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Right. Been dreading today. I just don't want to deal with it all--with the high amounts of emotion, with having to watch how hard it is on my aunts and dad, not to mention my cousins who all lived closer and so interacted with Grandma so much more. I don't want to have to run interference with an old ex-friend of Dad's who he had a falling out with some time ago. And I don't want to have to worry about how emotional I'll get, and trying to not show it, as I don't like being seen like that. Even in a situation like this. I don't even want to deal with the 'go through the house and see if there's anything you'd like' thing--yes, I do want some of the old pictures, esp. those few we have of previous generations. I have so little connection to my family history. And I would like some of her recipes, if they've found them. But I just don't want to deal with it today. Hmmf. Strange, that when Grandpa died, it just didn't seem to affect me as much--didn't seem to have quite the impact on the whole family that this has.

Anyway. On another note, looks like I got that one YJ auction I was trying for, the Kaidoh sketches. I gotta check my email to be sure. But I think I was the only bidder. *shrugs* Works for me. Happy belated birthday, yes. Hopefully then soon I shall have a box of PoT coming to me.

I should take my Japanese textbook along, try to study in the car while we drive. If doing so doesn't make me ill or anything. ...ah, time to go pick up Dave and head outta town. Right.