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whitereflectionI have to wonder...I've linked to some friends, and I ponder what they'd think of some of the things I've said in the past. That's why I haven't linked to a lot of people up until now--I've spoken rather frankly, for as vague as I've been, and I still worry that it might be a big case of Way Too Fscking Much Information.
I guess I always worry that people will think less of me when they find out what I really think/feel. It's happened before, where I show the real me, and it scares people off. There are just some people I *don't* want to lose--they're too important to me (and I haven't done enough to show that to them in the first place...I'm a lousy friend *sigh*).
Strage...I'm very big on "Accept me as I am", but then I worry that I won't be. Accepted that is. Maybe it's a self-esteem thing that I have trouble believing that people care about me, no matter what. ...maybe it's some that the SO in my life has had trouble at times dealing with the person I've become--and if *they* have that trouble, wouldn't friends find it that much more difficult? Eh...dunno. Too philosophical for a Saturday evening, perhaps.
I guess I always worry that people will think less of me when they find out what I really think/feel. It's happened before, where I show the real me, and it scares people off. There are just some people I *don't* want to lose--they're too important to me (and I haven't done enough to show that to them in the first place...I'm a lousy friend *sigh*).
Strage...I'm very big on "Accept me as I am", but then I worry that I won't be. Accepted that is. Maybe it's a self-esteem thing that I have trouble believing that people care about me, no matter what. ...maybe it's some that the SO in my life has had trouble at times dealing with the person I've become--and if *they* have that trouble, wouldn't friends find it that much more difficult? Eh...dunno. Too philosophical for a Saturday evening, perhaps.
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Date: 2002-02-16 05:41 pm (UTC)There's a little place not to far from here I've found that sells all kinds of movies, so I'm gonna check there for it. If not, I would like to bow and beg for a copy if it is within the realm of possible. -_- *bows*