... *sighs*

[whitereflection]

I resign from the world. I think I understand why some yearn to become hermits, to end all contact with the rest of humanity. I wish there was some way I could hide out somewhere, and only interact with those very, very few people I consider myself close to--and where I would never hear anything about anyone else in the rest of the world, ever again. And where I could live my life and think my thoughts without anyone else trying to control me or denigrate me for doing so. The United States of Bah, Leave Me The Hell Alone.

On an ever so vaguely related note, it's really eating at me how I really tend to feel that everyone should have a chance to express their opinions and beliefs, no matter what you think about the topic, whether it offends you or not--while on the other side, those that tend to have differing opions than I just freak the hell out that I (and those like me) don't agree. They mock those that don't agree, vilify and hate them, and practically threaten violence for that disagreement--anywhere from demanding that anyone who thinks differently just shut up, to threatening reprisals/severe consequences/harm for believing differently and saying so. Why do some people have such fear and hate that not everyone feels like they do? Why can I hear differing opinions and not be threatened by it, but others react with verbal/physical violence if you don't think as they do?

I really, very much wish I could go to somewhere like New Zealand or Canada. There are so many places I don't fit in here, anymore--so many people that I am disgusted with/ashamed of, and wish I didn't have to associate with.

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*smohuggles*

[mixmasta-tiki.livejournal.com]

I really, very much wish I could go to somewhere like New Zealand or Canada =D

Let's go! We'll only ever come back for anime cons.
Gimme a call sometime, or let me know when I can give you a call. I'll do my best to cheer you up. I'll share some of my handy tips for ignoring all the idiocy in the world that's driving you nuts. If I didn't know how to do it, I'd have killed myself and took everyone down with me already.

Re: *smohuggles*

[whitereflection.livejournal.com]

*extrahugs* I do owe you a call, don't I? Especially since I know you've been needing something like that as much as I have lately. I'll lean on you, you can lean on me--it'll all work somehow, eh?

BTW, your 'sakura on a black background' concept has given me a great idea for a stained glass project to do someday. I cross my fingers that I can somehow get good enough to do something like that.

And yes, I could use those handy tips. I could really really really really use said tips. Otherwise my occasional soundtrack moments of "Break Stuff" and "One Step Closer" will become a reality, just like what you're mentioning. Gah. It's surrounding me--everything I see, everything I hear, everything I worry about, everything I watch or read, etc etc. I don't seem to do apathy well--I gotta figure out how to achieve it. :p *sighs*

And just in case you didn't see my mention in that one lj post last night--I am for sure going to AX, and it looks like it'll be just me (it's just too many people for James). Have you gotten a chance to get the room yet--will it be the WCA? Let me know if you need help getting it. And let me know what days it'll be reserved for, so I can plan when to fly in and fly out. And I gotta get my registration, don't I? Cosplay-wise, I think I will redo Duo one day, just because. But I think I may be putting together a couple of webcomic character outfits--Riff from Sluggy Freelance and Hot Soup from Lethal Doses. If I get really amibitious, I still wanna do Mr.Long Hair from Digicharat, but that's just a maybe. Eh, knowing me, they're all just maybes...but at least I'm hoping to get 'em put together.

God, I gotta shut up. Anyway, I'll toss an email out to you when I have a better idea when I can call. This weekend is going to be nutzcrazy, so maybe next week sometime... *ponders*

*hugs* Take it easy, 'kay?
--Di