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whitereflectionSo here I am, feeling like I wasted an entire evening.
See, I decided to read this story by fic author, P.L. Nunn. Some of her/his stuff I like, some I don't. This however, seemed *very* cool, very fascinating. And what's more, it was original fiction. Now I can read published stuff, no problem--but when it comes to online stuff, I swear I only read fanfic. I *never* read original stuff. But this...this was so fascinating, I just had to give it a chance.
And it seemed to be paying off--it was a really interesting, supernatural/fantasy yaoi piece, and damned long (45 parts). Not to mention pretty nicely written. Then I hit the end parts, the climax of the story (like around part 43). Where the main character is raped in a rather graphic manner.
...jeezus. Why, tell me, why do so many authors online and published, resort to this for plot/danger to their characters/angst/whatever? WHY??? Yeah, main character was eventually found and reunited with his love, but...I dunno. I just feel...squicked. Ick. And really rather dark and depressed, even a little angry. I feel like I felt when I read the third in Mercedes Lackey's "Last Herald Mage" trilogy (for basically the exact same reason, plotwise) I feel like...like the story was ruined for me. Like it was just too much seeing the character hurt *that* badly--I could take the physical abuse the character suffered...but not *that*.
And so there goes a good chunk of my day, with nothing left to show for it other than being sucked down emotionally. If I would have known...but no, this author doesn't believe in putting warnings on their story. Ooh hoo, can't spoil the surprise for the reader, right? Sorry, but that sort of surprise I can *so* do without. Maybe I'm a pansy-assed-wuss or whatever, but...*shrugs* That's just me, I guess--I don't pull back from certain sorts of darkness well...I stew about it. Yeah, I'm a freak that way.
Rgh...so many more productive things I coulda done this afternoon/evening. I coulda written, done art, called Nix, IMed people...what a waste of free time, the little amount of *alone* free time I get in a week. Though now I wonder why I bother to rant about it--it solves nothing. I read it, I can't change that, so...I guess I should just shrug it off and forget it or something. I dunno. Just pisses me off, is all. Hmf.s
See, I decided to read this story by fic author, P.L. Nunn. Some of her/his stuff I like, some I don't. This however, seemed *very* cool, very fascinating. And what's more, it was original fiction. Now I can read published stuff, no problem--but when it comes to online stuff, I swear I only read fanfic. I *never* read original stuff. But this...this was so fascinating, I just had to give it a chance.
And it seemed to be paying off--it was a really interesting, supernatural/fantasy yaoi piece, and damned long (45 parts). Not to mention pretty nicely written. Then I hit the end parts, the climax of the story (like around part 43). Where the main character is raped in a rather graphic manner.
...jeezus. Why, tell me, why do so many authors online and published, resort to this for plot/danger to their characters/angst/whatever? WHY??? Yeah, main character was eventually found and reunited with his love, but...I dunno. I just feel...squicked. Ick. And really rather dark and depressed, even a little angry. I feel like I felt when I read the third in Mercedes Lackey's "Last Herald Mage" trilogy (for basically the exact same reason, plotwise) I feel like...like the story was ruined for me. Like it was just too much seeing the character hurt *that* badly--I could take the physical abuse the character suffered...but not *that*.
And so there goes a good chunk of my day, with nothing left to show for it other than being sucked down emotionally. If I would have known...but no, this author doesn't believe in putting warnings on their story. Ooh hoo, can't spoil the surprise for the reader, right? Sorry, but that sort of surprise I can *so* do without. Maybe I'm a pansy-assed-wuss or whatever, but...*shrugs* That's just me, I guess--I don't pull back from certain sorts of darkness well...I stew about it. Yeah, I'm a freak that way.
Rgh...so many more productive things I coulda done this afternoon/evening. I coulda written, done art, called Nix, IMed people...what a waste of free time, the little amount of *alone* free time I get in a week. Though now I wonder why I bother to rant about it--it solves nothing. I read it, I can't change that, so...I guess I should just shrug it off and forget it or something. I dunno. Just pisses me off, is all. Hmf.s
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Date: 2002-04-22 10:38 pm (UTC)Amidamaru and Yoh as kitties!
That'll cheer you up!
And if not--- Jango will sing for you!
Date: 2002-04-22 10:43 pm (UTC)JANGO! JANGO - JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de GO TO SLEEP
JANGO! JANGO- JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de yume no sekai e
ore wa ikken futsu no ottoko
hade jya nai daro?
damasareta daro?
nakuko mo damaru saimin jyutsushi
ikashi teru daro
bibitta daro?
saa konno RING o jiitto miro!
1. 2. JANGO de sekai ga kawaru!
JANGO! JANGO - JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de GO TO SLEEP
JANGO! JANGO- JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de ore mo SLEEP!
ore wa enshitsu jyuushino ottoko
ushiro arukide
TURN de toojyo
shijyo saikyo saimin jyutsushi
shijyo hazu daro?
...ago wa hottoke!
saa konno RING de yureru ga ii
1. 2. JANGO de kimi mo TRIP
JANGO! JANGO - JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de GO TO SLEEP
JANGO! JANGO- JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de zutto DREAM!
JANGO! JANGO - JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de GO TO SLEEP
JANGO! JANGO- JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de yume no sekai e
JANGO! JANGO - JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de GO TO SLEEP
JANGO! JANGO- JANGO! JANGO (JANGO)
1. 2. JANGO de yume no sekai e
Re: And if not--- Jango will sing for you!
Date: 2002-04-23 06:16 am (UTC)And I *most* dig the Amida & Yoh pic. That is delightfully cute. :)
...and thanks. *many virtual hugs* I'll quit being in such a snarky mood soon, I promise. I may just listen to Sarah McLachlan's Fumbling Towards Ecstacy far too many times and properly enjoy my funk, then it'll pass. *nods muchly*
--Me
Re: And if not--- Jango will sing for you!
Date: 2002-04-23 08:58 am (UTC)Oh. Duh. ><; Re: And if not--- Jango will sing for you!
Date: 2002-04-23 10:11 am (UTC)Meh...and didn't Jango appear earlyish? I can't remember that far back! *flails yet again* Mouuu...guess I'm gonna have to just re-read it all sometime.
Re: Oh. Duh. ><; Re: And if not--- Jango will sing for you!
Date: 2002-04-23 10:59 am (UTC)Jango and Fullbody (The guy from the Marines with the metal hand that was dining on Sanji's ship) have a fullblown Splash Page Adventure called 'Jango's Dance Party'!
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Date: 2002-04-23 10:27 am (UTC)Oh, yes, and frankly, the whole thing about Van being raped for me actually made it feel more realistic. Not that I approve, mind you. But if they'd just kidnapped him and then dumped him in the cellar, that wouldn't have been nearly as realistic.
...oh, I would advise you NOT to read Anne Bishop's Black Jewels trilogy if you're that squicked by rape. ^^;;
Meep
Date: 2002-04-23 11:50 am (UTC)Why didn't I know anyone had one of these things?? I could have kept up so much better with what was going on with people! @__@;;;
*HUGS*
Lemming
(a day late and about.... $3.50 short)
Re: Meep
Date: 2002-04-23 07:19 pm (UTC)But hey--don't worry. Not everyone has a lj, but it is cool you found your way here. It's been an awesome way to keep in contact with folks...I know I do way, way better at being social here than I do anywhere else. :) *extraextraLemminghugs!* ^^
--Die