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whitereflectionToday is boring. Boring boring boring. Also, my focus and concentration are such complete and utter crap. I'd be so damned much more productive if I weren't so stupidly distractable. For some reason the coffee hit wrong, which did not help.
Fic frettings on the brain already, complete with holy fuck I don't know these characters well enough and holy fuck I don't know the storyline and world well enough and argh argh how do I work it when I want them to pretty much fit with the manga stuff but I know bits of the anime only aspects because of other fics and and augh. /dies Also also, in addition to finishing the manga (and probably having to reread chunks), I need to poke through certain Pratchett books because of One Idea. Eff eff eff, how can I want to do something and feel such panic at the same time.
Odd also is that I don't know which is worse--knowing I was posting alongside others' fics for the same idea and thus contrasting to their quality, or knowing I'm all but certainly going to be the only person posting for these prompts. Failing compared to others vs. failing on my own. Plus the lucky prompter just gets me and my weird/ignorant view on the series and what to fic for it--could be one very disappointed prompter. I'll be lucky to get one comment per item, when I know I already get bummed at only a few comments on a fic (even if I tout the ideal that it's not done for the reward of feedback, but for one's own sense of accomplishment).
Anxiety plus mood plus tendency to be tetchy probably means pms fun. Or it could mean I'm a cranky, bitchy worry-wart. (Most likely both.)
Fic frettings on the brain already, complete with holy fuck I don't know these characters well enough and holy fuck I don't know the storyline and world well enough and argh argh how do I work it when I want them to pretty much fit with the manga stuff but I know bits of the anime only aspects because of other fics and and augh. /dies Also also, in addition to finishing the manga (and probably having to reread chunks), I need to poke through certain Pratchett books because of One Idea. Eff eff eff, how can I want to do something and feel such panic at the same time.
Odd also is that I don't know which is worse--knowing I was posting alongside others' fics for the same idea and thus contrasting to their quality, or knowing I'm all but certainly going to be the only person posting for these prompts. Failing compared to others vs. failing on my own. Plus the lucky prompter just gets me and my weird/ignorant view on the series and what to fic for it--could be one very disappointed prompter. I'll be lucky to get one comment per item, when I know I already get bummed at only a few comments on a fic (even if I tout the ideal that it's not done for the reward of feedback, but for one's own sense of accomplishment).
Anxiety plus mood plus tendency to be tetchy probably means pms fun. Or it could mean I'm a cranky, bitchy worry-wart. (Most likely both.)
