see, this is my luck
Apr. 13th, 2007 05:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionOk, so I was hit by this VORACIOUS plot bunny today. Maybe it was the caffeine, but it was the most rabid, most like being possessed idea I've ever had. It screamed at me all day YOU WILL WRITE THIS, and I could not *focus*, couldn't think all day, what with turning it over in my head to ponder it and piece it together. At some points, I wanted to just about cry with frustration at wanting to do something with it and not being able to (supervisor there, very buried, we continue to get slammed with new shipments--guess it isn't winding down yet after all).
So I get home, I'm already planning on skipping WoW, putting off laundry and bills, so I can do something finally. And just as I'm chilling out for a few minutes...
Then the headache hits. Along my right temple/behind my eye. Eyestrain almost immediately, light sensitivity, going sort of queasy. These same near-migraines I've gotten occasionally since college, thanks to allergies and contributed to by weather and weird shit like my glasses. The same sort I've been getting on and off this past week. Already gone for the usual 3 motrin, and trying to keep my eyes partly or mostly closed and concentrate on relaxing the muscles for focusing. Just know that these things usually take hours, sometimes half a day to pass, sometimes they keep hanging around in the background.
But seriously. FUCK. The timing's *impeccable*. And not like I don't have other things I need to be doing this weekend, esp. if I"m putting things off tonight, so that it'd be easy to just do later. Not to mention I lose these things so easily--the details, the vibrancy and emotion, or simply the motivation to sit down and type it out. I've never ever been so possessed by an idea or the simple need to write before, like it was out of my control. What are the damned odds that this would flare up again right at this specific time, just when I could finally tackle it?
*bitchwhinemoan* Yeah, stopping. Sorry. I'm gonna go lay down. DX
So I get home, I'm already planning on skipping WoW, putting off laundry and bills, so I can do something finally. And just as I'm chilling out for a few minutes...
Then the headache hits. Along my right temple/behind my eye. Eyestrain almost immediately, light sensitivity, going sort of queasy. These same near-migraines I've gotten occasionally since college, thanks to allergies and contributed to by weather and weird shit like my glasses. The same sort I've been getting on and off this past week. Already gone for the usual 3 motrin, and trying to keep my eyes partly or mostly closed and concentrate on relaxing the muscles for focusing. Just know that these things usually take hours, sometimes half a day to pass, sometimes they keep hanging around in the background.
But seriously. FUCK. The timing's *impeccable*. And not like I don't have other things I need to be doing this weekend, esp. if I"m putting things off tonight, so that it'd be easy to just do later. Not to mention I lose these things so easily--the details, the vibrancy and emotion, or simply the motivation to sit down and type it out. I've never ever been so possessed by an idea or the simple need to write before, like it was out of my control. What are the damned odds that this would flare up again right at this specific time, just when I could finally tackle it?
*bitchwhinemoan* Yeah, stopping. Sorry. I'm gonna go lay down. DX
