Feh

[whitereflection]

Things seem very stressful, but I think it may just be that I'm exhausted, making little crap seem worse than it is. In any event, not happy. We may lose the buyer we have/had on our house...they're freaking out about the foundation. Yeah, it bowed in a couple inches, but that happened *years* ago, and it hasn't moved in at least 5-7 years since measures were taken to fix the problem! But now they're talking about doing wall anchoring, and we just don't have a ton of money lying around for repairs--the money we do have is supposed to go to us buying a new place. Crap! I ****ing hate our house, at times I think I hate my life. There's always something screwing up, and the trouble is, it's never anything that bad where I'd feel justified about getting stressed out...so I get stressed and feel guilty and weak for doing so!

Feeling overwhelmed, trapped in by everything again. I wanna live a life with no responsibilities, where I'm responsible for and answerable to only myself, but I don't seem to have that sort of option available to me anymore. I'm pissed at everything...I hate me. Sad, I sound like someone far, far younger than I am.

I need sleep....