who feels guilty having a bad thought...! So that's how it is. I dread seeing Katherine in church today, but she won't want to talk in a public place like that, I'm sure.
I just don't want her dragging me off for a private talk. And I told her I was planning on being home this afternoon (I was rattled, eh *flails*), so she could call then. But now I just don't want to get that phone call. ...I'm such a goddamned coward. All I can think is "I need to call people so my line is busy." *flails* God, I'm such a chickenwuss. Especially since putting it off today wouldn't put it off forever.
*shivers* I hate the feeling of things looming over me like this. I wish I had the guts and spine to just look someone directly in the eye and say what I felt without a major crisis-angsting of anxiety beforehand like this. Bleh. :p
Hmf. Strange just keeps getting stranger...:
