On the edge...
Feb. 19th, 2003 01:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
whitereflectionBeen trying to lay a bit low the past few days--I'm in that sort of mood where just anything can set me off, and I'd rather not dump all that here yet again. Is hard, tho...I mean, it seems like just everything is getting me angry, and anything I try to discuss just becomes yet another instance of me ranting and venting. And then today at work here we get notification of how bad the budget cuts for this year will actually be... ><;;;; *flails* I am resisting...but just barely.
Man, I'm jittery lately...jittery, edgy, weirded-out, angry, like I'm just waiting for something to light my fuse so I can go off. It's one of those 'on the edge/one step closer, and I'm about to break' moods. Maybe it's some hormonal, but I know it's not all that. Maybe it's that I'm so godawful exhausted again, or that I'm worn down from my allergies getting to me, or that the constant emotional stresses of my personal life leave me constantly feeling tension and anxiety. Maybe it's all of the above. Criminy--work/my supervisor, politics, religion, economics, relationships, traffic, people, enviroment...so many things I could go off about. Gah.
Am distracting myself muchly using webcomics. Seriously, those are practically saving my sanity. Even fanfiction doesn't seem to be escapist enough at the moment. But I'm finally caught up on Strange Candy, and I've just read all of Little Gamers and Mac Hall. Gotta admit, I've added SC, Something Positive and MH to my 'read daily/very often' list, with PVP, 8bit Theater, Megatokyo, Sinfest, and Buttlord GT. MH and SP have especially become big favorites. Right there is my sense of humor in a nutshell. I wanna make a beanie ChooChooBear. (And speaking of webcomics, if you want biting, *bitter* political commentary, I discovered that "Get Your War On" is online.)
At least I've got a major project going at work again--it'd been too slow since I finished the last two. But now we've got the major reference map retroactive cataloging thing going on. That should take a while, happily. Maybe I can just focus on doing the work, not pay attention to what's going on at the adminstrative/budget level.
Got manga, tho. :) That is another thing saving my sanity. Anj got the animaxis order, so I finally have AzuDaioh #1, Gohou Drug #1, Araiso Private High School 1&2, Just!, Stigma, and Wild Adapter #2. All hail Minekura, CLAMP, and Azuma! And Anj just did an order to animenation--if I like the AzuDai artbooks she's getting, I'll pick them up later. I shouldn't have, but I did order the Studio Ghibli 'for solo guitar' music book. ^^; It was on sale, so...so...well, it needed to be bought. I haven't practiced since October, but I am wanting to get back into it. At least I'm feeling the motivation. Unmei has been so neglected.
I need to do some DDR again. Shoveling had me so messed up for days, I haven't tried since last week. And maybe this weekend I can finally get that damned exercise bike from Anj, that the snowstorm kept me from getting last weekend. :p But tonight tho...god, I'm just so beat. I wanna go home, get dinner, look at my manga a little and then just *sleep*. Nothing more than that. I will have to call and cancel with Michael, I guess, but that's ok, as he put his back out shoveling, and could use the rest time, I think.
Man, I'm jittery lately...jittery, edgy, weirded-out, angry, like I'm just waiting for something to light my fuse so I can go off. It's one of those 'on the edge/one step closer, and I'm about to break' moods. Maybe it's some hormonal, but I know it's not all that. Maybe it's that I'm so godawful exhausted again, or that I'm worn down from my allergies getting to me, or that the constant emotional stresses of my personal life leave me constantly feeling tension and anxiety. Maybe it's all of the above. Criminy--work/my supervisor, politics, religion, economics, relationships, traffic, people, enviroment...so many things I could go off about. Gah.
Am distracting myself muchly using webcomics. Seriously, those are practically saving my sanity. Even fanfiction doesn't seem to be escapist enough at the moment. But I'm finally caught up on Strange Candy, and I've just read all of Little Gamers and Mac Hall. Gotta admit, I've added SC, Something Positive and MH to my 'read daily/very often' list, with PVP, 8bit Theater, Megatokyo, Sinfest, and Buttlord GT. MH and SP have especially become big favorites. Right there is my sense of humor in a nutshell. I wanna make a beanie ChooChooBear. (And speaking of webcomics, if you want biting, *bitter* political commentary, I discovered that "Get Your War On" is online.)
At least I've got a major project going at work again--it'd been too slow since I finished the last two. But now we've got the major reference map retroactive cataloging thing going on. That should take a while, happily. Maybe I can just focus on doing the work, not pay attention to what's going on at the adminstrative/budget level.
Got manga, tho. :) That is another thing saving my sanity. Anj got the animaxis order, so I finally have AzuDaioh #1, Gohou Drug #1, Araiso Private High School 1&2, Just!, Stigma, and Wild Adapter #2. All hail Minekura, CLAMP, and Azuma! And Anj just did an order to animenation--if I like the AzuDai artbooks she's getting, I'll pick them up later. I shouldn't have, but I did order the Studio Ghibli 'for solo guitar' music book. ^^; It was on sale, so...so...well, it needed to be bought. I haven't practiced since October, but I am wanting to get back into it. At least I'm feeling the motivation. Unmei has been so neglected.
I need to do some DDR again. Shoveling had me so messed up for days, I haven't tried since last week. And maybe this weekend I can finally get that damned exercise bike from Anj, that the snowstorm kept me from getting last weekend. :p But tonight tho...god, I'm just so beat. I wanna go home, get dinner, look at my manga a little and then just *sleep*. Nothing more than that. I will have to call and cancel with Michael, I guess, but that's ok, as he put his back out shoveling, and could use the rest time, I think.