FUBAR and cel-pining...
Jul. 26th, 2002 09:59 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionWoo. Okay, it's more difficult to put thoughts together than it should be, but trying it anyway. Yeah. Gah.
Anyway, Wednesday night, while I was out goofing around (told Michael I didn't wanna come in, as I needed destressing time), a lymph node under my jaw--right along my windpipe--decides it's a good time to swell up some. The price I pay for ignoring my allergies, I guess. I stayed home yesterday, took some Sudafed decongestant stuff and used a damp washcloth as a hot compress. The compress did make it feel better, but didn't really do anything for the swelling. The decongestant is helping my sinuses, I must admit, but they so lie when they say it's non-drowsy. Not only am I drowsy, but I'm grogged-out to all hell.
Decided that since it didn't get worse, it wasn't worth going to a dr. for--it'll probably go away in a couple of days. And I wasn't doing any good by staying home, so I came into work this am. Though I'm having trouble being productive. Discovered that if I talk much to people, it irritates the swollen bit and makes it hurt, so I decided to basically just shut up for the rest of the day, which is okay actually. I rather prefer being able to just put on my headphones and not talk. And since the Sudafed's the 24 hr type, it'll gradually wear off as the day goes on, and I'll get more alert and less FUBAR, brainwise. Wheeeeeeee. Hopefully I'll get more coherent, as we were supposed to go over to Katherine's to watch the CCS movie off DVD and perhaps some Digicharat, too--I really wanna do that. It would be annoying to have to postpone it. :p
Ummm...not much else, other than I'm crying much inside that I'm letting a precious, incredible, gorgeous, made-for-me cel go. There's this Kamui cel--or rather 3-layer cel--on YahooJapan, and it's got this lasercopy background, and he's got *WINGS* that span the width of the cel. Oh man, it's killing me, I want it so much. But it would take *all* the money I've saved up. And I've been saying for *how* long that that money is earmarked for my iPod, which I've been whining about getting for god, it seems like forever. So I said this was when I was getting the iPod, and I'm doing that. I don't want to have to wait for Christmas to get it. I have to let the Kamui cel go. And that just bites big wind.
I know, I'm probably cursing myself that such a cel will never show up again--that, or a Yue&Touya cel from *That* scene, or another Seishirou movie cel (or hell, a TB one of him). There's a part of me that, especially as looped-out as I am right now, can't help but wonder if you pass up too many 'perfect' opportunities, that some cosmic/karmic thing will decide you don't get anymore chances. I just...it's something most won't understand, but I've been literally *craving* to buy a cel, and this one's so damned right for me, but I just *can't*. I should just order the damned iPod when I get home, so I can feel better that I've got *something* cool coming my way. *sigh* And ya know, I couldn't even get that Kamui if I wanted to? I tried signing up for a YahooJapan ID, and was using bablefish to translate, and something got fscked up--so the registration process just didn't work. So I couldn't bid anyway. *shrugs*
*sigh* Get me to September, when my money's free for buying cels again. And maybe have some decent dealers offering cels at AI, so perhaps I can buy one or a few while I'm there.
And make this stupid lymph node thing go back to normal so I can get off this godblasted Sudafed. I hate being fogged like this, I detest it. Least it's motivated me to ask Dad for the name of that one dr. he was recommending--I'll call her and see if she's on my insurance, and if so, sign her up as my primary care physician. It's been years since I've had that, as opposed to just going to minor medical places. Then I can go in and talk to her about maybe actually dealing with my allergies instead of ignoring 'em as I've been doing for years. It'd be nice to be able to breathe and hear again, and not wake up queasy and with fcked up sinuses every morning.
...god, I wanted that Kamui cel.
Anyway, Wednesday night, while I was out goofing around (told Michael I didn't wanna come in, as I needed destressing time), a lymph node under my jaw--right along my windpipe--decides it's a good time to swell up some. The price I pay for ignoring my allergies, I guess. I stayed home yesterday, took some Sudafed decongestant stuff and used a damp washcloth as a hot compress. The compress did make it feel better, but didn't really do anything for the swelling. The decongestant is helping my sinuses, I must admit, but they so lie when they say it's non-drowsy. Not only am I drowsy, but I'm grogged-out to all hell.
Decided that since it didn't get worse, it wasn't worth going to a dr. for--it'll probably go away in a couple of days. And I wasn't doing any good by staying home, so I came into work this am. Though I'm having trouble being productive. Discovered that if I talk much to people, it irritates the swollen bit and makes it hurt, so I decided to basically just shut up for the rest of the day, which is okay actually. I rather prefer being able to just put on my headphones and not talk. And since the Sudafed's the 24 hr type, it'll gradually wear off as the day goes on, and I'll get more alert and less FUBAR, brainwise. Wheeeeeeee. Hopefully I'll get more coherent, as we were supposed to go over to Katherine's to watch the CCS movie off DVD and perhaps some Digicharat, too--I really wanna do that. It would be annoying to have to postpone it. :p
Ummm...not much else, other than I'm crying much inside that I'm letting a precious, incredible, gorgeous, made-for-me cel go. There's this Kamui cel--or rather 3-layer cel--on YahooJapan, and it's got this lasercopy background, and he's got *WINGS* that span the width of the cel. Oh man, it's killing me, I want it so much. But it would take *all* the money I've saved up. And I've been saying for *how* long that that money is earmarked for my iPod, which I've been whining about getting for god, it seems like forever. So I said this was when I was getting the iPod, and I'm doing that. I don't want to have to wait for Christmas to get it. I have to let the Kamui cel go. And that just bites big wind.
I know, I'm probably cursing myself that such a cel will never show up again--that, or a Yue&Touya cel from *That* scene, or another Seishirou movie cel (or hell, a TB one of him). There's a part of me that, especially as looped-out as I am right now, can't help but wonder if you pass up too many 'perfect' opportunities, that some cosmic/karmic thing will decide you don't get anymore chances. I just...it's something most won't understand, but I've been literally *craving* to buy a cel, and this one's so damned right for me, but I just *can't*. I should just order the damned iPod when I get home, so I can feel better that I've got *something* cool coming my way. *sigh* And ya know, I couldn't even get that Kamui if I wanted to? I tried signing up for a YahooJapan ID, and was using bablefish to translate, and something got fscked up--so the registration process just didn't work. So I couldn't bid anyway. *shrugs*
*sigh* Get me to September, when my money's free for buying cels again. And maybe have some decent dealers offering cels at AI, so perhaps I can buy one or a few while I'm there.
And make this stupid lymph node thing go back to normal so I can get off this godblasted Sudafed. I hate being fogged like this, I detest it. Least it's motivated me to ask Dad for the name of that one dr. he was recommending--I'll call her and see if she's on my insurance, and if so, sign her up as my primary care physician. It's been years since I've had that, as opposed to just going to minor medical places. Then I can go in and talk to her about maybe actually dealing with my allergies instead of ignoring 'em as I've been doing for years. It'd be nice to be able to breathe and hear again, and not wake up queasy and with fcked up sinuses every morning.
...god, I wanted that Kamui cel.
