soul-sucked
Oct. 14th, 2004 06:30 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionI have decended into the deepest depths of uber-stupid-lame fan...fanicity. Yes. It is truly the height of inane-ness (inanity?) when one likes something so puerile that one literally hates oneself for falling for it. Yet one can't stop the fact that said thing has done eaten one's brain and soul with but a few chapters and fanworks. ...but that's all I'm gonna say on that. Suffice it to say that I am the lamest out of all of you. Except those of you who are DBZ fans. *self-righteous mocking*
I did not realize I was short on sleep. But instead of being productive, I seem to have couch-crashed last evening, and not just to doze but to sleep hard. Hard as in wake up so groggy I'm shivering cold and have lost all coordination, and am so out of it I stumble (literally) to bed without teeth-brushing (disgusting >p ). Slept hard all night too, and it's yet another night where I *know* I'm getting weird, weird dreams--that I absolutely cannot remember when I wake up. Usually I know I don't dream. But it seems like this past month I am a ton...just no recollections of them at all, beyond the feeling/impression of strange-bizarre flashes of images and color. I rather wish it would stop. It's...disconcerting, for some reason.
Michelle (Dad & Johnna's housecleaning person) is coming over tonight to talk, well, cleaning. A bit ago, when I was just recovering from that damned pneumonia-plague, Mom, Dad/Johnna, and Dave approached me that they were all chipping in towards getting my place cleaned thoroughly. Which...I am extremely greatful for, and yet extremely embarrassed by. Obviously I can deal with clutter on my own (except at my desk), but other than the basics of kitchen/bath clean-ups and a once-ina-blue-moon vacuuming...I just don't do it. I guess I just have to admit I can't keep up with a 1900ft2 place on my own and someone else is just useless to try to get to help--and in addition, I'm fecking lazy...and what I don't like, I just...avoid. So. Anyway, it's gonna get done at least once really well--and I'm going to talk to her about how much it is to maybe do on an ongoing basis. I guess...it's indulgent, but someone else earns enough that it can be done.
I hope my BestBuy package gets here soon. Am expecting AzuDai 4 and 5, the newest TSO CD, and Katamari Damacy. Especially Katamari Damacy. Want. I hope it to be a good group game (GTA is somewhat, but it makes Anj motion sick...GG is also good for group games, except that everyone kicks my ass at it...)
Cold out...I suppose I should say cool, as it didn't even quite get to freezing, and in a couple months that will be warm. But I should think about wearing a jacket and maybe turning on the heat, at least at night. Allergens and cold dry air does irritate my lungs, though, and get me coughing whenever I get a whiff of the outside >_o Annoying.
Ah yes. I am good at wasting time.
I did not realize I was short on sleep. But instead of being productive, I seem to have couch-crashed last evening, and not just to doze but to sleep hard. Hard as in wake up so groggy I'm shivering cold and have lost all coordination, and am so out of it I stumble (literally) to bed without teeth-brushing (disgusting >p ). Slept hard all night too, and it's yet another night where I *know* I'm getting weird, weird dreams--that I absolutely cannot remember when I wake up. Usually I know I don't dream. But it seems like this past month I am a ton...just no recollections of them at all, beyond the feeling/impression of strange-bizarre flashes of images and color. I rather wish it would stop. It's...disconcerting, for some reason.
Michelle (Dad & Johnna's housecleaning person) is coming over tonight to talk, well, cleaning. A bit ago, when I was just recovering from that damned pneumonia-plague, Mom, Dad/Johnna, and Dave approached me that they were all chipping in towards getting my place cleaned thoroughly. Which...I am extremely greatful for, and yet extremely embarrassed by. Obviously I can deal with clutter on my own (except at my desk), but other than the basics of kitchen/bath clean-ups and a once-ina-blue-moon vacuuming...I just don't do it. I guess I just have to admit I can't keep up with a 1900ft2 place on my own and someone else is just useless to try to get to help--and in addition, I'm fecking lazy...and what I don't like, I just...avoid. So. Anyway, it's gonna get done at least once really well--and I'm going to talk to her about how much it is to maybe do on an ongoing basis. I guess...it's indulgent, but someone else earns enough that it can be done.
I hope my BestBuy package gets here soon. Am expecting AzuDai 4 and 5, the newest TSO CD, and Katamari Damacy. Especially Katamari Damacy. Want. I hope it to be a good group game (GTA is somewhat, but it makes Anj motion sick...GG is also good for group games, except that everyone kicks my ass at it...)
Cold out...I suppose I should say cool, as it didn't even quite get to freezing, and in a couple months that will be warm. But I should think about wearing a jacket and maybe turning on the heat, at least at night. Allergens and cold dry air does irritate my lungs, though, and get me coughing whenever I get a whiff of the outside >_o Annoying.
Ah yes. I am good at wasting time.
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Date: 2004-10-14 08:53 pm (UTC)I have a Moon Pie and j00 don't. :p
Btw, I told your buddy there about what was up and gave them your phone #--sounded like they were gonna call ya tomorrow.
Sorry about the stress :x Gotta admit, now I don't mind high school drama because it seems like that was a bit easier than stress these days. Or maybe that's just because I'm still having jrhigh/highschoolish stress *and* collegeish stress *and* adult stress ^^; But I think that all's just because I'm a weirdo. Heh, but sorry, I don't mean to make light of it...but do poke me whenever you're around if'n ya wanna talk, or even email if you're able and need to vent about it. Sorry to be abit loopy, is just been a long day and I'm kinda tired ^^;
*hugsloves muchly* Will be good when both hardware/software stuff is resolved for ya, as have missed you a ton.
Bah, eating Moon Pies at the computer is bad. Too crumbly. >_>
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Date: 2004-10-15 03:36 am (UTC)