Terrified...
Dec. 5th, 2001 08:24 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionGonna talk to someone tonight...have a friend who's been doing some counseling work for us (obviously, things have been off for a while, though it's just now I'm realizing how much it's *me*). I'm gonna ask to go alone tonight.
I'm scared out of my mind...I can't believe what a damned coward I am, but there it is. All I keep thinking, though, is what an absolute *freak* I am. It's pathetic how broken I've ended up. Always said I didn't want to be normal, but this sort of...melodrama...I don't need that in my life.
Feh, whatever. Enough whining for now. Perhaps enough whining for another few months. *shrug* Man, I'm gonna hyperventilate...
I'm scared out of my mind...I can't believe what a damned coward I am, but there it is. All I keep thinking, though, is what an absolute *freak* I am. It's pathetic how broken I've ended up. Always said I didn't want to be normal, but this sort of...melodrama...I don't need that in my life.
Feh, whatever. Enough whining for now. Perhaps enough whining for another few months. *shrug* Man, I'm gonna hyperventilate...