eval, wut?

[whitereflection]

Hormonemo, yes. Blah.

Finally eval time (I am...amused, in a twisted sort of way that the eval period is only through May 31. That means even when I've gotten them by July 1 it's been a month late. This is...4 months?) The numbers are basically what I get every year, so that's ok I guess. The explanations are typical of my supervisor--as I emailed to Kat, it's no wonder I feel I don't excel in anything considering how bland my now-ex-supervisor writes about anyone or anything.

Two particular bits in the commentary tho. One is a notation that I was talked to early in the year about web use on work time. Makes it sound much more official than the quick comment/instruction that my then-dept.chair had given me, but whatever. The important bit is something officially documented in writing is very easy for them to ding you on again, so will have to be careful, now that I use my work computer again for web stuff on breaks/lunches. Both to make sure I don't slip and that they know when I'm on personal and not work time.

The other bit though...a very odd comment that I've never ever had on an eval before, so it's out of the blue. Basically "However, in expressing herself, Diane is sometimes led by her emotions. This can make it difficult to respond to her and may either intimidate the other person or fuel a more emotional response on their part." Frankly, I think if this sort of thing was an issue at *ANY* point in the year, someone should have discussed it with me then. I shouldn't be hearing first thing about it on a yearly eval. My former supervisor and dept. chair really fell down on the job in that regard, and I plan on making a point of how it should have been mentioned before during my meeting with ex-supervisor tomorrow. I do wonder who raised this point too, because said ex-supervisor has *never* mentioned anything about this or had it on any evals ever before. So I'm guessing it was ex-dept. chair, perhaps. More glad than ever to have a new supervisor/dept chair chain.

But seriously. Intimidate? What the hell. I'm one of the least intimidating people I know. I can see the 'fueling an emotional response' bit, but I find the intimidating comment to be ludicrous. I couldn't be so if I *tried*--which I have. It fails utterly, trust me, as have any of my attempts to be tough or menacing.

But yeah. Anyway. Weird. Both dreading the meeting tomorrow and wanting it to be done. Going to be such a relief to be out from any further influence of ex supervisor or ex dept chair. Funny how *wonderfully* I got along with retired dept chair before the ex one and how there were no issues--says something about ex, I think. There's a reason after the reorg he's not a chair of anything any longer, imo (and ex supervisor is now no longer supervising anyone but students, interesting hm).

Anyway. Other than that, listening to Dream Theater -- Metropolis 2: Scenes From a Memory on repeat again. Also, Axel and AkuRoku fangirling at an all-time high. But some of the early fic I've been finding for those two..*ow*...good, but ow. Heartachey. Kind of tough to read on my good days, probably should avoid when in a moodswing, eh? :|

Comments

[sublimeparadigm.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure how this eval thing works, or who gives them, but honestly? The second sounds like something a jealous, catty girl would say in order to make their spite sound SMRT. Like, expressing emotions? What? Since when is that a bad thing? If someone finds that intimidating, they're the one with the problem.

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Yeah, the more I think about it, the more whacked it sounds. Basically, the evaluation is a yearly thing, to rate our work--a combination of rating scale (well below expectations, below expectations, meets expectations, above exp, well above exp...because previously rating us from 1-5 with one low and five high was somehow ZOMGWRONG and this is somehow better) with comments.

I mean, I know I vent hugely emotionally on LJ, and I can be extremely emotional at home, or off the clock. But at work even if I get worked up I don't do/say anything that seems out of bounds, honestly. Not to say I don't get worked up, but surely it wasn't anywhere near warranting a permanent-record notation? (Even better, I read in another section I get to go to a seminar on handling emotions under pressure. :| OHFUN)

It's funny, my buddy who's also my coworker--she once had to go to a stress management seminar, and I still hear her smacking her keyboard around and growling at times, so fat lot that did her (also, is that sort of thing on *her* evals, or was this just a random target at me?) But definitely going to make a point that this so should have gotten discussed with me ages ago, before it ever went on something that's a permanent record like an eval. Honestly, that stays in my personnel file. If there's a problem, talk to me so I can have a chance to change it before it ever gets put down in writing. Fer heck's sake.

Does still make me wonder who it was--the ex chair or ex supervisor? If it was my supervisor, wth, I've only been down here like five years. Have I been terrorizing her that long? Is this a passive-agressive parting shot/revenge because I'm reporting to someone else now and thus saying such wouldn't risk retaliation? Was it the ex chair who this was the first eval period he'd seen my performance and this freaked him out? Which shouldn't have in the first place, like you were saying--if it was, sheezus someone needs to get a thicker skin and a spine or go live in a gd bubble. What gets me is that section I'm usually 'above expectations', this time it was only 'meets expectations'. Think it might even be the first plain 'meets' I've gotten. :/ Who knows, with my luck, it could even be the something the Library Dean passed down to my ex-chair to include--wouldn't suprise me, considering the way that guy is.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyway. :| Hi! Words words words!

[joseishijin.livejournal.com]

At my company (insurance co, so they follow ALL the rules), if something negative appears on a yearly eval, it MUST have been documented over the past year, in either a mid-year review (to give the employee a chance to work on it or seek mediation) or in a written "warning" that the employee must see and sign. Sounds like you can fight it.

Give 'em Hell, sweetie!!!

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

Yeah, we have actual written documentation steps, but almost always things are mentioned verbally first before you get to the written (which is more official disciplinary action-ish). Basically, give people a chance before it becomes part of a personnel file. Anything written, whether documentation or evaluation, is really supposed to be for serious issues that aren't being changed.

But, looks promising for having it removed from the eval. Don't think I gave 'em hell, but did state my concern firmly but politely >D