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[whitereflection]

Seems the funeral's on Saturday. So I guess it was ok that I took this afternoon off, since I won't have to take any leave later this week after all.

Indulged in crap food and sleep this afternoon, but that just kinda made me feel cruddy. Ahwell. Least I made sure I've got my Japanese homework set for the next couple days. Will have to study tomorrow night for real, when I'm in a better mind for it.

Am a lot more down/depressed than I anticipated--wasn't so bad when my grandfather died several years back. Don't think I'd feel like this if it were Mom's mother--ain't that horrid of me. Wasn't even *that* close to Grandma. Hell knows I never wrote or called near enough. But we always spent so much time around Dad's side of the family...all those holidays throughout my childhood until I was in college--even some up until these past couple years. So it's like a chapter ending...there's no going back to get together like that, the way that used to be, ever again.

Poems I jotted down today (The first is me wondering about how it must have felt for my aunt Sue, driving):


*****

shi

Driving her home,
I hear her breath whisper
as she leaves.

***

hospital (except she was old)

She died
on the road home
from where they said
there was
still
nothing wrong.

*****

Comments

[joseishijin.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, I'm so sorry.

*hugs*

I know what you are going through. My thoughts are with you and your family.

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Many apologies in not replying to this for a bit. ^^;; But seriously, thank you tons. I really appreciate the care and sympathy--it helped much. Am feeling a lot more calm and normal about it and life in general this week.

*extrahugs* Thanks again. And btw, definitely do feel free to talk as much as you like about PoT (and I need to investigate HGJ...). I know I and at least one other person would love seeing what all you have to sparkle about. ^_____^ <--very good at sparkling about PoT

Jaa mata!
--Di