So tired... -__-
Jul. 15th, 2002 10:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionSo very, very tired... S'what I get for being on the computer until after 1, and not being able to get to sleep until near 2. My own damned fault, meh. I just didn't wanna leave--I get so little time to hang out with people as it is, and I was having fun... *sighs, flails a bit* I've just been doing a lot of late nights, and it's caught up with me a bunch this am, I guess. *shrugs* Doesn't help that allergies are messing with me again--they were godawfulbad last week--and that's draining my engergy extra. I have a feeling I'm going to need an early night sometime this week. Dunno when I'll actually let it happen.
Didn't wanna come in to work this am--no surprise there. It just really hit me last night at dinner, when we were at this Village Inn. I looked out the window, and realized it was truly nice outside. Bright, blue sky, sunny--of course it's warmer today then then, but still. It's a beautiful world outside, and I'm missing it; it's passing me by faster and faster, like I'm screaming down the tallest hill of a roller coaster, everything's flashing by, and dear gods I don't want to think about what happens when the ride stops.
Doesn't help that when I came in today, OCLC was still down (been down since about 3 Friday afternoon)--that's our cataloging software. If we can't access it, we can't access the world cataloging database, have no information to export into our local system--in short, we can't catalog any new books, can't look up any information on subject headings, etc. In shorter short: I have absolutely nothing I can do until it's working. Oh, no wait, I can weed out the Display Committee's stash of bookcovers, oh joy. Trouble is, we don't *really* need that done. I just could, if I was desperate. Am nearly so. But what I am doing...is student assistant work. :p No offense to our student assistants, but it's monkey work. Basic, basic, don't gotta think work. Some days that's good, I guess. But I tend towards boredom anyway, and I get snarky when I'm bored. So I'm tattletaping books--adding the adhesive security strips that interact with our alarm gates, keep idiots from trying to walk off with the books without checking 'em out--and singing the snarky boredom song.
I hope OCLC comes back up soon. I didn't wanna be here anyway, and now I'm feeling near to wacking out. I just wish I could see something in the want-ads/job classifieds that I'd want to do. Nothing is really grabbing me. I want a job change, I just don't know what I want to do with my life, what I can do that will support me and yet keep me interested, maybe let me have some fun. This is not a bad job--at least I have one--but I am so damned burned out on it. I'm just so damned bored all the time, just not challenged enough, just not kept busy enough... It just reminds me how much I'd rather be working at DisneyWorld, or at the Alki Bakery in Seattle, or even at a job like Jenn's that pays so decently. Or something like all of that. Maybe work in a forensic laboratory, a research laboratory, a museum, an art gallery, so on and so on. ...*thumps head down on her desk* I hate being stuck in Omaha.
Eh, ignore me. Being tired makes me a moody, snarky, whiny bitch.
Didn't wanna come in to work this am--no surprise there. It just really hit me last night at dinner, when we were at this Village Inn. I looked out the window, and realized it was truly nice outside. Bright, blue sky, sunny--of course it's warmer today then then, but still. It's a beautiful world outside, and I'm missing it; it's passing me by faster and faster, like I'm screaming down the tallest hill of a roller coaster, everything's flashing by, and dear gods I don't want to think about what happens when the ride stops.
Doesn't help that when I came in today, OCLC was still down (been down since about 3 Friday afternoon)--that's our cataloging software. If we can't access it, we can't access the world cataloging database, have no information to export into our local system--in short, we can't catalog any new books, can't look up any information on subject headings, etc. In shorter short: I have absolutely nothing I can do until it's working. Oh, no wait, I can weed out the Display Committee's stash of bookcovers, oh joy. Trouble is, we don't *really* need that done. I just could, if I was desperate. Am nearly so. But what I am doing...is student assistant work. :p No offense to our student assistants, but it's monkey work. Basic, basic, don't gotta think work. Some days that's good, I guess. But I tend towards boredom anyway, and I get snarky when I'm bored. So I'm tattletaping books--adding the adhesive security strips that interact with our alarm gates, keep idiots from trying to walk off with the books without checking 'em out--and singing the snarky boredom song.
I hope OCLC comes back up soon. I didn't wanna be here anyway, and now I'm feeling near to wacking out. I just wish I could see something in the want-ads/job classifieds that I'd want to do. Nothing is really grabbing me. I want a job change, I just don't know what I want to do with my life, what I can do that will support me and yet keep me interested, maybe let me have some fun. This is not a bad job--at least I have one--but I am so damned burned out on it. I'm just so damned bored all the time, just not challenged enough, just not kept busy enough... It just reminds me how much I'd rather be working at DisneyWorld, or at the Alki Bakery in Seattle, or even at a job like Jenn's that pays so decently. Or something like all of that. Maybe work in a forensic laboratory, a research laboratory, a museum, an art gallery, so on and so on. ...*thumps head down on her desk* I hate being stuck in Omaha.
Eh, ignore me. Being tired makes me a moody, snarky, whiny bitch.
