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whitereflectionI love opening a can of fizzy water and having it blish all over the place. Not like I shook the fucker, I guess it just felt like it.
Have had the back of my throat (ie. that uvula thing again) swollen since Saturday, almost certainly just from allergies. Was particularly bad yesterday, so I went home and slept a lot--my allergist has me on about 5days of Prednizone. Hopefully it helps. I'm not thrilled to be on it.
Work is pissing me off very, very, very much. So close to quitting and just walking out. Unfortunately the person I yelled at (well not 'at' per se, but in the direction of) was Anj, who is just as helpless as I am. Why is no one else *fighting* this bullshit--why do the two supervisors (one who is faculty level) and our director do *fucking nothing*?? Well, at least I know why on the director; she's an awesome person, but proved ages ago that she believes in just giving in. And she leaves in a matter of weeks anyway, so why bother, I imagine. Fuck this place.
I wish my career path wasn't this death spiral. I hate how it constantly seems like my options are to fall further and further backwards, and contribute less of the household income (I'm already just 1/3 of it...)--and thus be less and less able to support myself if it ever came to it. Remember kids, graduating high school at higher than a 4.0 on a 4.0 scale, 13 of 431; and graduating college summa cum laude with a what was it, 3.95 or 3.97 or something GPA--that gets you SO MUCH NOTHING. Trust me. You can end up with just as much nothing in the end as if you didn't try.
I have a feeling I'm not going to be trying hard today. For some reason my motivation seems to have gone, and I rather don't care about it all.
Have had the back of my throat (ie. that uvula thing again) swollen since Saturday, almost certainly just from allergies. Was particularly bad yesterday, so I went home and slept a lot--my allergist has me on about 5days of Prednizone. Hopefully it helps. I'm not thrilled to be on it.
Work is pissing me off very, very, very much. So close to quitting and just walking out. Unfortunately the person I yelled at (well not 'at' per se, but in the direction of) was Anj, who is just as helpless as I am. Why is no one else *fighting* this bullshit--why do the two supervisors (one who is faculty level) and our director do *fucking nothing*?? Well, at least I know why on the director; she's an awesome person, but proved ages ago that she believes in just giving in. And she leaves in a matter of weeks anyway, so why bother, I imagine. Fuck this place.
I wish my career path wasn't this death spiral. I hate how it constantly seems like my options are to fall further and further backwards, and contribute less of the household income (I'm already just 1/3 of it...)--and thus be less and less able to support myself if it ever came to it. Remember kids, graduating high school at higher than a 4.0 on a 4.0 scale, 13 of 431; and graduating college summa cum laude with a what was it, 3.95 or 3.97 or something GPA--that gets you SO MUCH NOTHING. Trust me. You can end up with just as much nothing in the end as if you didn't try.
I have a feeling I'm not going to be trying hard today. For some reason my motivation seems to have gone, and I rather don't care about it all.
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Date: 2008-06-10 05:34 pm (UTC)♥ ♥ ♥
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Date: 2008-06-10 11:26 pm (UTC)Amen, girlfriend. If I had started at my company out of high school rather than d*cking around college for 6 years, I would be making SO much more money, etc.
Being good in school does not translate to monetary/job satisfaction. I wish someone had told me that a lot sooner. :(
WORK SUX!!!