Wednesday already...technically
Dec. 31st, 2003 12:48 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionMan...my break is just flying by, just flying, as much as I try to clutch at the time and make it slow down or stop. I'm not ready to go back to work yet, not ready to face that again, or face getting back to class on the 12th. Am really, really not ready for another year to be ending, for a new one to be beginning, because it's all going so *damned* fast... Yikes...ok, was literally in a feel-good mood a sec ago, but thinking along those lines has me kind of shaken up/freaked out, in a way. So time to stop thinking about it. For now at least. *sighs, scratches head* The flow of time...disconcerts me, occasionally. So very, very fast...
Anyway.
Still can't quite figure out my hiding mood of late. Part antisocial, part withdrawn, part quiet, part solitary, part introspective, part uncertain, part observing, part listening-watching-taking things in...can't quite describe it or figure it out. I can do little bits of interacting, but not much. I do know that at least I am getting a lot of reading done, which can be a good thing, even if mostly it's rereading...just sometimes that's the sort of thing that's needed to recharge and reequilibrate.
And in the process, discovered something that I'd been wanting so long. Finally gave in and joined the tenipuri yaoi and potfics communities (and un soir, but that isn't quite related to this tangent). And there discovered...what was the author name...tiamatv? Something like that. But...oh, such very *Di* ficcage. And the Inukai...the Inukai...! God, I so *needed* stuff like that. Very, very nice-fun-what-Di-craves Inukai. And that's why I was so feel-good a bit ago. So nice when a craving is assuaged like that (and lovely bits of OishiEiji, ZukaFuji mentions, even a cute little MomoRyo bit ^__^ ). And this on the heels of the ohmygodamazing Saeki/Atsushi/Ryou fic Yume did--it all leaves me just...well, like at least *some* little bit in me is feeling content, satisfied (and no, I'm not playing on innuendo for once, heh).
*tired* Hm...sleep and eating schedule is so wonky and out of whack. When I fall out of my routine, I really fall out of my routine. Guess I should figure out if I want the car tomorrow, in which case I get up early, or if I let myself sleep in. Kinda wouldn't mind getting out and about on my own, not being tethered to the house, but sleep...I keep staying up too late, and never letting myself catch up. Think I was getting more sleep when work was on. >_o ...maybe close to five hours would be ok, especially if I tried sleeping in on New Year's day...
New Year's...it's almost here, already. So many resolutions I want to make, but so few I think I could stick to or be successful at...
Lot of other thoughts on my mind, people I'm worrying about and feeling like I'm separated by glass from. But should let that be it, for now.
Anyway.
Still can't quite figure out my hiding mood of late. Part antisocial, part withdrawn, part quiet, part solitary, part introspective, part uncertain, part observing, part listening-watching-taking things in...can't quite describe it or figure it out. I can do little bits of interacting, but not much. I do know that at least I am getting a lot of reading done, which can be a good thing, even if mostly it's rereading...just sometimes that's the sort of thing that's needed to recharge and reequilibrate.
And in the process, discovered something that I'd been wanting so long. Finally gave in and joined the tenipuri yaoi and potfics communities (and un soir, but that isn't quite related to this tangent). And there discovered...what was the author name...tiamatv? Something like that. But...oh, such very *Di* ficcage. And the Inukai...the Inukai...! God, I so *needed* stuff like that. Very, very nice-fun-what-Di-craves Inukai. And that's why I was so feel-good a bit ago. So nice when a craving is assuaged like that (and lovely bits of OishiEiji, ZukaFuji mentions, even a cute little MomoRyo bit ^__^ ). And this on the heels of the ohmygodamazing Saeki/Atsushi/Ryou fic Yume did--it all leaves me just...well, like at least *some* little bit in me is feeling content, satisfied (and no, I'm not playing on innuendo for once, heh).
*tired* Hm...sleep and eating schedule is so wonky and out of whack. When I fall out of my routine, I really fall out of my routine. Guess I should figure out if I want the car tomorrow, in which case I get up early, or if I let myself sleep in. Kinda wouldn't mind getting out and about on my own, not being tethered to the house, but sleep...I keep staying up too late, and never letting myself catch up. Think I was getting more sleep when work was on. >_o ...maybe close to five hours would be ok, especially if I tried sleeping in on New Year's day...
New Year's...it's almost here, already. So many resolutions I want to make, but so few I think I could stick to or be successful at...
Lot of other thoughts on my mind, people I'm worrying about and feeling like I'm separated by glass from. But should let that be it, for now.
