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[whitereflection]

Work...just sucks. Been short-ing and working through breaks and lunches as is. Which is no big deal really, actually helps the stressing. But no, yet more fallout from the reorg, and I think it's finally the proverbial straw. I can *not* bend any more, I just *can't*. I feel ill at the thought of even continuing to go in; and knowing the changes come January, both in yet more additional job duties, including the sort I did not want to do again, and in my workspace location--to *exactly* the sort of workspace I HATE MOST--I just...no more, you know? I've bent, I've submitted, I've adapted, I've 'just did it', I've accepted...but this, no. I can't. That's going from discontent to horridly miserable. *No*.

Guess I need to set a goal of redoing my resume and starting the job hunt over the holiday break. Really wanted my relax time though, I look forward to that all year. >( Sucks. At least, gonna get the Sunday paper this wkend and start seriously looking at ads. Also back to checking various sites on the net.

But at the same time...pondering if I'm desperate enough to find just *something* to get out of there. Even part time something. Like a you-might-do job, rather than 'this is my career' job. Depends I suppose on how things progress as we hit and get through January. ...very close to just giving two weeks' notice. Very close to just calling in and saying "I'm not going to be in because I quit".

Hell and damnation, I don't want to go in ever again tomorrow.

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[semecucumber.livejournal.com]

To quote good solid English knights: Run away!

:|

It's not the best way of spending Christmas, but if it'll lead to less brain hurty depressing crappy workplace then it'll be worth it.

And you never know, a random job might be just what you need. or you could just move here and be a kept woman!! *pose* ... >.> ok it'd be a nice idea XD

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

I want to be a kept woman. :| I want to fiddle about at home and play WoW and write bad poetry and fic and play at painting and oil pastels. WTB visa so's I can immigrate please :x

I suck at getting back to comments. :x I suuuuuuuuuuuck.

[gallo-de-pelea.livejournal.com]

If you can afford it, sometimes bailing is the way to go. I had to do that at my dot-com boom job when I started crying in the bathroom more than once a week. Oh man that was awful.

Unemployment was a bummer, but it sure beat hating life for 12-14 hours a day ("lol sorry, we didn't tell you, but yeah, this meeting runs till 10 pm, but you guys can eat dinner afterwards, right?")

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

(I suck at getting back to comments D: Seriously so)

Appreciate the support :) Finally reworking the old resume/references thing, amazing how that can be both harder and easier than I expected at the same time. Probably have to redo it all though after my buddy (and also coworker) looks at it tomorrow ^^;;

But yeah, if I can't land something or at least have good leads by end of January (after our post holiday insane busy time), I'm still planning on bailing and either job hunting full-time or getting just something part-time. I've had a crying-in-the-bathroom job, now that this one's turning into that, not worth it at all.