A seething ball of resentment >p
Apr. 4th, 2003 11:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionJust finally sat down after work, errands, bills, laundry, dinner, and several hours of vacuuming. (And now that I think about it, the laundry's not *quite* finished...) All the while I'm just simmering with resentment about how much, or rather how little he is doing. Yeah, he chipped in...but I think he did about an hour to an hour and a half worth of stuff versus my five hours. I just...I'm having trouble letting go of all my negative emotion about this all--I'm trying to keep that 'given up' attitude about it instead. It's hard to be just working my fucking ass off, and see him goofing off at the computer with Amptguard crap.
And then when I'm about to go for the dishes, to have him halfway-affrontedly say "I told you I was going to do that"...well, to tell the truth, I never know. Maybe he will. Maybe he will two days from now. Or maybe five months will pass and he won't have done it. I just can't count on it one way or another.
So then I finally sit down here, in my Offspringish (ie. the song Bad Habit) mood, and the very, *very* first song that comes up on my iTunes is Evanescence's "My Immortal". And I immediately go from mega-pissed off to godawfuljeezusdepressed in one instant. I love that song, *love* it, but at the wrong time, and it can claw one's insides up.
Yeah, anyway. Of course, X Japan's "X" is on now, so I can be pissy again. Bah. I'm gonna go mess with that 'Build Your Own Red Meat Comic' site some more, then go to bed. Tomorrow I'll knock this fucking chip off my shoulder. Ohwait, there's another thing I have to do. Then I can shut down. Yeah.
Hey, Aaron...the hotel reservations settled yet? If not, let me know--I can call them in tomorrow if you guys need.
And then when I'm about to go for the dishes, to have him halfway-affrontedly say "I told you I was going to do that"...well, to tell the truth, I never know. Maybe he will. Maybe he will two days from now. Or maybe five months will pass and he won't have done it. I just can't count on it one way or another.
So then I finally sit down here, in my Offspringish (ie. the song Bad Habit) mood, and the very, *very* first song that comes up on my iTunes is Evanescence's "My Immortal". And I immediately go from mega-pissed off to godawfuljeezusdepressed in one instant. I love that song, *love* it, but at the wrong time, and it can claw one's insides up.
Yeah, anyway. Of course, X Japan's "X" is on now, so I can be pissy again. Bah. I'm gonna go mess with that 'Build Your Own Red Meat Comic' site some more, then go to bed. Tomorrow I'll knock this fucking chip off my shoulder. Ohwait, there's another thing I have to do. Then I can shut down. Yeah.
Hey, Aaron...the hotel reservations settled yet? If not, let me know--I can call them in tomorrow if you guys need.
