'...why are we walking like this?'
Sep. 21st, 2004 09:18 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionBlah-drained-tired, but that's nothing new. >_> Still getting the barky cough sometimes, especially after any sort of lying down, and I'm on the last day of the antibiotic. But I've still got the inhaler and steroid inhaler, and I can do a refill on the expectorant, so I guess I'll see how I do on those. There has been improvement, I must admit--I'm just impatient.
Lazy-slacker last night. Just ate dinner, flopped on couch to watch my Clerks animated series DVDs, and fell asleep to that. Kinda wanna do something similar tonight--just not a lot of energy for being active/social/in a up mood.
Pondering game stuff, not sure what to do with it all. Since RO won't be an option, I'm back at wondering about City of Heroes or FFXI. I really want to do both, but I'm not sure I even have the funds to do one. I've *got* to save, I absolutely can't be buying anything, so the approx. 50$ needed to buy one game, plus the approx.10$-15$ a month to subscribe is hard to come by. Seriously, some times I wonder about getting a part time job or selling plasma or something like that (no, I won't do either, I just think about it.) Though he hasn't even gotten the pc he wants yet--but I know it's just a matter of time.
Makes me wish I could do something marketable--I mean, seems like there is a market for selling art prints, and some do ok with that, especially in the fanart world. Writing doesn't seem to get any sort of money. Not that I can really do either. But man, if I had the talent/skill to sell like art commissions or some such, christ, I'd so be doing that. I've got cels, but the only ones of value are ones I won't give up. And my dj collection is small, and while there are a few I'd be ok with selling, it'd mainly be to thin out my collection, and wouldn't make me terribly much.
Beh...at the same time, I know there are djs that have come out I desperately want. Damned new Yamada D and Jet Monster and Scoop stuff. And manga tankubon I need to collect. But I really just have to wait and hope it shows up later. I think is time to quit sneak-buying the English translated stuff, too--I have no compunction against just hanging out in the bookstore and reading. *shrugs* So feels better for my ethics/conscience, really. That all, at the least, should be there later. Hmph...I need to look at my old comics and English translated manga. Maybe there's stuff I could weed out.
Will do the concert this Friday, though. Is only 15$, and christ, it's Blue October (and Grasshopper Takeover, Swizzletree, & Social Burn). Tried to see if Dave wanted to go, but he's mired up in law school bad, what with the student law review, second year stuff, and a prep course for the patent bar.
Still getting that 'wish I knew what I want to be when I grow up' feeling. Except I am grown up, and I have no freaking clue. Still tempted by something scientific, or something to do with languages. But I really want to do something creative/artistic...just no idea *what*. Nor do I have any education/talent/still/experience, so it's kinda moot. But criminy. If I could just get an attention span and focus on something and actually stick with it...
Lazy-slacker last night. Just ate dinner, flopped on couch to watch my Clerks animated series DVDs, and fell asleep to that. Kinda wanna do something similar tonight--just not a lot of energy for being active/social/in a up mood.
Pondering game stuff, not sure what to do with it all. Since RO won't be an option, I'm back at wondering about City of Heroes or FFXI. I really want to do both, but I'm not sure I even have the funds to do one. I've *got* to save, I absolutely can't be buying anything, so the approx. 50$ needed to buy one game, plus the approx.10$-15$ a month to subscribe is hard to come by. Seriously, some times I wonder about getting a part time job or selling plasma or something like that (no, I won't do either, I just think about it.) Though he hasn't even gotten the pc he wants yet--but I know it's just a matter of time.
Makes me wish I could do something marketable--I mean, seems like there is a market for selling art prints, and some do ok with that, especially in the fanart world. Writing doesn't seem to get any sort of money. Not that I can really do either. But man, if I had the talent/skill to sell like art commissions or some such, christ, I'd so be doing that. I've got cels, but the only ones of value are ones I won't give up. And my dj collection is small, and while there are a few I'd be ok with selling, it'd mainly be to thin out my collection, and wouldn't make me terribly much.
Beh...at the same time, I know there are djs that have come out I desperately want. Damned new Yamada D and Jet Monster and Scoop stuff. And manga tankubon I need to collect. But I really just have to wait and hope it shows up later. I think is time to quit sneak-buying the English translated stuff, too--I have no compunction against just hanging out in the bookstore and reading. *shrugs* So feels better for my ethics/conscience, really. That all, at the least, should be there later. Hmph...I need to look at my old comics and English translated manga. Maybe there's stuff I could weed out.
Will do the concert this Friday, though. Is only 15$, and christ, it's Blue October (and Grasshopper Takeover, Swizzletree, & Social Burn). Tried to see if Dave wanted to go, but he's mired up in law school bad, what with the student law review, second year stuff, and a prep course for the patent bar.
Still getting that 'wish I knew what I want to be when I grow up' feeling. Except I am grown up, and I have no freaking clue. Still tempted by something scientific, or something to do with languages. But I really want to do something creative/artistic...just no idea *what*. Nor do I have any education/talent/still/experience, so it's kinda moot. But criminy. If I could just get an attention span and focus on something and actually stick with it...
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Date: 2004-09-21 08:21 am (UTC)Mmh.. I love both art and music and couldn't live without them :3. However, if I were to do any of them professionally, I'd need an incredibly focus and would have to give up the other :x. And even if I'd be able to be a musician/artist, I'd still be devasted if I can't improve like I want. I wouldn't be good at taking criticism either because any art is part of myself ^^;;... so, I study science and am able to keep my art and music as a hobby :3.
Never say anything bad about your writing again.. it's wonderful, deep and touching (I was just always too stupid to comment with something intelligent X3). Making a living from it would be still hard, though :x, and I suppose just studying literature and analyzing texts wouldn't be satisfying enough for you ^^? But you don't need to have necessarily studied something to do it.. Faraday never learned math, and yet there are at least two equations named after him because he was such a devoted experimentator XD, and Borodin was a chemistry prof and still played the cello and wrote two of the most beautiful string quartets ever X3...
Life's not a single-tracked path, as long as you're firm in your wishes and flexible in your methods.
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Date: 2004-10-27 03:36 pm (UTC)