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Jun. 22nd, 2003 11:33 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionRe: PoT 3 -- Regulaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaars! *goes all fangirl-insane* And yes, I can see what the hubbub on Tezuka is all about. Mmmmmmmmyes! >D
Sound is fucked on my computer, so I desperately need to restart it. Trouble is, I'm in the middle of about 5 downloads I don't want to quit--and some of them are going to take a few hours. So..guess I'll put up with no sound for a while.
Watched PoT 3 w/o sound, but won't watch anymore until I can reboot and get said sound back. Next ep. will have Kaidoh stuff, it looks like, and I *V.E.R.Y.* much want to hear his voice. *nods*
Still pissy about that certain event in HP:OotP. Rrr. Gonna be more pissy when I read it. :p
Strangely, am not in a Fruba mood today. Would rather watch more Ghost in the Shell TV with the gang. But Katherine wants to show Fruba, so we'll finish it. Just don't feel like being around Katherine. But at least once this is done, I can weasel out of stuff with her for a while longer.
Is scary the number of gigs of anime I've dl-ed the past couple days. Am up to, what around 9 gigs already? *munches hard drive* Will need to do some burninating v.soon. *sings the Trogdor song, badly*
Bah, I so don't want to go back to 'things as usual'. Bah, I say.
God, I haven't been getting enough sleep lately, have I? Gotta stop this less than 5 hrs. a night thing again.
Been getting the strangest urges to write. It's like a voice whispering in my head (and it's not even Sue's, Kea's, or Nix's voices ^^; ) But I'm just so blocked against trying. It's like I'm afraid to. I want to try, but yet I really don't, and yet...god, does that make sense? It doesn't to me. Am such a f-ing freak. It's like become a phobia or some other psychological bullshit.
...I wish I could draw. Meh.
Once I'm done with this batch of dl's, will have all of PoT except 31-56. Not bad. *nods* Will have to keep an eye out for those eps.
God, so, *so* damned tired. F-ing idiot me. >p
Sound is fucked on my computer, so I desperately need to restart it. Trouble is, I'm in the middle of about 5 downloads I don't want to quit--and some of them are going to take a few hours. So..guess I'll put up with no sound for a while.
Watched PoT 3 w/o sound, but won't watch anymore until I can reboot and get said sound back. Next ep. will have Kaidoh stuff, it looks like, and I *V.E.R.Y.* much want to hear his voice. *nods*
Still pissy about that certain event in HP:OotP. Rrr. Gonna be more pissy when I read it. :p
Strangely, am not in a Fruba mood today. Would rather watch more Ghost in the Shell TV with the gang. But Katherine wants to show Fruba, so we'll finish it. Just don't feel like being around Katherine. But at least once this is done, I can weasel out of stuff with her for a while longer.
Is scary the number of gigs of anime I've dl-ed the past couple days. Am up to, what around 9 gigs already? *munches hard drive* Will need to do some burninating v.soon. *sings the Trogdor song, badly*
Bah, I so don't want to go back to 'things as usual'. Bah, I say.
God, I haven't been getting enough sleep lately, have I? Gotta stop this less than 5 hrs. a night thing again.
Been getting the strangest urges to write. It's like a voice whispering in my head (and it's not even Sue's, Kea's, or Nix's voices ^^; ) But I'm just so blocked against trying. It's like I'm afraid to. I want to try, but yet I really don't, and yet...god, does that make sense? It doesn't to me. Am such a f-ing freak. It's like become a phobia or some other psychological bullshit.
...I wish I could draw. Meh.
Once I'm done with this batch of dl's, will have all of PoT except 31-56. Not bad. *nods* Will have to keep an eye out for those eps.
God, so, *so* damned tired. F-ing idiot me. >p
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Date: 2003-06-22 10:24 am (UTC)"...I wish I could draw. Meh."
An f-ing freak for being a member of the human race, subject to all its emotional trials and tribulations? An f-ing freak for having been discouraged and devalued? I think not. (At least not any more or less than the rest of us. ^_^;; ) You've had some experiences which did not encourage you... so, what happens if you try and 'fail'? Your inner critic will pounce all over that. But here's the thing: it'll tell you you 'failed' even when you haven't at all failed.
You know something? You'll feel uncomfortable if you stay here, and maybe you'll feel uncomfortable if you go. But, either way, you'll always always have friends to gently encourage you.
I like the last bit... I know you wish you could draw, but stop changing the subject!! :-P We're talking about writing here, and I won't let you go so easily! *pounces on you and tickles and snuggles and loves you*
I find that the urges you're having to pick up writing again is a most fortuitious sign! You know, the thing that got me into writing again (after a hiatus of nearly 8 years) was picking a character. One I made up from scratch, or one in an anime. And I'd put myself there, as that character, and just think. Nothing more, just think. And, if I thought of anything, maybe I'd write it down later. Maybe I wouldn't. The putting to paper didn't matter, but simply -how well- I knew that character.
But it got me more comfortable with myself, and that's the point.
*loves you much*
.sj.
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Date: 2003-06-30 11:14 am (UTC)Anyway, much more I should say, but typically I've let things pile up, and I really don't want to leave it sit even longer. Many apologies. But at least I can use pep talks like this to keep nudging me back into writing again. I should at least try and do something, just for the heck of it. :)
Love you bunches,
--Di