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[whitereflection]

Today I continue to be all insecurity and no self esteem--very much that I-suck/I-screw-everything-up/people-must-think-I-don't-like-them/no-one-really-likes-me/I-drive-people-away/I-want-attention, whiny, pathetic sort of mood.

So naturally I must wallow in it through use of the appropriate music. Because I've long held the idea that Kaidoh (esp. rp-hs!Kaidoh) would listen to various sorts of 80s/90s music, amongst other things, especially hair bands, and secretly would dig those 'power ballad' sort of pieces. So having him listening to Bon Jovi's Santa Fe made me want to listen to it, which led to two thoughts. One, that song still kicks me in the teeth, and two, that song is fourteen years old. *FOURTEEN*. I've almost doubled my age since when I first went nuts over it and the Young Guns II/Blaze of Glory soundtrack. Some of the people I know were *toddlers* when it first came out. Which, yeah, adds to the whole feeling great thing. Great.

Anyway. Dabbled in some Sirius/Remus fic-reading last night, as for some reason I've been craving that. And crashed kinda early again. I desperately need to get back into housecleaning (as the place is getting funky again, esp. with someone doing stupid things to just add to it), but am having trouble finding the motivation to do so.

So, yeah, anyway, I suck. (And I am overusing hyphens and the '/' thing). Have work. Am so 'whee' about that. They're calling for thunderstorms, but I bet we won't get them. ...really, it doesn't matter whether it's work or home--I just don't want to do...anything. Except maybe read. Or sleep.

I want to watch Office Space.

Comments

[magnolia-ceres.livejournal.com]

._.

*gives you a hug and French cupcake* :3

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

ah, gomen for the moodiness. #-_-# Sankyuu, though. (gads, a French cupcake sounds spectacular...)

*snugs* Glad you are back, ne--hope it was much fun

[magnolia-ceres.livejournal.com]

Nya, it's not your fault ^_^. Right now I really feel like some hormonal teenager getting swayed away too easily.. one day being all grouchy and depressed, and then chipper and happy again... it's mysterious, but maybe it's summer's fault for making me so volatile and influenceable.

Fun <33!! It was so much fun =D! Will have to ramble about it later.. but not too much later when I'll be forgetting stuff X3...

[mintaka00.livejournal.com]

~checks~ Yup, still like you. Still think you're cool and kind and funny. ~squishes~ So listen to some music that makes you feel free and say to hell with housework. My gram always tells me not to waste any time worrying about cleaning, it's boring anyway.

~hugs~

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

*leans, hugs inna clingy way, just holds and and gets held for a long while* I like your gram. And definitely a time I wish I could move closer. I'd like some you-time. *misses, sends love*